[EverythingCanWait]

I suppose this can be triggering for those who have been in serious car crashes...

So for the past few months I've been craving to be in a car crash. I'm not exactly sure why. Tonight while it was really wet and slippery on the roads while driving back, my mother turned the car round the corner and a huge carrier lorry was coming our way. I wanted nothing more for it to plummet into the side of our vehicle.

I don't know. I've also had cravings to run in front of cars... I have a feeling that it's not a normal thing to think of...

[beauflow]

Craving car crashes?>

Now I will admit- even before this recent crash I had in October, I have had really bad thoughts with car crashes, but not craving them i don't think-- just thoughts of the sort of someone slamming into me while driving home, or driving to work

Now I must admit it is more of a fear for me of car crashes---

But craving car crashes-- can't say i crave them knowingly, but the thought of them yes.

[EverythingCanWait]

Thing is I am thinking of it nearly all the time, to the point I just want it to happen to me. I'm not old enough to drive a car yet and I don't want to be the cause of it, so either way it isn't going to happen unless by accident from another driver. I almost get a little upset when I go through a journey without being in a crash. I should be thankful that I wasn't in one, but I just want one so much.

[Ygrec23]

Originally Posted by EverythingCanWait

Thing is I am thinking of it nearly all the time, to the point I just want it to happen to me. I'm not old enough to drive a car yet and I don't want to be the cause of it, so either way it isn't going to happen unless by accident from another driver. I almost get a little upset when I go through a journey without being in a crash. I should be thankful that I wasn't in one, but I just want one so much.

I do understand. Those crashes can be very attractive, for a number of reasons. You do need to talk with a trained person, a therapist of some kind. And let him or her know the full version of what you've been describing here on PC. There's something behind that attraction to car crashes that you need to bring out into consciousness, and a T will help you to do that. It's not really a good thing to be attracted to car crashes, but the attraction won't go away until you understand why it's there.

I'm very, very happy to hear that you're not yet old enough to drive, which would make it a lot more serious than it is at present. But don't delay, tell your folks if you have to, but however you do it get to see a therapist as soon as you can. It doesn't sound like the hardest thing in the world to deal with and any trained therapist can help you fix this problem. Take care!

[missbelle]

To me it sounds like depression, frustration, anger, rage, an obsession,.... etc. Many times years ago I just wanted to take my car and drive it into something like a tree, another car etc...What was it ? probably for me the feelings I described except the obsession one

Please talk to someone about this. If you are still in school,and not on Holiday break, go see the counselor. Its improtant to share these feeling you are having. No, its not normal.......

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I've been in many accidents now. The last one was a major accident and it was no fun. I've been in serious accidents before and because of the last one, I have anxiety attacks any time I'm in a car now. Accidents are not something you want.

Think about it deeper. Why do you want to be in an accident? Do you want others to feel bad for you? Do you want the pain? Do you want a story to tell or do you want it to be the end for you?

Either way this is unhealthy thinking and it would be best to bring this up with a therapist. These could be the beginning signs that you may become suicidal and we do NOT want that! Please care for yourself and resist the urge, it may seem tempting at the moment but I can vouch for the fact that it's one of the most horrifying things you can be a part of or witness in life.

[Perna]

It sounds to me like you have a desire for something big and important to happen in your life and have simplified it to "car crash". I went for awhile after school when I was working at a dead-end job where I kept imagining crashing my car into a cement bridge support on my route to work. I suspect I was wishing for big "change".

I think your thinking is akin to a daydream; someone might dream of a tropical island when they want to get away from a job, that sort of thing. Were I you, I would look to see what "car crash" represents to you, carry the fantasy to its completion and see what you end up with? I use to also fantasize that I was driving across a bridge that collapsed into the water and had a niece or someone in the car, got myself out and dove for my niece and had to swim us all the way to land, almost didn't make it -- it was a long, drawn out fantasy but the upshot of it was getting the attention of who I wanted and tangibly seeing how much those who care for me did, etc.

It's hard when you are a teen and fairly "trapped" between home and school! I would take on a project, do a lot of reading and see if you can figure out some of what interests you, where you have aptitudes or what you don't like but might need (math :-) how you get along with computers, etc. and see if you can't work toward something that interests you beyond the next 4-5 years? If you are going to go to college, what subject are you going to study, what do you want to work at, do you want to have a job during school and what would you do with that money (help pay for your education, live on your own with others, buy and support a car, travel) or do you want to study harder and finish early so you can do the next phase of your plan; do you understand money and how to make and use it effectively, etc. You aren't always going to be a teenager and I think finding something to get interested in and work on will get rid of the car crash interest and let you use that energy to get somewhere you would like better.

[EverythingCanWait]

I'm very, very happy to hear that you're not yet old enough to drive, which would make it a lot more serious than it is at present. But don't delay, tell your folks if you have to, but however you do it get to see a therapist as soon as you can. It doesn't sound like the hardest thing in the world to deal with and any trained therapist can help you fix this problem. Take care!

I keep making jokes with my parents about how I'd be a terrible driver and they just laugh along, and I don't think I'll be driving for a while. I have friends that are doing their driving tests and lessons and it seems rather costly, both in price and time. I'm hopefully going to get some help from the NHS soon, I am just waiting on some emails to come back and a few assessments to be completed.

Please talk to someone about this. If you are still in school,and not on Holiday break, go see the counselor. Its improtant to share these feeling you are having. No, its not normal.......

I've been off school for about a week, my counsellor told me on my last session with her that one of the senior members of staff at my school had told her not to come into school the day of my next session. She had told me the senior member of staff wanted the students to 'settle in' and when my counsellor asked me if I was okay with this, I had told her that it 'wasn't ideal' and my counsellor had said she'll try to come in. If she doesn't I won't be seeing her until the 11th of January. (Which will be a hard session to face after it will be two years since I picked up on the reason I have counselling.)

Think about it deeper. Why do you want to be in an accident? Do you want others to feel bad for you? Do you want the pain? Do you want a story to tell or do you want it to be the end for you?

Either way this is unhealthy thinking and it would be best to bring this up with a therapist. These could be the beginning signs that you may become suicidal and we do NOT want that! Please care for yourself and resist the urge, it may seem tempting at the moment but I can vouch for the fact that it's one of the most horrifying things you can be a part of or witness in life.

I'm not quite sure of what I want... The pain most likely. That may be correct, as I've had suicidal thoughts before, and although they have not been around as much recently the car crash thoughts have... maybe they are replacing them? I don't know. I'm sorry you've been in so many crashes.

It's hard when you are a teen and fairly "trapped" between home and school! I would take on a project, do a lot of reading and see if you can figure out some of what interests you, where you have aptitudes or what you don't like but might need (math :-) how you get along with computers, etc. and see if you can't work toward something that interests you beyond the next 4-5 years? If you are going to go to college, what subject are you going to study, what do you want to work at, do you want to have a job during school and what would you do with that money (help pay for your education, live on your own with others, buy and support a car, travel) or do you want to study harder and finish early so you can do the next phase of your plan; do you understand money and how to make and use it effectively, etc. You aren't always going to be a teenager and I think finding something to get interested in and work on will get rid of the car crash interest and let you use that energy to get somewhere you would like better.

I don't even know what I want to do in the future. Everytime I think about it I have this voice in the back of my head saying 'Don't you remember? You shouldn't be hear, your friends told you that you should be dead by now.' and it ends up with me thinking that maybe I shouldn't be here...
I'm technically in college already, I'm not sure if you mean university though? I'd like to study graphic design, but I never seem to fit enough time in to actually work towards that goal. My parents always badger me about getting a job but I have to work for my A Levels first.
I just can't seem to find interest in anything at the moment...

So in reply to all of those messages, I'll talk to someone about the car crash thoughts I think... I'm just worried that the person I tell may not understand or something...

[Adelissa]

I can relate to this on a different level. If I am driving I am scared to death to crash or to be the cause of some suffering or taking them away from loved ones. However sometimes I wish we could get into a car crash when I am not driving because I do have moments when I want to die but don't want to abandon my family, which is totally illogical because I could never, say kill my family and commit suicide like you hear about on TV, the thought is appalling, but I guess it is something to do with it not being your fault/decision, just wanting to be in heaven free of worry. But since I have been on meds I don't think about things like that as often, it is more just working on making it through the day. I would talk to someone definitely, perhaps it is a death wish, or possibly something else...