Daily Comments #6- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

Lola, I feel the struggles with you. I do not take these forks well. Iam extremely indecisive.

I'm about to rest my life on the magic eight ball.

Lola

I really love the sound of thunder and rain.

Blah, Blah, Blah...i can't even be bothered.

I wanted to apologize to all my friends in this forum for not writing much on here lately. I've actually cut back on my posts overall. Recently, I've become easily triggered and upset from others' posts and I just haven't wanted to take the chance in messing up my mercurial mood.

I'm doing okay, and I'll try to put a few extra posts here and there just to say "hi". I hope everyone is doing well.

It never ceases to amaze me how people over hear a part of a conversation and feel that they are educated enough of that conversation that they are no way involved in to comment on, have an opnion on, or act on. This is how vicious rumors start and trouble starts between people when people dont mind thier own damn buisiniess or at least seek more information to find out more, if you cant do that or not become part of the actual conversation then you should keep your freaking mouth closed....because 9 times out of ten the "eaves dropper" dont know diddly about what is going on with the subject....I dont get it!

Castles:

A coworker was passing by me and another coworker and she heard me say "All I wanted to say to him was 'For Gawd's sakes just pull my pants down and touch it!'" LMAO

I was talking about my doctor trying to examine my hip muscles through my yoga pants I imagine the comment did not bring pictures of a family doctor to her mind at all

I just want to use the word No, as no i'm not going to do it, no i'm not going to have feelings, no why should i, no no no no no. Lot's of No.

Why should i have to, why can't i have the right to say No. No to everything, no to to those hateful feelings, no to those horrible emotions, no to thinking about things, no to having to plan things, no to having to please other people and then getting no thanks for it, no to having to go places that aren't dark and empty. No to places that have people in them, no to having to pretend to like stuff that you don't like. No to it all. No, no, no, just no, and i think my final word on the subject is no.

Thanks very much for listening to this utter rubbish.

No. no, no.

I swear... I think there needs to be an o between the h and the C...

My son just left for the airport. He has moved far away. I hope this move holds many rewards for him. I miss his hugs already.

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My favorite passage, the very last paragraph, from one of my favorite stories: The Dead, by James Joyce.

Yes, the newspapers were right: snow was general all over Ireland. It was falling softly upon the Bog of Allen and, further westwards, softly falling into the dark mutinous Shannon waves. It was falling too upon every part of the lonely churchyard where Michael Furey lay buried. It lay thickly drifted on the crooked crosses and headstones, on the spears of the little gate, on the barren thorns. His soul swooned slowly as he heard the snow falling faintly through the universe and faintly falling, like the descent of their last end, upon all the living and the dead.

Nicks
The good news is you have friends in Texas to check on him

feel so alone so isolated this morning.My husband has not been there for me when I need him, it's all about him. I need to feel connected again.I do everything I can to let him know how I feel about him.

I understand the feeling very well; I'm sorry for your pain and loneliness. It will get better, but it will never be the same.

Just thinking about the grandness of everything, how much larger any single thing is than me. It's humbling, alternately comforting and scary...

Thinking are people as transparent as their talks....

I can do this, I can do this, i just have to take every single second at a time...and breathe.

I really miss my oldest now...why won't he just call me. He talked for hours a month ago. Its a long story...

Need a hug? visit this website.

The Nicest Place on the Internet - StumbleUpon

I am feeling quite emotionally blunted. My brain seems to be obsessively rehashing the details of a recently resolved conflict in order to get me to feel something. And when that doesn't work, it cycles through the regular depressive thoughts. Now it's starting to shift focus to conspiracies. I feel physically exhausted behind all of this. I'm hoping to distract my thoughts and have it obsess over games instead. Not exactly positive, but surely not as destructive.

Also, there's a certain fullness in my head that causes me to stare at things blankly. And I do feel better after looking at that link! ^

I brought my car in for service and rats were hiding in the insulation on the hood.
I did apologize for bringing them along. They were quite startled and dispatched the creatures for me. More where those came from...

One of my coworkers really throws me off, I can't tell if he's being passive aggressive or what! He's helpful and is nice but at the same time he "jokes" around in a way that its hard to tell if he's being an *** or really just trying to be funny.......all I know is that I'm often uneasy and think I need to set a boundary.....ugh...I suck at setting boundries.....I really can't wait until June for my health insurance to kick in for therapy.....Ive come pretty far on my own I think but I need that push I think from a therapist....I just don't know how to act most of the time and how to react to people and handle certain situations its like I lost my social skills somewhere....its a big reason why all I really do is sit at home, don't go out, and push people away, I take things a certain way and then lash out in the wrong way...or I let things marinate inside my head and just get ran over ......I wanna go out and do things and not worry and be so freaking insecure that I fidget almost uncontrollabley......

Just the other day I went to get my eyebrows done and I couldn't help but grab a pen off the receptionists desk to click over and over and over and almost forgot to put it back, then I almost started pacing the waiting area....finally sat down and fidgeted with my hands and do the usual thing of biting and chewing on my lips and rolling my tongue around inside my mouth....I felt so ridiculous......