[Typo]

I have felt so off the past few days. I don't feel like myself. I feel frustrated and like I am stuck in the same place all the time. I am becoming easily frustrated with my IRL friends because when I try to explain these feelings they don't understand or tell me to quit being so negative. I'm not being negative, they just don't understand my anxiety or the fact I feel like I can never get a grip on the nightmares and memories.

I also just feel like I am just stuck, For them they are moving away, going of to 4 year universty's, meeting new people, and I'm stuck here with the same people,living at home,going to a two year community college, A good one but it still frustrates me because over half of my graduating class is going there. They also just don't understand I don't have the money to go running around all the time. I have no vechile and I have to save for it, I sometimes have to help my family out with bills or grocerys.

I just feel so alone and frustrated. I made steps to better myself but I'm not getting anywhere at all, noone in IRL understands and they probably never will. I feel like I'm running in circles, I don't mean to whine it's just that I'm frustarted and I don't know where to post this, and I just need someone to talk to.

[Doh2007]

I understand your frustration. I felt the same way. For what it's worth, I think you are smart to go to a community college first. Not only will you not have the ridiculous debt that the others will have, but you're more likely to graduate after you transfer.

That doesn't help with the sadness and feelings of loss though. All I can say is that it gets better. What classes do you think you might take?

[Typo]

I'm not sure what classes I'll be taking, I know for sure I'm going to take creative writing and criminal justice, I have room to take classes for fun because I already have 4 core classes out of the way.

I am glad I'm starting at the two year and sad at the same time.
Mostly I just feel lost anymore...It's that What Now feeling.
And my friends just don't get it, I've stopped self injuring so what now?
I know what triggers me and what my issues are but what now do I do now to correct it?

Thank you for answering Doh2007, it means alot.

(((((( Silversparrow ))))))


Advice isn't my forté, but I understand how you feel -it's tough, and people on PC will always be here to understand, you're not alone in this.

School and education is so frustrating, but in the end, always worth it.

Sorry people IRL don't understand, I'm sure you'll meet people who do. You're a great person and you will go far in life.

[gimmeice]

(((((((((((((( silversparrow )))))))))))))))

I am sorry that no one irl understands what you are feeling, it's hard to understand something unless you have experienced it. Feeling stuck is such a hard emotion, I hope that you start feeling better soon.

[BalishBun]

it will be okay. I understand the fact that others dont understand. My husband has told me more than once to stop being so negative.

[Junerain]

I, too got left behind during the year students went off to college.......then I joined the support group www.dbsalliance.org click on support to find a group near you...also can you throw yourself into a hobby instead of self harming?

[EJ711]

Silver,

Our friends are supposed to understand, and when they don't it hurts.

I'm sorry this is such a difficult transition for you.

You are really using your money wisely by attending a community college for two years. I will pray that you meet some new people who share some of your interests when school starts up.

EJ

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( Silversparrow )))))))))))))))

[cheetah]

It's very difficult for those who have never experienced anxiety or depression to understand what it is like. Others often feel you should just 'get over it' or 'snap out of it' but many of us know that isn't how it works. I hope things get better for you soon.

[I_WMD]

Sparrow ,,,,, You are aiming for your future ,, taking the time to save for what you will need when The education thing comes to fruition ,,,, AND !!!!! ,,, You are being a responsible member in your Family Unit ,,, .

I have been at times told I think negatively in RL by friends too .

But Look at the positives you have shared here as to your character ......

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((Silversparrow)))))

Thank you for sharing. That took a lot of courage and you took the first step here. I understand not being understood. I am in a situation although different, it is the same as far as being understood. Keep your head up. You are doing what you feel you need to do for yourself and that is what matters. As you move along--you can go to the university, when you are ready. Have you tried for some scholarships? I admire you for hanging in there and going to school with all the pressure it sounds you have. Keep your head up and keep posting. You are doing the right thing.

darkpurplesecrets

[magasanguis]

I read your post and was so astonished, because I feel I may be in the same boat in a few years' time. I totally understand the anxiety about making that kind of decision.

Plus, I've also had friends who weren't quite so understanding. I think coming here to post is about the best thing you can do in that case.

Count on the members here to be understanding.