I could disappear and no one would know or care...

If I were to just walk away and never return no one but my dogs would care...they need someone to feed, water, let them in and out...that is all I am good for...Other then that my family none of them would never have the slightest idea I was missing....
Sorry...just feeling sorry for myself... No reply required

<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>

somebody,

I hate to disagree with you, but there is a reply required. If you were to walk away and never return, I would miss you, a lot. You've become a very important part of my extended family and I care about you and what happens to you.

I just needed you to know that. Check your messages, OK?

With love,
Greg



"Beauty is truth, truth is beauty - that is all you know on earth, and all you need to know"

I've often felt that way, too, Somebody. It's not true, though. You can count on that.

Our illness sometimes makes us hard to be around but it doesn't mean that people don't miss us and want us to get better. I would miss you and I certainly want you to get better.





<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

I would miss you ... (((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))

I would miss you as well, Somebody. I'm glad you're back and posting more.

Repunzel, Greg, Susan, September Morn, Fuzzy, and Mary Alice..thank you... I just needed to vent and I really have been feeling sorry for myself I guess... Thanks for listening and being there for me...(((((HUGS to ALL))))
Thanks again...
Somebody

I would know and care. In many ways we are part of your family too.

And I bet if you had someone come in to feed your dogs and let them out, they would still miss you anyway.

Hope tomorrow is better. Give your dogs a hug... we're here, but their there.

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Thanks Dave...
You are so very sweet...
Thanks for caring...
Somebody

{{{{{{{{{{{{{Somebody}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Are you laughing yet? hehehe





<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

Somebody... I thought the same thing a little while ago. I thought that no one would care if I was gone. So, I went into hiding. I was quite surprised to find out how many people really did care. You have support on this forum and I would venture to say that you have more suport and people that care about you than you think.

September morn... thanks...yes I am laughing...
redvett... thanks you ... it's nice to hear from others that they felt the same way too...
Thank you everyone that has responded... you are all so sweet... Today is a good day... I have my plans all made out for the day... just hope nothing happens to change them ... take care...
Somebody

and I know it's true. It doesn't matter if the feeling comes and goes, it's the truth. I believe that if I feel it, it must be true. No one seems to care unless and until I say it out loud and only then do I get replies that say the same things that yours here did. "I would care" or "we'd notice" and then, as soon as I stop saying "I feel alone and ignored" the replies stop and again, no one really does notice if I disappear. So, I can't help but feel that the replies are either superficial or obligatory or both. HOWEVER, I"m sure that people here would miss YOU though. I'm just sure they wouldn't and don't miss me. There are alot of false niceties that people feel obligated to express and one can never know if the expression is real or not. That's the hell of trying to live in a social structure that values the 'good' lie. By 'good' lie I mean; we live in a society of salesman who lie to get you to buy their product, the televangelist who lies to make money, the white lie to make you feel better about yourself, the visual lies that show us flawless models on magazine covers who have, in reality, been airbrushed and digitalized to just look that way. How can one know when a sentiment is meaningful and real or just the obligatory lie to make us feel better????
that's just my feeling on it. I'm brutally honest 99% of the time so I guess that's why I am alone. I don't ask for lies, I ask for truth, even if I don't like what I hear.
What do you all think??

"hold me now, I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking......maybe six feet ain't so far down"

Hi, Angel. I'm truly sorry you feel that way, but our feelings often lie to us, especially when we're depressed. Something I learned while in therapy and often remind others of is that "Feelings are NOT facts." I'll try to find the paragraph or article that I've posted before.

As far as the responses you get here; there are very few "obligatory" responses. The proof I find is that someone will make a post when they are distressed and they'll get reads! Oh, yeah! There will be something in the neighborhood of 15-20 reads and NO responses! It's a pet peeve of mine, but we need to stop and think that those who have read just may be in the same place emotionally and just can't muster something positive to say. Sometimes a post can trigger others and it's best if nothing is said. But it sure doesn't mean that no one cares. It's simply not true on this site. The people here are all in varying degrees of comfort and DIScomfort but we all understand what others are going through and on a whole, we're all a pretty caring bunch.





<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

Tomi is right about that. We are all here for a reason. The last couple of days my replies have generally been very short - maybe just a smiley or something I could cut and paste from somewhere. There have been a lot of posts that I would have liked to reply to, but I have run out of energy. Yesterday I slept most of the day. If I didn't care, believe me, I would not have made the attempt to post even that much, or even be here reading. So if you see that your post has been read, hopefully someone will respond too (I've noticed Susan putting a lot of time into making sure that posts don't go unanswered ), but each person who read that post cared enough about the one who posted it to take a look and see what was going on.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Somebody, Angel04, Tomi, Susan, & everyone else who could use a hug today}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Wendy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm one of those that can really use a hug today. Thanks, Sweety.





<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

Thanks from me too! ((((((((((((((((((((Wendy))))))))))))))))))))