how long can i go without..

im so proud of you. i havent gone a day in a whole week. gunna try again tomorrow.

sweetie... please take my hand... and we will go thru this journey together....

thanks freewill!!

another day... making it another day...

I went to the asthma specialist today... my asthma.. is.. flared.. by the acid reflux... caused by the ED... the medicine..wasn't touching it...

so he gave me another today... and I pray that it works...

I am trying to find.. a vitamin... that I can tolerate... and.. Yazza.. it is expensive.. to buy... and then not be able to take..

I found one...Viactiv... that comes in chewable... like.."candy" form... that might work... my reflux.. is stirred up.... probably by other vitamins.. but.. hoping this will do.. it.... in the long run...

I also... was looking while checking out... at beef jerky... a whopping.. 22gs.. of protein.. in one serving... if I could find that in a non-spice form.. I am hoping.. maybe I could add some of that to...get some nutrients.. in my body...

Love to all..

I have continued on... and no binge/purge... and also have been eating correctly...

I wish that I could say that I felt well... but I feel deathly ill...

The GERD is very bad.. and I went to the asthma specialist.... on Friday...

The new med.. worked... but is now making me very ill.. so will have to give it up...

I just feel... that I will never recover tonight... I know I should be more optimistic.. but.. I can't be...

It certainly.. won't be from lack of trying....

i had one day this weekend. Every day has been not so good but today I ate something "bad" without purging. and i didnt eat too much of it.

I am still holding your hand... we will make this journey successful..

You started this thread... and it will contiune... we shall "make" it...

my sister suffers from annerexic problems and eating troubles it is difficult process but u will get throught it all if u try really hard

Thanks for the support freewill. Im in your corner also.

Thank you both....

I am still binge free... and eating every 3-4 hours.... it is tough work to eat... such a simple thing right?? but to eat that often in a day.. is very hard....and my body works so hard to process the food...

I got a script from the asthma specialest for the GERD... it had gotten so bad.... and that works......

so love to all of us....

and let's all keep trying

ugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg...

first binge/purge in awhile.... too much stress...

I was doing ok... even with my son thing...

But then my best friend... got into the act today... and best intentions went out the door...

gezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

it is like... I don't "know" anyone in my life........ 27 years... and this person still... is soooooooooooo critical of me..

couldn't take it..

am so so sick...

Binged today.X_X.
I feel like crap.
Tomorrow is another day though, I'll post my progress.
I hope you're all hanging in there.

((((((((((((freewill & Layssum))))))))))))))

Sorry you had hard days. Remember, every second is new, and the past is the past and can only help you to learn. We will make it.

lovies for you too...

I am still going.... am eating every 3-4 hours... is very difficult...my body is weak.... am hoping that this will change.... processing food.. drains all of my body's energy...

I search for food... that my body will not "reject".... lol... it is a part of the battle... what can I eat... that will digest... and not cause my GERD... asthma... to flare....

because when that happens.. I can't sleep... and then the cycle.. continues....

so no dairy...no beef...

can eat some chicken... if it is cooked.. in a brothing type deal....

have found.. the vitamin.. that I can take...

the new script for the GERD has helped....

love to all

hi... all... I keep posting... in this thread because it so helps me to stay focused...

I am eating... not binging... I manage about 800 calories a day... am trying to add more... but it takes energy....

love to all

((((((((((freewill )))))))))))
thinking about you

so... I am continuing on.... trying a "new experienment"... to like eating... well trying to get used to the idea of even thinking about food as enjoyable..... I have a long, long way to go....

I was able to resist going to the store... to buy a cake... to binge on... but.. oh,,,, I am so so praying this urge eases by tomorrow... cause I have therapy ... and since I will be out... it may just be too hard to not buy the cake... and eat it... all of it....

It is all I can think about... eating the cake.. and how much it would ease my pain and anxiety....

((((((((freewill))))))))

I had one day over the weekend that I did not bp. But I felt awful all day and had to fight the urge by staying so busy I didn't even have time to get close to a bathroom. I have purged 3 times today. I feel awful everytime I eat, but my mind tells me to eat all day long. It is driving me crazy. I don't have a number for my therapist, but I can call the emergency line and they can get someone to call me. I don't want to talk to someone. I wish that I had email for my therapist. She does not even have any idea that I b/p. I have been doing it for more than a year now. Some days I just don't eat, others I eat and can't stop. Those days are more than the other, and then i purge more and more. I don't know what to do. I was also running a lot until Thanksgiving when I fractured and sprained my ankle, that put me down for 3 months with no running and I have no desire to do any other type of exercise. I have been released to run again but am having a hard time getting back in to it even though I missed it so much. I feel lost.

hi...

I promised to keep this thread going for a friend... and I will...

I binged the other night... not a huge binge but a small one.. and physically I am still "paying" the price.. with my body that is sending such pain thru my body...

And.. I am shocked... and I am scared....

That my eating disorder.. is no longer doing "it's" job... my ED was caused by a great need to relieve stress and anxiety.. and everything bad.. that has happened.. that is happening.. and that will happen...

And.. it doesn't work anymore...

and it scares me... what am I to do now??? I ask myself.. what am I to do now...

so... this is a part of the "healing" process for me... a part of getting better...

I must learn now... other forms.. to relieve these feelings... and I know I will...

I pray... that the people of this forum.. who I love with all my heart.. will help and support me... as I do love and support them...

I pray... that my post does not trigger others here....

I have to have somewhere to let my feelings out.. or I will implode....

I love you all...

I have not made it a day for a while. I purged yesterday 3 times. Today twice already. I have not eaten very much at all. I don't have any idea if my husband knows what is going on. My kids and co workers and parents have no idea. I need the control, I have to feel the power. This is just not working.

Wow I really can relate. It has been a week with no exercising and I LOVE to run so it's killing me. I would run 6-7 times a week and I promised my Mom I wouldn't run. So I eat and I hate it b/c I don't have a way to get rid of it. It's a process and I'm going to try to stick to it. I can't go beyond eating besides salads and egg-whites (same thing everyday) but I'm hoping therapy will help me with that. Keep it up everyone, we can all do this together

today is day one for me so far...w/o b/p.....hopefully i can last

Have not made it a day for a while. I purged only once yesterday. But today I have purged 3 times already and am trying to sit here at my computer to prevent myself from going and purging dinner. My husband went out to have a few beers with his buddy, which is great because he was annoying me anyway. He made me eat dinner. He told me I needed to eat. But now all I want to do is get rid of it.