[nevagiveup]

I know we all feel guilty and ashamed of our disorders..... well at least i do. But i feel even worse when i read the consequenses of my disorder aka bulimia, especially when it talks about the effects of one day having children and how what im doing now may cause me to have problems concieveing. i just feele so guilty because i know my boyfriend eventually wants a lil boy to carry on his dads name (his dad died when he was 15) I dont know i guess i just felt like venting, sorry.

I am 52.... and I am not ashamed of my eating disorder... it is an illness... a true illness... so I am not going to be ashamed.. I have had it really since I was 13... put it has terrible in last 6-7 years...

and.. I had a child... though I ate correctly.. while pregnant..

though you are right.. since I have been doing this for years.. it has caught up with me.. and has caused me some damage...

so... I guess I would stop being ashamed.. and just use that energy.. to get better... it is an illness...

[wishfulmuscle]

I live in a very perfectionistic family... i am constantly reminded either by myself or others that its a shame.. so i am embarassed to not fit into their perfect lives.

I used to engulf myself in books, or anything i could find online on the subject of skinny girls, eating disorders, or anything of the sort. (thats actually how i found this site.) reading the consequences made me feel bad, and gave me some push to heal.. just try to use it as a fuel to force ED our of your life. when i start to feel myself losing control, i tend to go back to those sources as a reminder of how selfish im being and not ttaking care of myself. Hope that tid-bit helped a little

[Christina86]

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Don't feel guilty... like most disorders, it isn't your fault that it is so hard to get ahold of. It's a sort of addiction, and unfortunately it takes time to gain some control of it.

You're only 22 right? I'm almost 22 myself... I think you've got a few years, and I think you've come to the conclusion that you probably want kids pretty early... and I hope that things will be fine if you ever choose to become pregnant, but there are always many options if it doesn't happen.

What about reading books about how to get over the ED, instead of how bad it is? Puts it in a bit of a more positive light... you can get through this.