Help, I don't want my physical presence to be noticed

Does anyone else have this problem? Why are people so blunt and cruel about a person's looks and size? I freak when anyone makes any comment about what I look like.

I am on the thin side right now and I have disordered eating. Sometimes I just feel sick and worn out---and I look tired when I look in the mirror. My family is concerned about me and how I don't take good care of myself. So I visited my father yesterday and he said I look good. Period. No other comments. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?? DOES THAT MEAN I'M WEARING A NICE BLOUSE THAT DAY? MY HAIR LOOKS GOOD? OR IS IT A COMMENT ABOUT MY WEIGHT? I ALWAYS think someone is talking about my weight. And I equate looking good to being fat.

I feel like everyone is watching me and what my body looks like and what I eat or don't eat. I just want to hide so no one can look at me...

Who cares what they say? Most of the time it is because they are worried about you. I know you are a girl and I am guessing you are a teenager. I am one of the only guys I know of around here who has had anorexia and it's not something you notice right away or an over night fix. Just tell them that they look fatter than usual or just tell them that you are well aware that you look the way you do and there isn't much you can do about it. If you think they are being mean then maybe you should just laugh with them and you will over come it eventually and be at a normal weight. Stop being so dramatic too! The only reason you think you look bad is because you look at yourself too much. Go out with a friend and ask them how many guys check you out, you will be surprised. also, TAKE SOME COMPLIMENTS FOR ONCE! They make you feel great.

Why is it a bad thing that your father said you look good?
Why does looking "good" mean being fat?
Does that mean you don't look good, or that you don't want to look good?

A lot of times I have to really look at what people say to me - and ONLY what they said. I usually add all sorts of stuff that they didn't really say. That's the stuff that makes me upset. All the things that I think they say that they didn't really say. And if they didn't say it, then they didn't say it, and I don't need to get upset.

I wish people couldn't see what I look like. I'm really fat right now from being depressed and some of my lovely meds...people tell me I look nice, and it's really hard to believe them because I KNOW what I look like. But then it's NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS!!!

IDK...All I know is that my thinking makes me upset more than what most people really say to me.

OMGGGG

Yes yes yes!!! I felt like that EXACTLY. During my recovery phases of anorexia I felt EXACTLY like that. I was ALWAYS wearing huge sweat shirts and trackpants so no one would see how skinny I was underneath.

It sucks! I would go to stores and be soooo embarassed about trying on the tiniest size. And I felt like other girls were always looking at me and hated me.

And I HATE HATE HATE how everyone used to pay such close attention to me when I ate. And whe I say "I'm not hungry" and I'm REALLY NOT HUNGRY they roll their eyes and say "yeah of COURSE you're not hungry", and other comments like that.

I HATE that. HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, are you really too skinny??

Because I knew I was too skinny and I hated it. I suggest you just do whatever and tell people you're gaining weight.
It's NOW that you're going to find the people who really really care about you for the person you really are inside

Do you WANT to gain weight? Because for me I half did and half didn't, I did because I wanted to be healthy again but I didn't beacuse I was scared that ppl would say I got fat.Gosh I know exactly how you feel though haha... I can SO relate. (I'm much bigger now- ppl only tell me how much better I look)

Hope this helps!

I wish I could not read into what people say. If people even start talking about food, say at work, I start feeling crazy and I have to leave the room. I always see myself as weighing too much---I could weigh 65 lbs and I would still see myself larger than I really am. Sometimes I can't even go to the grocery store its so bad...

Have you tried telling your dad and others that you don't want to be noticed for your physical appearance, and asking them not to comment on that? Maybe you could give them ideas of what you would like to be noticed for. It is common for family members of people wiht eating disorders to be instructed not to comment at all on appearance, because focusing there makes things worse. There has been too much focus on appearance in your life.

I do feel anxiety when I eat. It's not just other people that pressure me---I pressure myself too. If I feel that I've been eating too much, I want to punish myself by hitting myself and giving myself bruises until I'm sore.