Checking in (How do you feel today)? #3

I'm up and working. Since my commute consists of going up and down a flight of stairs a time or two and that's it, I don't think I'm quite awake yet. Feel okay at the moment; we'll see how long that hold up. Hopefully for a bit.

Been really busy last few days and tonight I am going to a gig with my 2 daughters

feeling like i'm having a breakdown.. dont know what to do anymore

feeling somewhat jaded today

i just want to retreat to my corner and cry

I'm starving today for some reason

relieved.

i feel bullied today

I have cycled through a lot of moods today. Starting with feeling okay to being excited to downright angry at the moment.

I've felt physically ill for the last couple of days and I'm so sick of it. I just want to get through one cup of coffee or one meal without wanting to vomit!
On the plus side I picked up our engagement rings this morning- they had to be fixed and it's been so odd not wearing anything for the past week and a half. So good to have it back!

I'm feeling okay and ready to walk the dogs

Getting a head cold and a deep cough. Just at the beginning so it is not at its worst yet. Very slow in development.

Feeling ok.

Hopefully tomorrow will be much the same :

I don't know if this is rapid cycling like every few moments (if that is possible) or if it's just me being me, but it seems like one minute I think of something that makes me exuberant, and the next something that brings me crashing back down to earth, sometimes so hard it leaves a crater I must climb out of.
I must have some ADHD going on too 'cause I can't seem to finish anything, must have mutiple projects going on at once and bounce from one to the other to keep my attention.
And then it's also March Maddness..so I am also wanting to watch all the tournament action I can!
Roller coaster, that is it....up then down then thrown from side to side and occasionally upside down. Enjoying the ride? Ehhhh....sometimes!
Yeah, random, I know.

I'm sad but not and kinda feel empty... I don't know. I'm down and I hate it which makes me feel even more down so it's this stupid cycle that I just want to stop. I don't want to be down 'cause I randomly feel like crying and I hate crying for no real reason. I just want to feel ok and not have this stupid anxiety just sitting in my chest, making me feel sick all the time. Urgh, and now I've made myself feel like crying even more than I already did.

I feel cold. BRRRR Just hearing the winds blow outside makes me chill.

My arthritis is bothering me today.

Tired, even more so than yesterday. I got a good night's sleep, but that doesn't always help. I'm a little down, but not too bad.

I've got to get moving and laundry done. Its cold here too. I'm feeling more useless because I haven't been able to focus on helping anyone, just thinking of me and my kids.

I'm tired today, but more of a mentally tired. I kind of feel like I have a big bag of nothing today.

just feel like crying for no reason... as always.

I really should of listened to my head this morning and not attended the court but No I was put under pressure and went anyway and now I feel like I want to scream, coming face to face with my brother brought back a lot of bad memories and he lied through his teeth in court.

It's been a busy day at work and my head is busy too. It is a beautiful sunny day and it's thawing a little and it's Friday which is always a plus. I feel exhausted and fuzzy headed.

- I guess slightly better than I have been, however still really annoyed with a lot - especially health matter (both mental and physical).

Everything seems to come down to there is not much that can been done without causing a different type of discomfort, and I do not play trading games!

Perhaps it is unusual, but I do place a MUCH higher value on privacy than I do health or safety - I don't understand why doctors can't just respect that, and quit pushing things that take any privacy at all away.

And I can stand feeling like I am being watched too closely either - so if you need to be watching me any closer than if you did nothing - that the ruler is to do nothing - I need to feel like nothing is wrong - and the sick I am, the more important it is to me NOT to be watched too close. That is why I hated staying in a medical hospital too, really wanted to take to IV bags home, and be left alone. And since I have refused a trip to the ER after vomiting all day because I did not know why, and did not want to stay, and have it ANY different than if I were at home taking care of it without any assistance - and if that don't want to allow that - than I don't want it touched, end of story.....And I even got in it a lound verbal fight with my wife over that - it came down to the ONLY way I was going is if she called them, and got them to agree, without looking at anything first - that under no circumstance will they try to get me to stay - since that didn't happen, I absolutely would not go.

Anyway - I think I' rambling again so....

Quite upset today over lots of things.