jade* likely to trigger

today i saw my grandma and she acted like nothing was wrong like my uncle had done nothing wrong... it hurt because she made me feel like i was exaggerated that the things he was doing weren't as bad as i made them out to be. i love my grandma but that hurt and i am angry and that scares me because i don't feel anger is safe. i was angry that she babied him and ignored me tried to make me keep it to myself... it makes me question whether or not i am just exaggerating and maybe it isn't a big deal ... but it feels like a big deal to me ... i told him to stop and he didn't listen and i am tired of people hurting me ... i know i am not a good girl but the counselor says i don't deserve that and i am trying to believe her ... but i feel so yucky on the inside but she says it isn't because of something i did, which my grandma claims but rather that he is the one with the problem that he is bad.... i just don't know i am sooooooo confused. mostly i feel angry angry that it happened angry that my parents and my grandma told me it was my problem and that they didn't even try to help but i should have known they wouldn't because they never did..... they never stood up for me they never took my side they never helped me.... they hurt me instead.....

your grandma isnt you she cant know what went on your uncle is the one doing wrong,
you did nothing wrong, im sorry your grandma doesnt belive you

go to somebody you trust outside the family to talk and get help, your uncle needs help, you have done nothing wrong to make this happen to you

Your gramma doesn't live with the trauma day in and day out like you do, and she probably just can't know how it affects you...it doesn't affect her that way (upsetting her entire life.) As she ages, she will know less and less, too.
Maybe she's always been ignorant of such things? Some people just don't have the capacity to believe horrible things.

thanks you two it makes me feel alittle better knowing that someone hears me

jade, you have done nothing wrong, is there anyone you can report your uncle to ?
he needs to be stopped, if he's done bad things to you is he doing bad things to others, your grandma is to be pityed (sp)
Laura

Hi ((((((((((((Ginniesky)))))))))))))
I'm sorry you are feeling bad. It's hard when people don't believe, especially when we already doubt. Maybe you can find other people for the support that you aren't able to get from family. We're glad you feel safe enough to post here. We care.

(((((((((((((((((((((((ginniesky))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry about your grandma and your parents not supporting you. I am glad you have your councelor to talk to. Know I am here and I care too.

BB