[Blueberrybook]

I woke up too late to run today. It's left me a bit antsy. I also have a bad sinus headache, and I hoped it would go away with being upright instead of lying down, but I guess not. Maybe I will try Tylenol, though it is rare that it actually helps me.

I see the T later today, the pdoc tomorrow. Hope the pdoc will not weigh me. I am dehydrated so I'm weighing a bit less, got to get more hydrated today, plus his stupid scale weighs 5 lb. low, so he thinks you weigh less than you do. I really need to drink more water today, but it gets boring, and I want the caffeine in coffee & Diet Coke. Ugh.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Gloomy day here. I didn't sleep very well last night. Tried a nap, but I couldn't fall asleep.

Did run, beat the rain though I got a little damp on the home stretch. Felt better being able to exercise. Weight is down a bit today, but I think I am dehydrated. See the pdoc on Wed., need to get hydrated again. See the T tomorrow, but this week feels weird with both H and my daughter home. Today feels like Sat. or Sun. (H is a teacher, so he is off this week along with the students.)

Stupid me keeps obsessing over my body. I have a skinny distrance runner's physique now, very compact. Thighs too big, but well, I run.

Still hating the ulcer surgery scar on my abdomen (belly button & up around 4 inches) from Feb. I swear, you can still see where those stupid staples went in. Most of the scar is healing good, though there is a dark pink spot taking it's time. I see gastro-doc next month. Gastro doc and trauma surgeons seem super pleased with this surgery. I had muscle where they normally would have taken fat for the surgery (I had started running, maybe a month or so), and they had to take the fat from another place, changing other parts of the surgery a bit. I don't doubt they have collaborated and written it up for a journal, from off-hand comments I heard. It's not like they need my permission, they just call me female, age 40, etc. Stupid scar.

I've had a scar since 1989 when I had "female surgery." It was so dark for a long time and my lower abdomen looked deformed. It really bothered me for a long time. Wish I had not had the surgery and found out I could have gone a better route with a different doctor and then would not have the scar at all. I guess now it's just a part of who I am and it doesn't bother me so much now.

[LucyD]

It's a new day, a new beginning. Feeling alright today. Didn't feel so good yesterday, think I slept too much making me ache all over.

[LucyD]

Well, Thanksgiving is tomorrow. I am thawing a turkey breast for tomorrow. Also have a yam, brussel sprouts and will make some stuffing, too. I'll be spending it just with my dog Suzy and we WILL enjoy our meal!

[MickeyCheeky]

((((LucyD)))) You can do this!

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

((((LucyD)))) You can do this!

Thanks so much.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Well, Thanksgiving is tomorrow. I am thawing a turkey breast for tomorrow. Also have a yam, brussel sprouts and will make some stuffing, too. I'll be spending it just with my dog Suzy and we WILL enjoy our meal!

I'm proud of you! I wish I had your motivation. Thanksgiving for us with be H, my daughter, and me, and I thought, "What is the point of cooking a Thanksgiving dinner for only 3 people?" so we are not having Thanksgiving. Possibly some ham, depends, I am not feeling well today.

[Blueberrybook]

Ran today. Stomach got upset (diarrhea & feeling like I had to throw up). Made it to the pdoc's dehydrated. I told him, don't even weight me, the number won't be right, and he didn't. I got a lecture on eating more protein. Kept meds the same for the first time in forever. Have a phone appt. with him in 2 weeks.

Got home, started feeling sick again. Took some Pepto-Bismol (supposed to be careful using it if you have ulcers, but I am not sure about post-ulcer because they gave it to me in the hospital all the time, of course, the liquid version). Started feeling a bit better. Ate chicken, rice & barley soup, some applesauce, feel horrendous, like I might throw up any second. I had thought maybe I made myself sick running too far on an empty stomach, but I'm pretty sure it's a stomach bug. OMG, I feel awful.

Every time I try to lie down in bed, something disrupts me - telephone (telemarketer), doorbell (UPS, then FedEx, then UPS, then Jehoviah's Witnesses). I just can't lie down and nap or even relax.

Dehydrated to the point of looking bad in the face: the sallow, hollow type face. I get just a few pounds lower or lose some water, I just look awful. Took more Pepto-Bismol (that stuff can be taken more than most medications), feeling a bit better, so I think I will look for more liquid: water, apple juice, applesauce even. Wish I had some grapes, but I don't.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Ran today. Stomach got upset (diarrhea & feeling like I had to throw up). Made it to the pdoc's dehydrated. I told him, don't even weight me, the number won't be right, and he didn't. I got a lecture on eating more protein. Kept meds the same for the first time in forever. Have a phone appt. with him in 2 weeks.

Got home, started feeling sick again. Took some Pepto-Bismol (supposed to be careful using it if you have ulcers, but I am not sure about post-ulcer because they gave it to me in the hospital all the time, of course, the liquid version). Started feeling a bit better. Ate chicken, rice & barley soup, some applesauce, feel horrendous, like I might throw up any second. I had thought maybe I made myself sick running too far on an empty stomach, but I'm pretty sure it's a stomach bug. OMG, I feel awful.

Every time I try to lie down in bed, something disrupts me - telephone (telemarketer), doorbell (UPS, then FedEx, then UPS, then Jehoviah's Witnesses). I just can't lie down and nap or even relax.

Dehydrated to the point of looking bad in the face: the sallow, hollow type face. I get just a few pounds lower or lose some water, I just look awful. Took more Pepto-Bismol (that stuff can be taken more than most medications), feeling a bit better, so I think I will look for more liquid: water, apple juice, applesauce even. Wish I had some grapes, but I don't.

I hope your stomach gets better. Bugs are no fun at all! Oh no! Not the Jehoviah's Witnesses! Don't forget to drink plenty of water. I need to also.

[LucyD]

Seems not many have stopped by today..wonder why..is it the Holidays? I know how hard they can be. My brother moved out of state this summer leaving me with no one in the family. Well, my nephew is still here but really no one gives a crap any more.

[happysobercrafter]

Hi, Everybody!

I know why I overeat. I am trying to compensate for all of the unmet needs in my life. So, I am going to sit my fat butt down to go through it and come up with a plan of action.

Happy Thanksgiving, Everyone!!

[LucyD]

[shovelhead]

Originally Posted by LucyD

My favorite is classic rock n roll but I also like just about every kind of music. I listen to some of everything. My favorite lately is Bryan Ferry. I love his music! What kind of music do you like?

I love classic rock too. Plus every other kind of music, including classical, u name it! Everything! I love Bryan ferry & Roxy music! Was just listening to song "slave to love" on YouTube

[katydid777]

I haven't eaten anything yet, but I will have a big dinner.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by shovelhead

I love classic rock too. Plus every other kind of music, including classical, u name it! Everything! I love Bryan ferry & Roxy music! Was just listening to song "slave to love" on YouTube

That's a great song! I found a song on his cds the other day I hadn't heard before. It's really a nice song. I'll post it when I come across it later.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by katydid777

I haven't eaten anything yet, but I will have a big dinner.

Enjoy!

[shovelhead]

Intermittent fasting now. We're not celebrating Thanksgiving. I baked my OH pumpkin pie yesterday. It makes 2 pies from the canned pumpkin. I tried 1 piece yesterday. It's delicious but I'd much rather have chocolate, etc. My OH loves pies. The pastry turns me off too. Cuz that crap is so calorific. Happy Thanksgiving, Everyone here!

[shovelhead]

Originally Posted by LucyD

That's a great song! I found a song on his cds the other day I hadn't heard before. It's really a nice song. I'll post it when I come across it later.

I really dig them. Listen to "dance away" by Roxy music. One of my faves.
I need a greatest hits compilation by Ferry and Roxy music

[Blueberrybook]

Happy Thanksgiving to those in the U.S.

I did a small Thanksgiving lunch, honey ham on rolls. Not up to cooking much for 3. Stomach is still wonky from yesterday, and I've messed up some dosing of my mood stabilizer (lamotrigine). I filled my medicine box and had to switch bottles; they make that pill every which way - large white tablets, blue pentagons, pink/peach oval capsules. None of the versions look alike & my pharmacy seems to be toying with using different manufacturers, and if I have to get it mail order, it's another manufacturer. The missed doses have made me somewhat manciky, but I'll be OK. I slept 9.5 hr. last night. No running today, feel guilty about that, but my stomach still doesn't feel the greatest, so a break isn't going to kill me.

I am thankful most of the time for not dying from the perforated ulcer I had on Valentine's Day. Post-op, I really wished I had died because of the pain. Even now, sometimes I question if I was supposed to make it and if so, to what purpose? It caused me to lose over 10 lb. in the hospital and woke up the ED.

I am grateful I healed enough (and relatively quickly) from the surgery to walk, run, jog, vacuum (that was surprisingly very hard to do with that scar healing), carry cases of water bottles again.

I am thankful for my family, for a husband who is still there despite all my MI problems though sometimes I worry my issues will drive him away. I'm grateful to have a smart, healthy daughter and 2 sisters I count as friends and the rest of my family even if there may be strained relationships at times.

I'm grateful I got a lot of sleep last night as sleep curbs manic intentions.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by shovelhead

I really dig them. Listen to "dance away" by Roxy music. One of my faves.
I need a greatest hits compilation by Ferry and Roxy music

Dance Away is my all time favorite! I'm listening to it as I type. Great song.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Happy Thanksgiving to those in the U.S.

I did a small Thanksgiving lunch, honey ham on rolls. Not up to cooking much for 3. Stomach is still wonky from yesterday, and I've messed up some dosing of my mood stabilizer (lamotrigine). I filled my medicine box and had to switch bottles; they make that pill every which way - large white tablets, blue pentagons, pink/peach oval capsules. None of the versions look alike & my pharmacy seems to be toying with using different manufacturers, and if I have to get it mail order, it's another manufacturer. The missed doses have made me somewhat manciky, but I'll be OK. I slept 9.5 hr. last night. No running today, feel guilty about that, but my stomach still doesn't feel the greatest, so a break isn't going to kill me.

I am thankful most of the time for not dying from the perforated ulcer I had on Valentine's Day. Post-op, I really wished I had died because of the pain. Even now, sometimes I question if I was supposed to make it and if so, to what purpose? It caused me to lose over 10 lb. in the hospital and woke up the ED.

I am grateful I healed enough (and relatively quickly) from the surgery to walk, run, jog, vacuum (that was surprisingly very hard to do with that scar healing), carry cases of water bottles again.

I am thankful for my family, for a husband who is still there despite all my MI problems though sometimes I worry my issues will drive him away. I'm grateful to have a smart, healthy daughter and 2 sisters I count as friends and the rest of my family even if there may be strained relationships at times.

I'm grateful I got a lot of sleep last night as sleep curbs manic intentions.

I think gratitude keeps us healthy. I'm so glad you did not die from the ulcer. That's wonderful you have a devoted husband.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by shovelhead

I really dig them. Listen to "dance away" by Roxy music. One of my faves.
I need a greatest hits compilation by Ferry and Roxy music

Here is the song I have grown to like on the cds I have:

[Blueberrybook]

Glad Thanksgiving is just about over?

Anyone going Black Friday shopping? Not me. First, we have no money. Two, it just sings to the overspending manic part of my bipolar.

I have to go to a grocery store tomorrow but only because I use the pharmacy inside. I will just stick with the drive-thru. Not too much to be tempted to buy at the grocery store, but they usually do have some seasonal things.

[shovelhead]

Seriously glad too, that Thanksgiving is over. I am so sick of food. My OH is a huge eater. I'm constantly cooking giant dinners for him. I really hate it. I swear that I hate food because of it. My eating habits are crazy! I will only eat cold leftovers is one thing I do. I won't warm up food for myself. it doesn't even make any sense to me! Does anyone else here, do this?

[shovelhead]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Glad Thanksgiving is just about over?

Anyone going Black Friday shopping? Not me. First, we have no money. Two, it just sings to the overspending manic part of my bipolar.

I have to go to a grocery store tomorrow but only because I use the pharmacy inside. I will just stick with the drive-thru. Not too much to be tempted to buy at the grocery store, but they usually do have some seasonal things.

HI! I Hope u had a decent Thanksgiving! How often do u skip working-out, to rest your muscles? I was told I need to skip every 6th day? Is that right? I'm keeping track on my calendar now. I skipped my usual work-out today.