ED has completely won..

I can no longer continue fighting this eating disorder.. It is an entity of it's own and it has won. It has my body and it can keep it. My life revolves around it,,, my body is broken down from it.
My friends and my son don't hear my cries for help - they don't want to acknowledge that I have an illness - that there is anything wrong,,,it's loney in my world, isolated. Sometimes I think I am truely crazy.. cause I am so sick and no one cares. I don't understand. I ask myself if they were sick, would I ignore it? It's like living in an unreal world that is insane.

Hi freewill I'm new to this, but I understand how you are feeling. I have anorexia and I as they say in a crisis. I am also alone. I have no friends or family. I know sometimes it is easier to just give in instead of fighting especially when it feels like know one is there to help. You have to keep fighting this eating disorder, for your son, even though it may seem like he is not haering you. Maybe he is scared and doesn't know what to do to help. Have you tried talking with him about this? Please keep fighting. I know it's easier said then done. Hang in there. Talk to you soon.

((((((((freewill))))

Do not give up!!! Do not let it when...freewill...we love you here...and none of us want to lose you to that. If you give up what will happen to the others that you might help later on in the future? What will happen to all those who look up to you? And most importantly what will happen to you? Think about it, use rage and anger to domolish this disease, you can over power it....You are brave and smart and have so much courage...sometimes friends and family have no idea how to help...so they sit there....take the steering wheel. Dont wait for them...I have learned that important lesson, never just sit and wait for someone to take the steering wheel to your life. Freewill, you must fight, this is the time to get up from where you are, curse this disease and say no more. Get on the phone and call for help. You have my support...and im most definitly positive that you have others here in support of you getting better....You are in my prayers...you are in my heart!!! Never Ever Give up- That is what our lives are about!!!! love, Inny

((((hugs))) to both of you.... thank you so much for "hearing me"