please help

hello
can anyone tell me what sort of questions i might be asked tomorrow when i see a pdoc to 'rule out' an eating disorder? is he going to ask me what i eat every day or about my past or...? is he going to send me to a doctor for a check up or tell me to come back to see him? how long is the appointment likely to be? is he going to ask about physical stuff like if i get stomach aches or throw up blood or have sore throats? cos i dont know how to answer those! sometimes i think i taste blood after but i never see any and yes sometimes my throat is sore like today its killing me but that could just be a cold or something. and maybe i get a sore tummy from stress or something not from food/lack of food/purging. omg i cant handle this right now. im on anti anxiety/depression meds too. should i mention that? i cant mess this up by sitting there not able to talk or just saying im fine and minimising. what if he tells me i dont have an eating disorder? hes going to take one look at how fat and disgusting i am and think theres no way i could have one. then im left to deal with all of this by myself! im so scared i can hardly think straight. i feel so totally useless and feicing fragile. what if i end up in tears? i only saw a pdoc once before and she was so harsh and blunt and aggressive and dismissive. what if i do what i usually do and end up putting on my armour so i come across totally capable and confident like most people see me and he doesnt see that inside im falling apart?

please someone help. i feel really alone in this.

Hello I hope you are feeling better. The main thing is that you tell the truth so that the therapist can help you. you usually fill out paper work, that gives you a chance to tell what is going on with you. you need to try to calm down, if you can you will do fine. If you forget somethign write it down and tell the counselor the next visit. Sometimes it is easier to keep a log on what is happening than try to remember every detail and then forget when the appointmetn comes. Take care I hope everything goes well today it will be over soon. good day Soidhonia

Something I've done in the past is to jot down a few things (like, 3 or 4) that I want to tell the doctor somehow. Then I just have to remember those things to get the ball rolling. Pick out some important things and then if you have to put on the armour, you'll still be able to tell the pdoc what you have to say.

It really depends on who they are and their style as to what they ask.

Most importantly tell the truth. It's really hard for them to help if you lie to them. Also if there's something you think they should let them know. You can either mention it when they ask a question pertaining to something similar as to what you are thinking about, or mention it at the end, often times they will ask if there's anything you would like to ask them or tell them at the end of the session.

As to time I would've thought that they would have already told you. In my experience I would guess it would be around an hour or two... that would be my guess though. I've had a first session that lasted two hours, and I've had a first session that lasted 30 min, but most I've had lasted around an hour.

Good luck... and I'm sure you'll do just fine, just try not to stress about it.

Hello I hope you survived the initial appointment with your Dr . I hope the best for you in your recovery. Take care Soidhonia

thank you ickydog and soidhonia. i survived. he didnt rule out the eating disorder though. ruled it in. then he started talking about inpatient care and my jaw nearly hit the floor. was stunned. it wont work with my schedule right now though and he thinks im probably not sick enough anyway which i guess is a good thing.
i feel so sick today. it hurts to turn my head, my throat hurts, i feel really nauseous. and thats only physically. i feel totally broken down emotionally. just in bits. been thinking of si which i have managed not to do in ages and i hate myself so much for posting on this board looking for support when i dont give much myself. im better at giving support in chat and i rarely seem to see people in chat here. i just feel at the utter end of my rope here. i cant keep going any more. i really need just to hear a friendly 'voice'. i need a hug and all day all i can do is pretend to be just normal and happy. i cant even keep up the pretense any more. had to skip class today because i was so sick in body and soul.
omg i whine so much. just shut up! ok im shutting up.

It's okay to vent or whine on here. We all understand and need that too sometimes. One thing I do want to say is don't SI. It's just replacing one negative coping mechanism with another and that is not going to help.

Hang in there and (((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))).

You are making incredible progress by just being able to talk to someone about what you're facing

I'm really proud of you for addressing these issues in your life and I'm glad the appointment went well.

thank you. i havent SI ed. i really dont want to though i keep thinking and thinking about it. i really dont want to. i want this mess in my head and body to stop though. thanks for replying.