Checking in ( How do you feel today)?

Lost........

I feel pretty good today. I have needed some structure in my life and spent the last 2 days in training as I prepare for the school year which starts next week. When I am productive a bit I can better enjoy quiet days like today.

Pretty much fine today.

Not that good. Brain zaps, disorganized thought processes, inability to concentrate, etc etc. Proof that whining and complaining doesn't help.

I'm doing a little better. I got myself moving enough to take a walk. It was nice in the woods and a pretty time of day. I saw my therapist today and I finally told her about my recurring thoughts and the journaling I was doing about them. She gave me the name of a trauma researcher, Bessel Vander Kolk. Wants me to look into his writing. Anyone familiar with his work?

i am ok-- mixed again; i slept 10 hours, still headaches and dizzy spells... maybe if i can finigual it out i will see the general doc- it does not seem to be just a passing thing-- but I still think it is just stress.

calm.

for the moment anyway

Relieved

down in the dumps

right now-- i really feel like he really does not care.. sure i am just being "too overly emotional" as i get told .. i will try to occupy myself.

my mood is really slipping now.

ugg it sucks

Today I feel down and disappointed.

Feeling OK again, today, but worried that I'll start slipping back into the deep depression of earlier this week.

feeling very unreal today

Yet another mixed day... I was feelin' good this morning, was teasing my girlfriend all night. Then she came home from work and left us both with blue balls by going to sleep right away. Which wasn't a big deal, she works 12 hour shifts, until we woke up and she decided sex was impossible because we had nowhere to do it cause it was too hot to go out in the shed. Blue balls always makes me pissy, but our argument got (thankfully, in a way) interupted by her son. He needed money 'cause he had to go take his baby's momma in for an abortion this morning... So today has been crazy. But I'm at work now, so it should get better.

It's really annoying, I'm much more anxious than I usually am and it's lasting a fair amount of time as well (starting from last night onwards). Not pleasant. But hopefully it will pass, think I just pushed myself too much yesterday, need to slow down a bit then retry the activities I wanted to do

I get the weekend off now but on Monday, my supervisor returns from vacation. Not sure how much I will enjoy this weekend. Feeling nervous.

I feel sad, Missing mum. wish that I could of told her how much I loved her.

I did a lot today compared some days. I spent a lot of time on errands. Happy about being able to get out, but still no T appointment and I got a new cockatiel who wants to be out the cage, but will not obey commands. For safety's sake, I tell him, I can't let him out till he will return to my hand. I told him, right now, you won't come to me when I call you. So, I am feeling busy, trying to get him to trust me.

I feel lonely

Feeling bad because I thought I had things more under control today but I guess not.

very mixed day again-
but i cried on the flip side instead of just thoughts....
yeah at a few moments, I felt very torn apart-- i get this way and it is one thing that, well i wish i did not feel-- it's not just simply "torn apart" it is more than what my words can explain right now- I know some of you know what I am talking about- it is like being on both sides of the mix day but at the same time--
BUT on the plus side-- this day it has gotten better... crying seems to have helped, thinking a little more on things, and trying to find small things as a great reminder from PC Fellow Friends on here...... and One biggy right now- re-explaining to my S/O to please, please stop telling me: "Don't be sad/mad/whatever"-- I know he is not wanting to see this with me, HOWEVER with him 'telling me this' it is not helping me right now-- I think he got it today, we talked on it- and he explained his whole side.. I think he understands now really due to he said "I am not your father when I say this" and apologized for saying it so much lately .... meaning I think he made the connection now even if he is meaning well, it is still a small trigger and I am having issues right now with all the things going on, and rationalizing it 'right', right now. he said he'll try better with not saying to not be sad to me-- i tell him I try not to be, but some times it is good for us humans to feel our emotions-- and to tell me it is ok to cry some days

glad we are on the same page with that right now

any who- another very very quiet night at work and I had to sit here for hours waiting for people that never showed.. whoop whoop...

Beauflow, I'm so glad you worked that out with your S/O today. I couldn't agree you more that we have to go through our emotions! When people tell me, "don't feel..." it always makes me feel bad. What I need to hear at that time is "It's okay to feel that way". I always appreciate and connect with your insights and wisdom! Thanks for sharing this.

I'm in a horrible mood. I'm lonely.. abandoned. Really depressed, and angry. Pretty hopeless and forgotten. But somewhat numb... But, fine.

I feel... a year older?

And quite calm, happy, excited. ^^;