Daily Comments #6- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

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I really don't belong here.

Yes you do.

I agree with LolaCabanna

The younger ones come in with their fresh pain. I was them once. I will never have a life. Even after 30 years it still is screwing me up and I have no right to be upset because it all happened so long ago and it's just nothing. I hope they have competent help and don't end up screwed over by the people that are supposed to be helping them. I don't count I don't matter and I never did. I can't even go because my works not done.

give yourself a break.

Hey, Things that happen young cut deepest; it takes a long time to know them(especially if they begin pre-verbal) and a lifetime to journey through----30yrs heck, I've got stuff that still rattles around, even things I've never spoken of that go back more than 50 years; hang in there; there are no tidy Hollywood or sanitized fairy tale endings... All we can do is be here for each other and you can be here too. You do matter. As much as any other person in this world. I can relate to the not being able to leave as your work isn't done---you learn it never is done. (I am just thinking that I felt, when my children were very young, that I had to decide whether to "stay" or "go", so they would not remember something terrible as one of "those" times--then there were some really good times, and bad times, and now they are grown and flown; but recently my son hit a hard patch and he is here again for a while...and it is okay...and there is the grandchild, so wonderful, lucky in spite of myself and yet still a mess in so many ways...now "they" (the ones that hurt, and were hurting) are gone, and I miss the voices...especially the voices for some reason...I can't call them or speak to them, I can't write to them...Life is short enough...and,in the end I know it is the small things, the small pleasures, that matter most...that help the most...that moment of sunlight is worth all the pain. Today, at least, I know that.

Iowa....I am at the crossroads of my life now as my two sons go their own way and I am 48. I am still in minimum wage work even after years of education. I failed at marriage/relationships. I have no social life or hobbies. My whole purpose has been my two sons and now they are leaving. My childhood was screwed up. My dating years were hurtful. My work life was disrespectful (as I am sure many others can also report).

At 48 years of age, now, I have no clue what my purpose is in life. I feel there is no use for me at work, with my sons who now have female companions, and no friends to hang with or companion to share with. I still have the support, though of the people on this website to keep me grounded. Please, at least allow us to help you in some small way. Even if it is just to vent your thoughts during moments like this. If you feel there is no one to turn to...at least voice it on here. It helps others here just as much to feel they can help others in some way as it does to feel that people want to help them.

An injury (whether physical, or emotional) may be long past, but the result of it has to be dealt with forever after. It changes us forever. HOWEVER....it is not the only moment that shapes us. Allow us to carry some of your burden so that you can find a little place inside for a peaceful thought also, now and then.

I'm not too bad today. Actually got a good night's sleep for once in a blue moon. No nightmares. I woke up feeling more rested. I'm still a little down today but not nearly as bad as it has been. But of course, I wonder when the ball will drop again.

not enough money for the vending machine..time to find a job

I apologize to fleeing for my inappropriate comments.

Another physio appointment today. The sun is shining. The temp has risen to -12 C. It almost feels like it could be a good day today...

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Quite a bit better now that I went and played and loved my horses for couple of hours... weather is beautiful... nothing like walking in the back field by the creek and being snuggled by two furry pals!!!! Feeling good!!!!

I am tired, worked six days this week; four ten hours, two 71/2 hrs...house is undone, my son is upstairs trying to put his sleepy son down for a nap, I can hear the protestations....think I'll go take over so dad can get to the store and play basketball for a bit...

Memories....even 30 year old memories...hurt as though it was just yesterday and you can't stop the pain. I understand....

I want to not only know what my mind is doing to me; I want some control over it.

This has been 24 hours of drama at our work place today. An injury caused to a worker by a coworker done in anger, without remorse....another injured in a car accident in the parking lot, and myself just missed at the traffic intersection when I got the crossing light, by a senior driver who took the left turn and nearly run me over if I hadn't stepped back. Something dark is hanging over the workplace today. I hope it goes better for everybody tomorrow.

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i cant take any more of this

This week I was treated to an update of my coworker's mothers bowel health. The minute she started talking I started singing "Blah, blah, blah..." inside my head.

I suddenly have a craving for turkey stuffing/dressing.

Jeeezus get up already! !!!! Take a shower, do some laundry, sheesh!!!! Don't get back into this freaking routine!

I think my jaw is getting worse. I have to take little mouse bites. It seem like the facial spasms from the nerve are getting worse too.

I wish I knew how to keep things simple when talking about myself.