How are you feeling right now #6?

I’m at work without any Xanax. I feel like I’m on the edge of panic.

Depressed this morning

Feeling tired.

Calm in the face of upsetting relationship dynamics. Nothing has changed, but these meds and my self control have helped me stay calm and carry on.

I feel pretty good.

Mixed emotions this afternoon

I was stressed when I woke up. But now, after some coping skills, I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

Feeling a little frustrated and sad that I woke up with a cough. I hope it passes quickly. Probably just from "that time of the month" weakness, or...too much screentime.

Depressed this morning

I am feeling ok right now.

I took my night meds and a Xanax and a visteral so I feel like I can at least tolerate these thoughts and feelings. I may take another Xanax in a bit.

I took 20 milligrams of melatonin last night hoping for whatever to happen. Nothing did so now I feel like crap both mentally and physically.

I am feeling fine right now, aside from desiring more energy.

I could use more energy too. Otherwise, I feel fine.

Mixed emotions this afternoon

I'm cramping and it hurts. Mood is okay. Will be great if hubby can bring home dinner. Right now I'm a bit anxious waiting for his response and worried about stressing him more since I know he's been having long days lately. Ok, now I'm a bit sad...but hopefully we'll get some food, maybe Chinese??!! And then it's Nancy Drew night, so thats always fun!

Hugs to all who need or want them! *hugs

I took 2 Xanax in a row half an hour ago. My anxiety is still there though. This has got to be incredibly bad PMS. I just don’t feel like this for absolutely no reason. I never have. Severe moods like this have always followed by a period. Always.

A bit discouraged because I have found a psychiatrist nurse, but she's on the second floor. I don't know what to do about that because I get anxious every time.

Very lonely and a little sad.

Treated unfairly and ticked off because of it.

Why did you take such a huge dose?

I'm working with a neuroscientist who is familiar with all the research on melatonin. He has recommended it to me - and very specifically told me to look online and buy the ones that come in 300 microgram doses - much much smaller than what you usually see. Micro-gram - (not "milli-"gram).

He said that's what all the research says to take, and that you can safely take one 300-microgram pill without screwing up your brain/body (I don't remember all the details, I trust him, so I didn't get into details. I know I've read in other places that you need to be careful with melatonin, b/c it's a hormone, so when you take large doses, your body may adapt by NOT producing any more on its own - it essentially detects that you have more than enough, thus you don't need to make more).

With 300-micrograms, if I'm stressed, I can feel my stress level/cortisol drop almost immediately (I chew it and swish it around in my mouth, or put it under my tongue, so it's absorbed rather than swallowing and forcing it to go through digestion).

It's a subtle effect, but if I'm already in bed, lights out, trying to sleep and can't, the melatonin is just enough of a boost to help me shut my brain/stress/worries down for sleep.

It's not like a sleeping pill though - it's totally possible to ignore it, and stay awake, and miss the window for sleep.

Anyway, not sure if this is helpful, but I hope so - I was just shocked to see you were taking such a huge dose. I don't think I've ever heard of anyone taking that much, and think it's probably not going to be very helpful like that.

*hugs*

*hugs* back at you.

Cramps suck... so freaking much. I'm sorry you're feeling bad, and hope that today is better!!! Cramps are like, the bane of my existence. I wish I could banish them for everyone!!!

Hope you feel better soon!

Super depressed (still/again) about my job. I just feel... completely irrelevant.

I found someone in another state who is a therapist, but also offers remote coaching and Meyers-Briggs typing (she seems to be licensed to give the test, and actually can give the advanced form of the test that breaks out your personality traits to show where you fit your type well, and where you might naturally look a little outside of your type).

I'm so interested in this - my hope is that that by getting a handle on my personality a little better, my type, how I naturally think - I can figure out some sense of direction. Because I'm just drifting with no clue where to go. And while leaving this job would be a huge thing for my mental health, I need a direction to go in.

I'm a little nervous, so I've been putting it off... I think because I'm afraid she'll not be able to coach me, since I "need" therapy (she specifically says that if she thinks you need therapy, she can't coach you). But therapy has been such a disastrous horrible muckety mess (I've tried, bunches of times) - I am starting to think coaching might be more helpful for me, especially for where I'm at now.

Anyway, no matter what's going on for you - I hope your day ends better than it started!

I did it! I emailed the therapist/coach about MBTI testing with my questions.

So now I get to wait. I'm excited though. I hope she can help. I've done a lot of reading about Meyers-Briggs and how the underlying concept of cognitive functions works, and find it fascinating, but can't seem to figure out where I best fit into the system.

Maybe testing won't answer that (maybe I won't resonate with whatever I get typed as), but I'm hoping that this person understands it all well enough to help me figure out my type AND understand why I'm that type, where I fit the type and where I might look a bit different.

Anway... now we wait!

All the best with that and your search for direction!

Also, thanks...yes, I wish I could wish away cramps for us all too!