Totally screwed, totally scared!

It's better, my mom paid me 20 dollars (which she borrowed off some guy), to help her kidnap her dogs back from her ex husband. He's homeless and living at a campground, and he stole the dogs to hurt my mom, well we took them back. That gave me gas, food, and cigarettes, and I'll be able to go to DHHR and get the food stamp situation worked out. I'm so relieved, the humiliation has subsided a bit, thanks to mom I suppose.

I know my Mom's a crack addict, and a very mentally ill person, but this ain't the first time she's bailed me out of a situation like this. I know I had to do something for her, but I'll definitely say it was fair. I made my kids a delicious biscuit, sausage, and egg sandwich before they went to bed, with a lightly flavored chocolate milk. I was so happy to see them eating real food, not beans, water, and bread.

I'm so sorry if I freaked anybody out. Please understand that under the stress I felt overwhelmed and guilty that my children did not have the food I want them to. If it was just me and my husband, I wouldn't have given a rats ***, but it's my babies, that's what got me so upset.

ALL IS FINALLY GOOD NOW. Thanks so much all for being there for me. It's only going to get better because my husband gets paid tomorrow night, and I'm going to go to DHHR and get that stuff fixed. I feel terrible for sucking you all in my worries, but I'm very grateful everybody was compassionate and understanding and did not attack me to make me feel bad, especially in a shameful situation like this one.

((((((((((((((Hugs to all of you)))))))))))))))))))))

Just wanted to change the title.

Des, you need to stop putting yourself down because bad things happen to you. Most of us here have had times when it just felt like everything was going wrong, and there was no one who could or would help us, and we felt stuck. I get how you feel like it's your fault sometimes, or all this happens because you're a loser, but that's just because you're conditioned to respond to these kinds of things like that. I know, because I do it, too. But neither of us is responsible for everything that goes wrong in our lives, and yes, we've made mistakes--everyone has--but we deserve better, and you have to remember that.

(((((Desirae)))))

Sending you warm hugs and praying for you and your family!