[stahrgeyzer]

Past few weeks I've been starving myself with periodic binge eating, but hopefully it won't turn into a disorder.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by stahrgeyzer

Past few weeks I've been starving myself with periodic binge eating, but hopefully it won't turn into a disorder.

Right now is the best time to work on stopping ED behaviors. The further you walk into the forest the further you have to walk out. It only gets harder from here.
Best of luck

[stahrgeyzer]

@Sapien Thanks. Today I skipped a meal and went exercising instead, but after coming home I found myself taking tablespoon after tablespoon of honey, which devastates me, defeating all the painful exercises. Glad I read your post so I know to start dealing with it now.

no snacking today because of stomach ache

did eat my mcdonalds for dinner... the only meal in the entire week which was edible

shocking but true

[MuddyBoots]

Binged last night and it showed on the scale this morning. Really upset and kinda feel at risk for another binge so I'm drinking lots of liquids and chewing gum instead. My "I'm confident in myself and practice self-compassion" sticker keeps falling off and I think that goes with me struggling with the self-compassion bit. I was going to celebrate being 6 months sober today with a chocolate but after last night I don't think I can.

another day without much snacking

the downside is that I really didn't like my dinner (fish and potato waffles) and I'm now starving

pretty bad meal again.

not at all surprised

had some chocolate orange segments

[Blue_Bird]

Have been doing relatively well the past 6 days. Still having urges to restrict/binge/purge, but have been able to avoid it so far. Will see how long this holds up

[Deilla]

I've been doing well. I prepared some healthy meals this morning and last night. I'm thinking of making another meal. I do better with prepared foods.

[MuddyBoots]

Bad day in terms of restriction. Had an ensure to make up for it. Kinda.

[stahrgeyzer]

I walked for 2 hours and then ate an entire pint of ice cream. Sometimes I can't resist.

I had stomach ache all night from lack of a deecent meal

not eaten well for... well,. some time

today someone asked me to list some christmas snacks I might want sent to me.

listed a lot of candy items

[MuddyBoots]

Ate a straight from the plant cayenne pepper today. Just the right amount of pain. Did good with not restricting too, ate plenty of other stuff.

Possible trigger:

Felt like too much so I purged.

but other than that it was a good day :/

[Deilla]

I haven't been that hungry. I'm eating some broccoli now because I know I need more vegetables today.

[Blue_Bird]

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Possible trigger:

I restricted all day until I was lightheaded after being triggered by hearing my weight when I was at my doctor appointment today. I’m so frustrated and ambivalent about recovering. I feel like if I let my guard down for one second I’ll gain tons of weight. I can’t stop obsessing. I’m so tired of this. I have to reset my 10 day recovery streak in my app that tracks that

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finally the end of the week, so finally mcdonalds... the only food that fits well in my stomach these days..

[Deilla]

I overate last night. I was stressed.

I had my mcdonalds friday and it was really nice- especially nice not to end my meal with a stomach ache

yesterday I got a big delivery of halloween/ christmas candy, and considering my dinner was just a pizza that didn't agree with me, I overate quite a bit

was doing quite well until I overdid it on some chocolate

was feeling good, too. comfortable

why..

id like to be underweight again. but I traded AN for binge eating disorder. now that I'm no longer exercising the binging is calming down. still there but on a smaller scale. the mental hunger is out of control. now that I'm no longer exercising I have no goal in life and I'm very depressed. exercise was the only "healthy" outlet where I could push myself hard with "positive" outcomes. Although I may have an unhealthy relationship with exercise. Who knows?

seems like the only goal now in life is to get underweight again. If I can. I wonder if my eating issues caused my injuries that have stopped me exercising. If I permanently damaged my body. My insurance sucks. My doctor's appt is in freakin January so that won't address any of my current injury issues. I hate myself.

Going home in December and feeling pressure to lose weight before going back. Trying not to restrict too much because I don't want to binge. I'm tired of this.

[Deilla]

I did well today.

had some chocolate yesterday.

my dinner was disgusting. far too soft and chewy... almost broke my teeth on it

[Deilla]

I've done well. I've been cooking healthy meals.

I had KFC chicken yesterday

not too bad..