[SeptemberMorn]

Most of the time, I can interpret my dreams. This one, I can't. Maybe some of you can give me some clues. It ties in with my post in Depression, "Overwhelmed", of that, I'm sure.

Here it goes... as I can remember it.

My daughter (whom I haven't spoken to in years) and I took a vacation somewhere. We had lodging at her in-laws place. We drove around and saw the sights and I wound up losing my cell phone. I panicked but it was nowhere to be found.

Somehow, we wound up back at her in-laws place but my suitcases were missing and the room we were staying in was a terrible mess.

Then I found myself at a bus depot and somehow managed to get on a bus back home. My daughter was in and out of the dream, pretty distanced from me both physically and emotionally until she was finally out of the dream.

On the bus, I made a male friend. Through talking, it was arranged that he would be the caretaker of the land that I owned. (In reality, I lived on a ranch for 8 yrs.)

Then a friend of mine wound up on the same bus. (In reality, knew this guy for a while. He bought my heard of goats when we sold the ranch.) We were very friendly on the bus and he even hugged and kissed me. I tried to talk him into coming to work for me but he wouldn't agree.

His stop was coming up pretty quick and I tried to convince him to please come take care of the land. I put my arms around him and tried to kiss him, but he was no longer receptive. He walked to the middle of the bus, nudged a woman holding a baby and said "We're getting off NOW!" I could see them walking away with a second child.

My feeling was that I had a back-up anyway, but when I tried to cement the agreement with the other guy, he said "no."

I wound up on a nearly empty bus with three older women, I think, two of which had children. One wasn't watching the kids and a toddler wound up at the feet of the bus driver. It nearly caused him to have a wreck. The woman was given a stern warning.

Another woman was sitting beside me and I saw a child with it's head on her shoulder. I reached over and touched it and suddenly realized there wasn't a child. I had touched the woman and was extremely apologetic. She never said a word but the impression she gave was of a lot of anger towards me.

Oh, yeah... somewhere along the line, someone bought me a jacket to replace the one I had bought and lost, but I lost that one, too.

When I reached my destination, I had nothing with me. I woke up crying because I had lost Everything! I had nothing to my name.

Back to reality... I've lost a lot during my lifetime, but I haven't lost EVERYTHING. Am I about to lose something now? Even awake, I can feel the tears behind my eyes...

[(JD)]

well I'm not a professional analyst but I'll give it a shot for you!

It is ALL about family and your relationships (and no, I haven't read your post in depression yet.)
From what you have shared here at PC, I can see correlations to your issues with family.

You keep going to them, to try and work things through. But they rob you of even your happiness most times. Those who you were close too, aren't anymore, and only show affection/appreciation when it's convenient to them, not when they have other things to control.

But you not only long for their affection, you want them to help you too. Maybe one has offered but hasn't come through? Another just won't help.

I'm a little fuzzy on who the 3 women are... someone could be a member here I guess... and how you responded but was treated back? And the children? Do I really need to remind you of your concern for your grandchildren?

I think you do feel as though you could "lose it all" referring to the love of the people you care so much about!

[Perna]

Interesting dream, SeptemberMorn, thanks for sharting it.

If it were my dream, I'd find it very significant that I was with a daughter I hadn't "communicated" with for years and then lost my cell phone? What are you trying not to tell yourself, LOL?

[SeptemberMorn]

Thanks! Here's what came up for me...

"Those who you were close too, aren't anymore,"

My daughter. John is coming back into the fold. It cannot be David, because he "taught me to fish" rather than to "feed me."

"Maybe one has offered but hasn't come through? Another just won't help."

The ex-husband and the present one. The friendly hug was the ex, but the hug and kiss had passion in them, the present husband. Neither of them came through with their promises to me or my expectations of them.

"I'm a little fuzzy on who the 3 women are"

It's entirely possible that one of them is a member here but then... "three women," my family of origin!

"And the children"

Just this instant, I remembered the song from Rogers and Hammerstein "The King and I". It made me want to tear up. The main wife singing to the nanny "The children... the children!"

"The children" could be a mix of John's kids and me at that age. Hmmm... maybe my daughter's boys, too. The other four are very well taken care of, even the two being raised by a single father.

Thanks, Sky. You've given me a lot of food for thought.

[seeker1950]

September, dear,
I have recurring "abandonment" dreams, which sound much like you have described with trying to secure people to assist you (like in working for you on the farm). I have no experience with the children aspect as I have a loving relationship with my one daughter, but otherwise, it sounds like issues of abandonment on all counts to me.
I too wish we had an expert in dream interpretation.
Patty

[SeptemberMorn]

Oh, yeah! Do I ever have abandonment issues!

Generally, when I dream, there is another female with me but I rarely am able to identify her. For a long time, I thought that I might have been a twin and lost "my other half" because I'm missing "someone." My T suggested that it was the "me" that I lost in childhood through all the abuse, plus the fact that I was never protected. I dealt with my own issues all on my own, all of my life.

The issue of "abandonment" has reared it's ugly head recently, too.

Thanks, Seeker. You've shed a strong beam of light on my dream.

[Fuzzybear]

In case you havent had enough hugs from me today
((((((((((((( MomWad )))))))))))))

your furry daughter

[SeptemberMorn]

I never get too many hugs, especially if they're from furry bears!

{{{{{{{{{{{{{Fuzzwad}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[Rapunzel]

Sky said the things that I was thinking of. So much in your dream sounds like your life and the people and experiences and issues that you have told us about. That sure was a lot of material in one dream! You are the best expert on your own dreams, and the feelings and associations that your dreams bring up for you mean more than anyone else's comments or any expert interpretations. I will say that a journey can easily represent your life.

TC and (((((((( hugs )))))))))

Love, Rap

[silver_queen]

(((((((((( Sept ))))))))))

You can also buy dream analysis books - you know the type - "a red shoe means you're going to leave home, a green shoe means you're going to travel around the world, a blue shoe means you're going to travel to the house of your childhood" - just how accurate or how much of it is made up by the author, I don't know

[Doh2007]

Is it possible that you've been neglecting yourself? Especially your playful, childlike side?

[seeker1950]

September, dear,
I suspect you are much like me in being able to interpret your own dreams. I know when I've had an "abandonment" dream, as well as a dream reflecting unresolved relationships, no matter how bizarre!
I also have recurring dreams of being late for work, with various obstacles preventing me from getting there, and calling in to report I'll be late, or dreams of being late to class. I recognize all the symptoms of these dreams.
I don't know much about you, September, but do you now have a partner, husband, significant other?'
Patty