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Today I'm fasting for a medical exam. I really want to eat but I know I can't, even though the thought keeps replaying in my head. By the time I'll be done it will be lunch time. I really want to stay focused and eat a decent amount of food but not more. I'm also retraining myself to drink lots of water.
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#77
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I see my pcp later today. I weighed myself and they are going to weigh me today. I want to have something to eat this morning but afraid my weight will be higher by the time I get to the dr. in the afternoon. I'm getting tired of worrying about this stuff.
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#78
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Thank you. I ate breakfast and lunch. Decided a few pounds more doesn't really matter. We all fluctuate during the day and days. I do drink enough water but today needed to drink some more. I've had a lot of coffee, though.
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One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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Ran too much again. Just finishing breakfast at noon. Maybe around 1, 1:30 I can have lunch.
Anyone else have problems with scales & obsessive weighing? I had gotten so much better for a long time (didn't even weigh myself daily, maybe once a week or every couple of weeks), but now I am having the problem of weighing myself every time I use the bathroom even though I know my weight is most accurate first thing in the morning, not during the day when I've been eating & drinking (not talking alcohol, things like water, Diet Coke, coffee). And after running, if I sweat a lot (usually I do), I will weigh less than my first weight of the day, and the stupid ED loves it. I wish scales had never been invented. Why do we let a number define & determine our self-worth? It doesn't make sense and yet I can't stop it ![]()
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#81
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I'm glad you ate. Let us know how your appointment goes.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Thank you. I got weighed and didn't weigh any more than I weighed at home. My dr. said I am doing a good job of losing weight, and getting my lab numbers down. I've had a lot of blood tests done and they all have gone down a lot and much closer to normal. So, it went very well. Now to figure out why I feel so down. Maybe it's the holidays coming up or other stuff. I don't know. Tomorrow is another day.
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One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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I used to weigh too much for me, multiple times per day, but I've been able to successfully limit myself to once per day for quite awhile now. Sometimes i know the number may be stressful, but for me its always much more stressful not knowing. One thing that helped me cut down to once per day weigh ins is where i keep the scale. Its slid under my dresser. I slide it out once while getting ready, then back out of sight it goes! |
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#85
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![]() Do you make yourself meal plans for the day/week? Do you think that would be helpful, or triggering? (I know you plan your shopping trips really well from another thread ![]() I hope you feel better soon. ![]() |
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#86
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![]() Sorry you are feeling down. I don't like this time of year at all, holidays and food and fake happy pictures all over Facebook and in January, hit hard with everyone's diet stats, weight, pounds lost, exercise done, low cal recipes. I feel guilty I did not make a New Year's Resolution to lose weight (when of course, I am supposed to be gaining weight anyway). But I'd never make a resolution to gain weight, it just seems so contrary. Not that I can write all about it on Facebook either. Only a very small number of people in real life ever have known I've had an ED. Some of those may think I am over it. Some may sometimes see pictures of me and wonder if I have an ED, especially compared to the way I looked in high school. Nearly everyone in my high school class (1996) on FB has gained weight since high school, a couple stayed around the same, and I dramatically lost a very noticeable amount of weight, and I couldn't have been more than 5 lb. overweight to been with.
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The holidays can be hard. I don't even want to visit anyone. Don't want to have to watch what I eat and be ignored for the most part.
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One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#89
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I've messed around enough, anyway. I'm drinking lots of water and trying my best not to give in to my cravings. I will not cave in this time ![]() |
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Hate, hate, hate the holidays. Can't wait until they are over. And my daughter's birthday is in the middle of it (Dec. 14). She is turning 11 this year.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Intermittent fasting. Pushed thru 11:30 am which is when hunger strikes me. Then it's much easier. It's 12:30 now. I only want to eat salad stuff today. No simple sugar/carbohydrates today. NONE. I'm talking about bread, etc. No bread today. Yesterday I ate 3 pieces of white bread & 1 tortilla! OMG
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I may get invited to a relatives for Thanksgiving. Don't know if I will accept yet or not. I bought a small turkey breast and froze it. I like turkey better than chicken which I got sick of eating this week. Good thing for dogs. lol..they like everything.
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One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#93
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So far, so good. Broke my IF with pickles & raw brocolli. Good Stuff
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Doing pretty good. Ate and exercised today. I still have bad moments, did last night but I was able to cope with the feelings by distracting myself and watching a favorite movie of mine I hadn't seen in years, which made me laugh
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Ran again too much. The neighborhood must think I am a marathon runner or something as much as I run (though my mph speed is not very impressive).
Had breakfast, watched a show. Got a horrible panic attack and high anxiety. Took low dose Seroquel. I am prescribed 25 to 50 mg prn for this, haven’t needed it in awhile, did today. Conked out over 2 hours. I think I missed eating lunch? It was time to get my daughter from school when I woke up. Dinner soon. Leftovers at least so no cooking. Drinking coffee trying to wake up. Low dose Seroquel almost never affects me like this any more (making me so sleepy). But I woke up at 1 AM this morning, couldn’t sleep, slept a little, up at 3 AM. Maybe just tired.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#98
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My eating behaviors are just terrible lately.
I suppose i know this, although, i also feel like everythings fine. Its always fine. I suppose i have no desire to change them. |
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One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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