Flashback

At 20 and 21 yrs of age, I had nervous breakdowns. After the first one, my boyfriend broke up and I was on the brink of offing myself.

This morning, I'm remembering that time. I don't know why. But for some reason, I keep going there and want to grieve, I think. Or something.

I don't know why this is happening. I think I have tears inside, but I don't want to let them out. I don't have a safe place to do that.

I wish I had my therapist to talk to. He would have cared; then I could cry.

Out of 3 or 4 forums I visit, this one seems the safest one to reveal this to. Other places judge you, but you haven't done that to me. Thank you.

I haven't been here for a while. I posted this before I read Eva1ender's post about her boyfriend. I'm so sorry that happened to you Eva.

lily, you're safe here with us. no one is judging you.......i'm sorry that you're in a tough spot right now. i vote for grieving for your loss. crying is good for us....it relieves a lot of tension. a T once told me that there are "healing" teardrops and i totally believe her. so, let it out, girl........we're here for you...xoxo pat

Thank you for releasing the fountain. A kind word always surprizes me. Thank you for making a safe place.

Lillypad, you have friends here , no one should judge least yea be judged, (I think thats how it's said)
We care
Angie

Hi Lily - sorry you are having a rough time. I agree with above post that tears are healing. All losses are grieved in some way, and perhaps if u allow yourself to grieve the loss of that boyfriend, you can move on.

People here on this site have been wonderful since I started coming here. Its a great place ! Good luck to you.