deffenetly one of those days where you just think what's the point?

why am I here?

I honestly don't know why things are so bad half the time, I think half the time I'm just fed up of life and thinking... oh not again, and half the time
i just focus on all my regrets

like today.. not really much of a reason to be depressed,

but you know... today I sat in a chair and filled up on junkfood

go me. where's my medal. that sort of thing

barely functioned today.

what else can I say.. I really didn't get anything done apart from eat

[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Gonna make Dd disappear forever by not talking about it.

Very tired waking up. I was fast asleep last night, and about 3 am as usual I heard parts talking about weight gain and eating 2 eggs everyday and that’s why... and was trying to figure out what else to eat for breakfast that wasn’t eggy....shut up already, I’m trying to sleep.

Also noticed that at 3:30 am a very loud truck starts up every morning and drives away.

[Parva]

I decided today that DD totally and completely sucks.

"We are getting aggravated."
"Yes, we are."

very depressed yesterday,

to depressed to even come on here

managed to shower and to use some of my new perfume though

feel a little better today but not much (but wanted to come on here, felt so bad for not doing it yesterday)

listening to christmas music

Had blow out with kid last night, the Others started griping about his 20 year old lazy butt and it exploded on him kicking him out.

This morning we’re bugged about it.

Found stolen purse on floor with I.d. in it.

So many mixed feelings.

so much spare time, all wasted.

I did nothing today

nothing..

We took the kid to breakfast with his friends and got things straight.

Trying to relax today.

Updated stupid phone and now can’t post to FB. We are so compulsed to drink every can of beer in the fridge.

Tired

my day has been quite boring, with the only exciting part (or semi excting part), watching muppet's christmas carol

I love that movie

still... just feel blah

not really sure why- just my life sucks I guess

once again circumstances have got in the way of things... today I was actually meant to go to town to see the switching on of the christmas lights

but it's not happening, and honestly, not sure much is.

apart from having a gross shower this morning, I'm just sat here listening to music- and that's how it will probably remain for the day

Friday, to work we go...last 2 weeks a memoryless blur (what’s new?): bonus- today is payday (surprise!) which felt like last week was. Rent and car payment: ka-ching....gone.

We looked in a full length mirror with a good look...we need help.

I've decided to give up on the sisterhood book (I was enjoying it, sure), but the plots were getting a tiny bit confusing- and it was getting a little long, so I'm reading something simpler now.. I'm reading cut off, about a woman who loses her phone in a cafe (it is something I can cope with for the moment)

yesterday, where I live, it was the switching on of the christmas lights, so that meant their was a lot of fireworks (I say a lot of fireworks, it was a short display), but more than I've ever had to deal with. I handled it pretty well, and I even walked to my window to watch some of them (this is coming from the woman who gets triggered a lot by fireworks), so I think of that as a win- I watched some fireworks in the sky.

started my new book.. only read a chapter but I want to read more later (just here briefly to update the threads I want to)
I''m feeling good, and tonight I'm having a pizza takeaway so even better (my only takeaway this week)

of course the downside is the lacck of sleep, but is it?

barely affecting me so I guess not

[dlantern]

I got up and got my phones and went on facebook.....Ur too honest about this!!

[dlantern]

baby boy, go in one to get that out me other than that you are not fit for me!! ......I was dying laughing on saturday night live!!

I hate coming on here to find threads and postings started and written on this account that I know nothing about and is afraid to open to see the content out of shock and embarrassment.

Most of the reason I quit something is just because of that....evidence of my uncontrollable mind.

This forum is as much a trigger as anything else.

[Laurel1562]

This forum has also been a trigger for me, which is why I have not been reading it or posting. We are just trying to get past Thanksgiving which we for some stupid reason agreed to host for my daughters and their families. We are held together right now by spit and paper. By next week we will be pressing forward in therapy and hopefully making some progress. We've been in a holding pattern since watching my granddaughter up in Wisconsin in October.

the radio station I listen to needs to stop playing music by rod steuart

I know they don't know.. they have no way of knowing, but it's a massive ****ing trigger

I turn the music down so I don't have to listen to it, but still

So tired. The others stay up late watching YouTube. I find it pointless because I don’t know what was watched...talk about useless.

Mother is cooking turkey (been 34 years?)....

[Amyjay]

Ugh. Yep. Rod Stewart. Flashback songs for me.

Stayed up late early to work.

been depressed all day and got so little done

the positive is that I did open the window for a bit of fresh air from outside

it's very cold outside so it was nice to get the breeze