[Yack]

Maybe I should just leave. I get really freaked out when I look at what I have posted and see 0 responses to everything. I look at other people's posts and everyone responds.

I am really hurting and in pain and I have no one else.

I can't stop crying, ok? I can't do much of anything. This is all I have. This and my dog.

I can't control what you write back or what you think but I am considering leaving because sometimes it is hard to see no responses. Like today.

It hurts very very very badly. I am sorry I can't give back right now.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

Yack please dont leave..I have few threads but 1 only 1 person posts in anymore.....besides me..I may sound like a broken record or something..I have seen a lot of thread by you with a good deal of posts today maybe one was overlooked and this board can go so fast...or maybe like me some CARE but just dont know what to say ..sorry

i'm pretty sure that i responded to you today or yesterday. i'm sorry that you're feeling so low. pat

[Yack]

That's ok.

[SpazKatt]

*hugs* please don't leave I know what you mean,especially when it seems like one person is getting all the attention. You are in my thoughts *huuugs* PM me any time!!!

[Twinks]

Yack,

Please don't leave.

People here care. It's just that we get focused on ourselves and our own problems sometimes.

You seem like a sensitive and bright person.

I'm so sorry you are suffering now.

Sending comfort and good wishes your way.

twinks

[SpazKatt]

also, sometimes we may not know what to say. ALthough if that happens I try to at least post hugs!

[NICO]

please dont leave thats exactly what your depression wants, people do care, i care ok. us butterflys have gotta stick together.

[ozzie]

(((((((((((Yack)))))))))))))

[jmo531]

((((((((((((((((((Yack))))))))))))))))))

Dont leave PC. Atleast not like this. You are very much loved and cared for here. We know you are hurting and want to help you. Please stick around so we can help you, OK. I am here if you need me, just a PM away.

Take care.


Huggles,


Jen

[quality_worms]

Sometimes I don't post replies because I don't know what to say and I don't want to say the wrong thing. I'm sure that's true of other people here, too. It doesn't mean that we don't care. Please don't leave when you still need people here.

[jagster]

I feel the same way you do. If i dont get replies to my posts i take it very personally. I think that its one of the main reasons i rarely post. Id rather reply to posts and feel like a hero, than to post and get no replies and feel like a zero. I dont really think i have any sound advice for you, but i hope you dont leave the forum. It seems to me by the replies that you have quite a few friends here , and you can add me to that list. If you ever feel alone please PM me. I care.Jag

[wisewoman]

Yup, I take it personally too, like am I boring? Your okay Yack, hang in there.

[tamzinrose]

Yack...I'm sorry you feel like this. But you don't need to apologise. And I'd prefer it if you didn't leave, because I'd miss you around here...I know I don't reply that often, but it's just good to see you posting... Sorry Yack. I'll try harder if you stay. *Hugs*

(((((((((((((((Yack)))))))))))))))))))

That frequently happened to me too. I know its hard. I'm so sorry. You are cared about and there is no excuse for us to answer certain peoples posts and not others. Its just wrong. I hope I get to know you better. Feel free to pm me anytime.

[Yack]

Thank you guys for trying.

I am so tired I can barely stand up...I am scared.

I shut down for 9 months...went nuts...my body is a mess. I had health problems before. Now I am very worried.

The amount of medication I am on scares me. I am on Nystatin for parasites (parasitic fungal yeast in my intestines that has spread - it's called Candida albicans and can become systemic (contributes to chronic fatigue and all sorts of health problems)- I was first diagnosed 3 years ago - its the same thing that causes yeast infections but mine was not detected fast enough), klonopin, Ambien, headache medicine...

I am so weak it scares me.

Everything scares me.

i'm so glad that you called out and told us what you needed......don't leave......we all care

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

((( YACK))) DIG IT...LOOK AT ALL THOSE WHO CARE HERE

[Yack]

Thank you guys again...

I just got sick...I have been nauseous since I went to court and the drugs are making it worse...

I got sick to my stomach (nauseous) after each incident with that man until I was so full of pain I collapsed. It takes a lot for me to lose my appetite. That last date sent me over the edge.

But even though my appetite is gone, I am still eating.

I took on too much until I exploded. I was not a weak person. I know that.

I just feel like I am "on" all of the time. I pushed myself too far and you do not know how much I regret it.

I do not want to pay with my health. I have suffered enough. Send me some vibes here please.

[allthegirls6]

Yack, good vibes coming your way.

atg

[kimmydawn]

vibes and thoughts coming your way filled with strength and peace.

(((((((((((((((jackie))))))))))))))))))

[dexter]

bbbzzzzzz, buzzzzzz, bizzzzzz

GOOD vibes, on their way... !!

Keep eating! It is important for recovery.

bbbzzzzzzz

[Yack]

I don't understand what I did to deserve this...

Ty again for the support. (((((everyone))))))

Someone please suck the pain and whatever this is away. I don't want to be afraid forever.

I am safe now. He has been in prison for a week and he is not coming out. No bail. He can't hurt me anymore. I keep telling myself this....

Maybe this will stop now. The anxiety.

The justice system works. This is the first time he has been put away and at first I felt pain for him, then relief. I am dealing with mixed emotions. I am starting to feel more now. Bad, but at least I can feel something. I just don't want to get sick.

[allthegirls6]

blue butterflies are always gonna get support. They are so good to look at!

atg

[kimmydawn]

Jackie, You might be in a place that I was in (well similar) when I began recalling and accepting some of the childhood abuses. I couldn't get past the "why" to heal. I've been able to do that for the most part. I can still get caught up in it with a new issue, but generally move past it much more quickly than before.

Anyhow, the only way I was able to move past that was to ACCEPT that I might not ever know, or at least any time soon, the answer to those "why" questions. I had to move past that to begin healing with what IS/WAS. I realize now that it was a form of evading for me.

I'm not saying that's the case with you. However, maybe trying to figure out the reason why the "why" question is so important for you and how you might move past that to healing is what you might talk with t about? With me, I had to realize that some things just are, and that was so hard. It was easier to question why than accept it just is, then work on it. ugh. it really gets to me thinking about it this deep again. it's huge. i know that pain.

I consider myself lucky that I don't, and probably never can, understand those "whys". It says to me that I'm not capable of thinking like those people do. Somewhere in here, that's such a comfort to me.

I wish you well on this. I was stuck in the "why" for years. It took t to point this out to me to even know that. only then could i attempt to move past it.

good luck hon.

kd