Originally Posted by raging vortex

I just had someone bring a KFC for us (sort of nice actually). I love KFC.

just listening to music and posting tonight

No way...Kentucky Fried Chicken?

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I just had someone bring a KFC for us (sort of nice actually). I love KFC.

just listening to music and posting tonight

Yum, yum, KFC... I haven't had that for a long time. Potato and gravy..... hmmmmm.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

No way...Kentucky Fried Chicken?

yes way.

I love the stuff

the chicken they do... well.... it's like no other

spent the night in pain.

it's bad enough not sleeping, but dealing with an unexpected bout of chronic pain as well...

pretty much the same today.

alive but not really sure why

[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrrr

apart from my depression (which is very deepp at the moment for some unknown reason), I have been present and " in the now

well... most of the time

their's like a 2 hour time slot yesterday afternoon where I'm not sure what happened
I choked on my dinner yesterday and was actually disgusted by it, the taste will take ages to get out of my mouth (it is still their)

I didn't sleep

today I have to fix my chest of drawers because one of the drawers collapsed

well, I say I have too, for now all the clothes can just go on my side as I don't have motivation to do it

Knew yesterday was hot...it zapped our mind. It was a record breaking 98 and we were working in very hot apartments sweating. It was gross. It’s going to be the same today.

We are finally off ‘on call’, now I can pay attention of this body. The guys been out all last week ready for a phone call. Take a break already, house is a wreck, this body is a wreck, no food,...geez

I never fixed my drawer

overeate, threw myself on the bed and watched a movie with winnie the pooh in it

what a productive day

not

difficult night with flashbacks- absolutely no sign of it letting up

pain was bad too

my back was so stiff I thoughtit was dead, nad that's something I never thought i'd say in a sentence

but no... hellish night and depressing day so far

So tired of knowing what I know.

[-Astral-]

not been to this part of the forum for a while, i feel i flux between myselves the flux isnt like me spiting but feels like many

i have been having times with no memory or conspet of time and i flout watching myself fluxing

I was heat sick yesterday, today is going to be another record breaking hot day. We were in a weird mind, like we couldn’t get the right part to their job. I’m just glad that we didn’t say anything weird or exposed ourselves.

stressfull day..

people who think they know more than you and they know what's best.

all I am saying

[Amyjay]

I don't know why I therapy. What a waste of time. What uselessness. What a waste.

Originally Posted by Amyjay

I don't know why I therapy. What a waste of time. What uselessness. What a waste.

I couldn't agree more

for me it's done nothing but cause problems

even worse problems than when I didn't have it

I had a nice night yesterday (sleepless, but nice)

I decided that I'd reread the secret garden (such a good book), and was doing that all night

sometimes I forget how soothing reading is.

I may not have much time for it (or indeed focus), but it is nice

I wish we would quit posting on here. I’ve asked for numerous account deletions, threw away passwords...and yet still here we are.

It’s embarrassing.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I wish we would quit posting on here. I’ve asked for numerous account deletions, threw away passwords...and yet still here we are.

It’s embarrassing.

I'd be quite upset if you left.

I'd understand, obviously, people come and go for their own reasons

but we all like you here (we as in the fvorum, not just our system)

we're feeling happy.

today we got a cd we wanted in the mail

it was, actually, a cd we'd destroyed previously out of anger (and a favorite album), so I am glad we have a new copy now

[-Astral-]

we want to feel safe cant feel that way the mother want to hurt us if she finds out we know she will kill us help

Originally Posted by -Astral-

we want to feel safe cant feel that way the mother want to hurt us if she finds out we know she will kill us help

R u ok???

[zapatoes]

In the past I’ve been so anxious in social setting or anxious talking to someone I want to be somewhere else. In the past applied as a bus person to bus tables where my college friend worked part time and I was embarrassed because when talking to the hiring manager I was almost shaking. For some reason get like this when meeting new people and it’s strange. As a kid I was an only child until 6 years old and my grandparents’ neighbor had a big family with 5 or more kids and was so nervous meeting them and my mom made feel like I was being an %#%*+. When had a new job a few years ago met a few co- workers at lunch and a few weeks or a month later my manager said that I look terrified. Meeting new people and eating in front of new people and starting a new job are all so terrifying to me anyway.

[Claritytoo]

I moved 300 miles from where I was living a week ago. I like it here better. I am having trouble identifying as 61 years old. I feel a lot younger and am not connecting with my age. I am not certain who we are when we are walking and talking to people. Part of me is glad we moved but it seems to have crystallized our confusion with how we engage with people. I don't know what it is to be 61. I can see the changes to my body but I still think I am in my thirties. It's causing a lot of doubt on how to be when meeting people. Talking to old friends helps me to be grounded but that only lasts a short time. I need to find a new therapist.

[-Astral-]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

R u ok???

yes we ok ...she dont know we know she thinks we dont talk to her for other reasons we have outside daddy and host daddy who look after us

Originally Posted by -Astral-

yes we ok ...she dont know we know she thinks we dont talk to her for other reasons we have outside daddy and host daddy who look after us

hey...

I am glad your daddy is nice

does he do nice things for you