Checking in (How do you feel today)? #3

Any left-overs, Kelly? Do you deliver to Texas?

Pretty good. I had an excellent day with my daughter and a good talk with my ex.
Things may be finally looking up for a change!

Mostly numb, a little irritated. I'm just tired of dad's s..t, and mom just goes along with it.

Skint , don't know where money goes.

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I think I'm getting a migraine & I'm exhausted & fed up with everything.

I love him so much!

Got more sleep than usual and working but getting sleepy and drowsy. Just need to make it through the day.

Pneumonia!!! Yikes! Glad you have antibiotics.
Hope you feel better soon Nick

I am on the last of the antibiotics now. Just a little throat clearing and a slight cough now and then. Much better, thanks.

Can I say how I am feeling? Could someone give me an encouraging word?

I feel like I just unlocked the last puzzle piece to a long, unhappy, troubling (17yr)marriage. I feel sick, and tired and angry. And tricked. And so very sad...

I feel like putting up my chair and umbrella on the beach and saying the heck with it all...you can have it.....just give me my beach, my umbrella, and my chair!

Had a huge knot in my stomach yesterday.I was determined to tell my councilor how I really felt.
Glad I managed to, got some decent advice and a few things to think about that changed my direction of thinking.
Maybe not relaxed, but at least I feel tired and the knot is gone for now.

discouraged........

that feeling that i just don't belong any where, i will "never" find my true calling in this world. I am not like most that are out in real life...

I see too many out in real life that don't take responsibility, they don't care, and/or they are under handing and spiteful, etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.

How does that effect me.... I try, i used to care a lot more, i feel used- and get used by the ones that see that I try and/or care. Guess i should shut up and just do everyone's work because they don't want to do it. shut up, shut up shut up.

I was and have been the honest one and it almost always bites me in the ***... why be honest?

I should had learned my lesson as a child- Trust NO One.

I am sad, no change... no change despite meetings, despite standing up....

I am sad that I lack what ever that is to say--- You deserve better than this, go!

I am sad, all i do is home and work- work is about the only thing that gets me out from my apartment. Sure, trying to walk more .. went to the little mountain twice, but still.... for years now it has been, work home work.....
why can't i go out, anxiety... depression, mood swings.... not well in the head
or have no one to go out with and i don't want to go alone, or I don't know what i want to do with not feeling forced.

i feel sad, .. but as i know, emotions pass.... but that is my check in for today.. guess go check in some where else too while i am spewing out.

Same as yesterday…unfortunately. Trying to interact and distract as best I can.

It has been a relatively good couple of days, relatively low simulation, and what was an irritation was manageable.

-There is no such thing as normal.

I really need to find a groove this morning and get some work done... Plain distracted, I am...

The sun is out. That is a plus. I am still struggling to get the motivation to get my daily life pace back to where it should be, but I am not as low as I used to be. I am making progress. Slowly, but progress.

Scared...

My ptsd is acting up big time. It gets overwhelming and feeling on edge and it gets too much. Will try to call the doctor and see if he can provide some resources.

Realized today that I truly do have fears from my divorce which was 16 years ago, WTH!!!??? Now I can't stop crying.

Weather-depressed

Feel so numb, I see my T tomorrow I am going to have to learn and try to be honest with her.

Feeling ok, want to get back to work soon..

-There is no such thing as normal.

It's been ok since I have been asleep for most of it LOL.
I want to stop taking my AD and get back to learning how to deal with life and train/retrain my thoughts and emotions.
Where to start...humph...well, at the beginning!

My therapist last day was today, a close friend of mine is moving out of state and now my gym is closing...
On a positive note I had some really good clam chowder at Chillies today. (Hey I had to throw the positive in there too. Live is a balance right?)