Daily Comments #5- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

Ahh the new year bringswith it lovely things like the resetting of your annual deductible. I just had to reschedule my appointment with the new PDoc since I now have to pay since I have not met my deductible yet for 2013.
I KNOW...quitcher *****in cause at least you HAVE insurance! I feel you on that one, really I do!

-What about us?

-Well, what about me?

Many times I haven't a clue. Hard to accept.

...ah well...what to do?

two words

After my work shift tonight, I have an appt for the most torturous event ever thought of in medical procedures for women. Thank goodness it is only once a year. Other mature women will know what I speak of

I wonder what I am walking into tonight...

That's why I like animals more than people!

They don't judge, they see what's inside your heart and accept you for who you are.

It's great that you have two cats that decided to keep you!

WOAH! Vinnie Paz is coming to a city near me . I'VE NEVER BEEN TO A CONCERT BEFORE! . Wooooooooooo!

God, help me.

I love that song! Thank for bringing it back on my radar, Flee

I hate cookies, the bane of my diet's existence. especially chocolate chips

Today is errand day. I have to go pick up an Rx and then do grocery shopping. I will be visiting 2 supermarkets in order to get the best deals. It's a lot of walking to go to the second one.

I over did it at the gym yesterday and am sore today. So, minimal weight lifting today - if any.

I need to make a decision about my career and to do some studying. I have been buying CD-ROM courses from Great Courses and have started - but not finished - two of them. I have to learn to finish what I have started!!

Getting ready to answer a personal ad. I know its a long shot...but she is a native to Charlotte, like me and 45 so age appropriate as well.
Wish me luck! LOL

Had my bird eater out for a walk

I have had a huge burden lifted from me today, now to see if changes can really be made.

grrrr.... new cup from the boss that my s/o got is evil!!

I used it to warm up my coffee today, and burnt my fingers! then i couldn't find the first aid kit, and then i couldn't find the aloe vera-- but it all worked out, after searching for a bit after saying- Guess you just have to tough this one out too! i found stuff.....

getting soft in my aging a burn like this in the past I would had been like just tough it out-- but nope not today, i wanted relief! guess not a bad thing...

a blister is forming though, damn cup-- guess stick with my good old safe cups that i use from now on... evil cup... lol

ok-- i am not that serious here-- guess needed to write something silly

I really need a nap and I might just take one

WOAHHH THATS AWESOME!!

Do you use a leash

Workaholics is freaking hilarious.

Your poor decisions have had a bad effect on numerous people. I can't get away from you fast enough.

had a quiet day at work...tension free and peacefull

I am having difficulty motivating myself to do anything. I only manage to do a few easy things each day. In so many ways I have given up. I need to motivate myself but don't know how to do that very well.

Also, I noticed that my PTSD is getting worse. The thoughts circling in my head as I walk down the street are enough to constrict my heart and breath. They tighten up so much that sometimes I have to stop walking or whatever else I am doing. This will probably eventually kill me. Maybe that's a good thing - I am tired of suffering. I want to be at peace.

It seems that living life is going to take more self control than I am capable of. How do you control panic attacks? I get so nervous and scared that I am unable to speak in my self defense. Not that it would matter anyway because where ever I go people don't like me. I am no fun and too serious. I have always been that way and don't seem to be able to change. People say "chill out" but I don't know how to do that and, because I'm easy to bash, I am fearful of letting my guard down as people will pounce on me anyway.

Really sick and tired of the rigidity of modern life.

I can so relate I promise!! UGHHHHH Freaking annoying and aggrivating huh?!

I got my High Blue belt in MMA last night, hardwork and dedication pays off.

Eyes forever on the prize, my friends.