[Deilla]

I haven't been doing well. I've been eating a lot. And more often. I think I am stressed. Quitting vaping is making it worse. I just want to eat all the time.

[MuddyBoots]

The ED and destructive behavior right now ing eneral is so bad but who the **** cares anyways

[Mountaindewed]

Yesterday I went to Aldis and I got 3 types of cheese. Then my mom went to walmart and picked up 2 bags of chicken nuggets and some Christmas Hershey kisses from walgreens. Despite having a fully stocked fridge and freezer and food rack I just ate a can of potatos for dinner. But I did eat during the day. I fell asleep hungry and I woke up at 9:30 and I've been up since. I had a 12oz bottle of Coke and a rice cake amd a zero sugar Coke around 10-11. It seemed to have helped. Then I had my 2 large flavored iced teas I got from Sonic yesterday morning. I'm hungry for protein. I have some canned chicken I am going to eat for breakfast. I just have to hold on for a few more hours. I'm not sure how my therapist will react to me being up since 9:30 due to hunger. That is definte disordered behavior.

The thing is I'm not even hungry anymore and I got like 4 minutes of sleep.

[Mountaindewed]

I hate it when I'm avoding the dinner table on purpose but I need something from the kitchen and then someone says "come join us!"

No I wont. I'm just getting water so I can contiune to be hungry in my room

I have 4 boxes of candy bars, 2 unopened boxes of cookies, almost 3 full boxes of little cups of peanut butter and a lot of other stuff in my room and I have some very good self control. I havent touched the candy bars in 2 days and I've had the cookies since Thanksgiving. I even have a bag of potato chips from the summer that are good until January.

When I do eat the candy bars (they are my weakness) I usually eat 2 or 3 in a row and then I stop for awhile. Some I've had since the summer.

My mom doesn't get the amount of self control I have.

[Deilla]

I've been stress-eating like crazy.

[Mountaindewed]

I took a zofran last night and I ate a little bag of chips, some Fritos, a few cookies, a frozen mac and cheese dinner, the rest of my cranberry cinnamon goat cheese, and then an entire thing of baked brie.

I feel weird and anxious right now and I dont know if its from all the cheese or the news or something.

[unaluna]

Ive heard there is something in cheese that makes you want more cheese. Now i want cheese!

it's not even dinner yet, and I've all ready had 3 chocolate bars and a full big bag of doritoes (one of those share bags)

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

it's not even dinner yet, and I've all ready had 3 chocolate bars and a full big bag of doritoes (one of those share bags)

That was me yesterday for breakfast. 4 candy bars. Then during the afternoon I ate almost an entire bag of pizza Goldfish and I started a bag of lemon salt Fritos. The bag of Fritos were about the size of the Goldfish. I had a small bag of Lays too.

[Deilla]

I've been eating when hungry.

[unaluna]

Ive been craving crunchy and chocolate, so i ordered a bag of walnuts and walden farms chocolate dip (zero calorie). Should be arriving today. Woman does not live by potatoes alone!

I ate another big bag of chips today

to be fair, for dinner I have spare ribbs, so they arn't going to fill me up.. barely touch the surface

so just trying to stay full.

[Mountaindewed]

I ate normal today. I ate dinner really early though. I dont think I did anything that would be considered disordered although I am in bed pretty early partially to avoid my hunger. So idk.

I plan on getting oranges and bananas and baby carrots and almond butter the next time I go to the store. I went through a 3 pound bag of oranges in about a week. I like the little packets of vanilla almond butter.

I've been eating tubes of Smarties chocolates but not counting them out or eating the whole tube either. I've just been eating a few at a time and closing them back up.

My sisters family got me a bag of gingerbread Kit Kats and a bag of hot cocoa Hershey Kisses. I just put them on my shelf. I gave away the last of my Christmas candy earlier this week since I had enough.

[Deilla]

I have been stress-eating today. I've had too many meals.

[MuddyBoots]

purged twice today. Been eating way too much.

[Mountaindewed]

I got off my 3 meds that made me hungry. Now my hunger is low again. I skipped dinner these last 2 nights. Last night I ate a bowl from Chipotles around 2PM and I was tired and not very hungry after. Tonight I'm not feeling good but I did eat 2 pouches of tuna around 3. So I did get a lot of protein at one time. I also had fruit and nut butters and a yogurt today. So I ate just not a ton.

[indigo1015]

Right now I’m focusing less on my ED — not that it isn’t still there, it’s just that a lot of stuff is going on for me right now. Maybe that’s a good thing though, since it doesn’t have as much power over me these days.

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[Mountaindewed]

Now its back to the whole is it an ED or just not hungry/not feeling good/regular dieting debate. The therapist before I moved would say its an ED issue. But I'm trying today I just feel like crap. I have not had meat well unless you count fish. Depends on the kind of person you are. Since Wednesday. But I've been meeting my protein goals through tuna pouches, peanut, and almond butter, and protein shakes. So I'm not restricting. I'm basically just not hungry. I have an empty candy bar tube and an Atkins shake by me which makes me think its just normal dieting.

I just have been getting so many mixed messages for a few years now and I still cant get a clear answer from anyone.

I do know I am not in the mood for 2 pouches of tuna for physical reasons but I want the protein for mental health reasons. Which I guess may be considered a bit of disorderer behavior. But I can't think of anything else with that much protein.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well. I'm stress-eating.

[unaluna]

Hugs, dewd. When i was in the hospital for my mini-stroke like 10 years ago, all i wanted to do was come home and fix myself a tuna fish sandwich! And the food there was delicious, varied, and just fine. But my habit was the TFS. And i didnt appreciate how much i loved it until it was taken away.

But i was like 60 years old by then! I was going to ask you, what are your favorite foods? Maybe you dont have any yet? Aside from chocolate of course, goes without saying. I was for chocolate anything, still am.

The past few days ive had a UTI and havent been feeling much like eating, so a tuna fish sandwich has been my go to. It always makes me feel better. And i hear you on the protein thing, because usually my diet is starch and fruit and veg. I feel like im gonna start tfs for brunch, then a big veg bowl for dinner. I did a stint on kraft deluxe cheese on buns for a while there, but i think im done with those for a while. But cheese sandwiches like that is another favorite.

I think its like clothes. People say dont buy anything you dont feel gorgeous in! Well, dont eat anything that doesnt REALLY satisfy you. This is my wish for you.

Era - and i lost like 12 lbs this year, and same last year.

[Mountaindewed]

I like Goldfish crackers. Mexican lemon salt Fritos. Canned potatos. The European chocolate. Noodles from Campbells chicken noodle soup. Oh yeah and peanut butter by itself.

[Deilla]

I made mac-n-cheese and I keep eating it.

[Anrea]

I made it 18 days without purging. I did overeat one day but I didn't purge. (thought about, but no way I was ruining my streak).

[Mountaindewed]

I got my shot yesterday so I got chipotles for lunch and I also had a couple cans of chocolate Yoo Hoo and a candy bar. Today I am struggling with eating again but I have been eating. I didn't eat until 11 though and that was just a pop tart. I told my therapist I hadn't eaten anything and she asked why and I said I slept in late and I had to go to the grocery store before my session. She didn't seem worried. I just havent been feeling well lately physically so I havent been very hungry. Normally I do wake up very hungry so I'm not sure whats going on. I thought it was constipation but I took care of that and and the pain and nausea is still there.

[Anrea]

20 days purge free with 3 overeating beyond a healthy caloric level.