[wishfulmuscle]

i should just be a big fatty and just never stop eating. Then i could just be constantly miserable all of the time and have a reason to be fat.

I Don't Understand.
Everything i do and everything i think is about my weight. and food. and burning calories.

AND IM STILL A DISGUSTING FAILURE.
no matter how little i eat, the scale doesnt change and i dont feel any better.

i think anorexicly and eat like a cow. how does that happen?!
I'm so over food. and so done with eating. i hate this stupid fat body im stuck in.

sending... alot of care your way... my friend...

and.. yes.. food sucks.... at times.. alot of the time...

[nevagiveup]

I hear you........ i sit here and think ok not going to eat much if anything today and then i end up sitting here binging on what ever i get my hands on. Then comes the purging and the cycle starts all over again. I also tell myself im going to start up my exercising again ( i was once an overexercising bulimic and lost 40lbs). I tell everyone I did it healthily but truthfully i was exercising more then ni should have been and still purging in the bathroom as well. Someday I just wish this never ending cycle would end.

[piscesmom]

I starved myself and worked out all of the way down to the weight I am at, I should be thrilled, they want me to gain back 15 lbs but I too am miserable. I force myself to eat, it is not enjoyable, I resent it and I still feel fat. There is no happy place when it comes to eating disorders, food, our bodies and the scale.
I am sorry you are hurting so much, but please know you are not alone. I am out here hurting too. Take care.

[wishfulmuscle]

Nevagiveup--you and i sound alike... i used to overexercise to the point i'd be nauseous and barely standing, and after a good binge i'd always run to the bathroom. I do alot more restricting now than i do b/p thank god, but i still have lots and lots of days that i end up over doing it an running to the loo.

Thank you for the support everyone.. Havent had a bad day like yesterday in a while.. and i definately needed what you provided for me

[Kiya]

i hate food too. MD today said i have to eat more and more varieties. THat is my goal (or hers for me).

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