Shizophrenia and telepathy

Hello psychcentralies.

I want to explain some of my experiences.

The first is my schizoprenia. It makes me detach myself from my body and feel like i am outside my body looking in at myself. Sometimes i can imagine a particular person is watching and judging everything i do. It is horrible, because i have no mind of my own, i'm constantly self-conscious and insecure. I think about other peoples thoughts. Do they like me, do they dislike me? And the result is i never do things well enough, i am never good enough for others, therefore not good enough for myself.

That's my schizophrenia.

Then there's my telepathy. I feel i am telepathic. I know how someone is feeling, regardless of what they say. It is HOW they say it, their intonation and pronounciation. Even when it is written i can see a lot of depth into it, and read the truth in everything. I feel like i am going crazy, because this ability, this form of communication, has not always been present. I have always been sensitive, but i have not felt telepathic. The problem is, i know i am schizophrenic, and i want to be sure this is not a delusion. The reassuring thing is, i am almost always right. Not meaning to sound arrogant, but my telepathy works for me. I can relate well to people using it. People tell me all the time what a friendly, nice person i am. Conversely, my parents tell me i am sick, ugly, fat, stupid, and worthless. They tell me they hate me and i should kill myself, they wish i had never been born. How horrible is that? Anyway, what are people's thoughts on telepathy and ways of communicating? I spoke to a counsellor and she just thought i was very sensitive to the many cues in a person's voice and language. I hope so. I hope i am simply going sane!

<font color="purple">I can relate to both.... I can step outside myself and see myself as if I was twin or someting. I also have had many episodes of telepathic communiction and visions. I have only shared this with a few people as it is a difficult one for most to comprehend. I also struggle with the why's and what the source is but so far it has not been a negative thing for me. I'd rather not get into too much detail, but I wanted you to know that you are not alone. I do not think you are stupid or worthless either. I am so sorry that your parents treat you the way they do, because I feel that you have a great spirit and soul. Take care of yourself.. </font>

Sometimes, when we have been hurt the way we have we develop a sixth sense and learn to see a lot more then the average person. We learn to read between the lines quite well. As for telepathy and you illness? I don't know. Could be a gift you have received. What I do want you to know is that your parents are wrong and you are loved and your life has value. We can be so cruel to eachother. I am sorry they treat you as such.

I've got two ex family members with schizophrenia and both were able to read my mind. They were always right.

I can totally relate to the telepathy. I just consider myself to be ultra sensitive to things. I often know what a person is feeling and all that.

I had this one experience where I thought someone was following me. Well, they were and actually tried to kidnap me. It was a strange experience how I knew how this all was coming about too. All in all, I did get away.

Yes, lex, i get messages that people want to kill me. Usually it's harmless (like in the psych hosptial i was in) But once this guy said to me, i'm going to kill you now, i'm just going to get my gun. I was so scared i manipulated my way out of the situation but all the same couldn't stop myself from shaking all over. How f-ed up!

I'm feeling highly schizophrenic right now.

Mostly cos i'm lonely.

And angry

And more lonely

I have no friends, ya know. I have no job and no life.

And mostly, i don't believe in myself. I'm hurting and i think everyone hates me. I'm confused and desperate.

I think too much and i read too much into situations.

I have delusions that i am telepathic, all the while i can help people, so am i truly sick?

I don't know what to do.

I need help, but no-one will help me. I scare them off. At the same time, they love me.

Hugs anyone?

Hang in there sometimes. You have friends here.

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yep, you have friends.

kd

Cheers Ben and Kimmy!

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Hugs,

Jan