[shovelhead]

My OH brought home donuts. I believe he's trying to make me gain weight from all this crap. The other day he brought home Reese's peanut butter cups. I had some of those delectable treats. They're gone, those bags are so freaking small! But, I will NOT consume one donut. They look delish, tho

[shovelhead]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

I love pickles and pickled things. Have you ever had Japanese pickled radish? (Oshinko)

Never tried or heard of. Raw radishes are one of my favorite vegetables to eat. Is this pickled radish sort of like pickle relish?

[LucyD]

I hope you all have a good weekend. I'm just listening to music, trying to learn to relax better.

[shovelhead]

Originally Posted by LucyD

I hope you all have a good weekend. I'm just listening to music, trying to learn to relax better.

What kind of music is your Fave, LucyD?

[shovelhead]

Breezed thru morning with alot of energy. I got a pile of tasks done, fast. I think drinking water does this. Then I did jumprope which I like, cuz it gets my blood pumping. And I feel a jolt of energy. Had raw brocolli for breakfast/lunch. I eat a decent meal around 3 pm.

I generally do okay during the work week ...

It's the weekends that prove most difficult.

[Blueberrybook]

Feeling a bit sick to my stomach this afternoon, not sure why.

Ran this morning a lot. Someone walking their dog asked me what marathon I was training for? The one in Houston in January? I guess a lot of the same people see me because there are certain areas I go around multiple times because of the mileage. Like the block around my house is pretty much exactly 1/2 a mile, and there is an area I will circle a lot because it is just over a mile long.

I have a distance runner's body now, and the ED loves it. I need to have a distance runner's body with a little more weight on it, but as much as my pdoc nags me about my weight, it has been in same window 5 lb. up or down from a given number since May or June. And, of course, the ED loves having a skinny distance runner's body...sigh.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

I'm sorry you've been struggling so much lately.
Do you make yourself meal plans for the day/week? Do you think that would be helpful, or triggering? (I know you plan your shopping trips really well from another thread ) I hate to feel like others are controlling my food, but sometimes when ive made a plan of my own and stuck to it, it can help hit the "reset" button.
I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you!
Yeah, it's definitely a good idea to make meal plans. I may start doing that

[Blue_Bird]

I've been doing really well the past few days. I've been using my coping skills very effectively. I also started eating some healthy stuff today. I hope to keep this up. I've been taking walks sometimes to and trying to get a little exercise. Trying to make healthy choices for my body rather than focus on losing weight.

[Gr3tta_0]

Originally Posted by shovelhead

Never tried or heard of. Raw radishes are one of my favorite vegetables to eat. Is this pickled radish sort of like pickle relish?

The radishes themselves are very large, but the flavor is a little sweet.

[Gr3tta_0]

I am having a lot of stomach troubles. I used to take Creon, i wonder if i need it again.
I hate going to the doctor though. Don't we all???

[Blueberrybook]

Had dessert after dinner, a piece of white cake with icing. Now feel awful about myself.

God, it was just 1 piece. It's not like I ate an entire cake. It was from a box mix even so probably not as many calories as a store bought cake.

I hate that I can run all these miles and still feel guilty over eating a piece of cake

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by shovelhead

What kind of music is your Fave, LucyD?

My favorite is classic rock n roll but I also like just about every kind of music. I listen to some of everything. My favorite lately is Bryan Ferry. I love his music! What kind of music do you like?

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I've been doing really well the past few days. I've been using my coping skills very effectively. I also started eating some healthy stuff today. I hope to keep this up. I've been taking walks sometimes to and trying to get a little exercise. Trying to make healthy choices for my body rather than focus on losing weight.

Sounds good to me, the making healthy choices. I need to stay focused on that, too.

[Blueberrybook]

I slept for 13 hours last night. I couldn't run today because of rain. I feel like I've been very lazy

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

I am having a lot of stomach troubles. I used to take Creon, i wonder if i need it again.
I hate going to the doctor though. Don't we all???

Yes, I don't like going to the doctor either. I often cancel and reschedule. I hope you can get some help for your stomach.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I slept for 13 hours last night. I couldn't run today because of rain. I feel like I've been very lazy

Sounds like you beat yourself up like I do. It rained here today all day, too.

[fallaximago]

I had a coffee and a sandwich for breakfast. So far, so good.

[LucyD]

I'm not even going to write what I ate yesterday; let's say it was an "eat whatever you want" day. I guess I needed to get that out of my system. I was tired of eating the mundane every day so now I experienced what I wanted to and am not going to worry about it. Now, if I can stay off the scale for a week I will probably be okay.

[Blueberrybook]

Gloomy day here. I didn't sleep very well last night. Tried a nap, but I couldn't fall asleep.

Did run, beat the rain though I got a little damp on the home stretch. Felt better being able to exercise. Weight is down a bit today, but I think I am dehydrated. See the pdoc on Wed., need to get hydrated again. See the T tomorrow, but this week feels weird with both H and my daughter home. Today feels like Sat. or Sun. (H is a teacher, so he is off this week along with the students.)

Stupid me keeps obsessing over my body. I have a skinny distrance runner's physique now, very compact. Thighs too big, but well, I run.

Still hating the ulcer surgery scar on my abdomen (belly button & up around 4 inches) from Feb. I swear, you can still see where those stupid staples went in. Most of the scar is healing good, though there is a dark pink spot taking it's time. I see gastro-doc next month. Gastro doc and trauma surgeons seem super pleased with this surgery. I had muscle where they normally would have taken fat for the surgery (I had started running, maybe a month or so), and they had to take the fat from another place, changing other parts of the surgery a bit. I don't doubt they have collaborated and written it up for a journal, from off-hand comments I heard. It's not like they need my permission, they just call me female, age 40, etc. Stupid scar.

[Blue_Bird]

Gained some insight into my eating disorder relapse

[Gr3tta_0]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Gloomy day here. I didn't sleep very well last night. Tried a nap, but I couldn't fall asleep.

Did run, beat the rain though I got a little damp on the home stretch. Felt better being able to exercise. Weight is down a bit today, but I think I am dehydrated. See the pdoc on Wed., need to get hydrated again. See the T tomorrow, but this week feels weird with both H and my daughter home. Today feels like Sat. or Sun. (H is a teacher, so he is off this week along with the students.)

Stupid me keeps obsessing over my body. I have a skinny distrance runner's physique now, very compact. Thighs too big, but well, I run.

Still hating the ulcer surgery scar on my abdomen (belly button & up around 4 inches) from Feb. I swear, you can still see where those stupid staples went in. Most of the scar is healing good, though there is a dark pink spot taking it's time. I see gastro-doc next month. Gastro doc and trauma surgeons seem super pleased with this surgery. I had muscle where they normally would have taken fat for the surgery (I had started running, maybe a month or so), and they had to take the fat from another place, changing other parts of the surgery a bit. I don't doubt they have collaborated and written it up for a journal, from off-hand comments I heard. It's not like they need my permission, they just call me female, age 40, etc. Stupid scar.

I'm sorry you're so bothered by the scar.
I have a great number of scars, but most of them don't trouble me much.
I do find silicone sheets for scars, available otc, are good for raised scars, and moisurizing lotion with vitamin E is good in general. Most other otc scar treatments are just sunscreen, and its usually more cost effective to just buy sunscreen.
FYI i also had a perforated ulcer in 2009. I don't tend tend to be too bothered by surgical scars, but i can understand their being upsetting to others.

[fallaximago]

Another day, another chance to start over. I'm really going to try to do my best today. I really need to drink more water.

[MickeyCheeky]

((((Everyone)))) You can do this! You're all in my thoughts.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

I'm sorry you're so bothered by the scar.
I have a great number of scars, but most of them don't trouble me much.
I do find silicone sheets for scars, available otc, are good for raised scars, and moisurizing lotion with vitamin E is good in general. Most other otc scar treatments are just sunscreen, and its usually more cost effective to just buy sunscreen.
FYI i also had a perforated ulcer in 2009. I don't tend tend to be too bothered by surgical scars, but i can understand their being upsetting to others.

Sorry you had a perforated ulcer too. Mine was duodenal. That has got to be the most painful thing I have ever been through, especially post-op and recovery. So much worse than childbirth. I guess at least I got help before I passed out and died though after surgery, I hurt so much I wish I had died. I spent around 3-4 days hallucinating a lot, which I hope was from the combo of pain & the medication I was on and not the bipolar. And it happened on Valentine's Day, so while I am sure I will forget the year in the future, I am pretty sure I will always remember the day of the anniversary.