An open apology...

I became a member here about 4-5 months ago. During that time I very rarely posted. It's only in the last 3-4 days that I've been posting a lot (because of my extreme panic and anxiety).

A few days ago (what was I thinking??) I created a political poll asking about party affiliation. I was just curious and did'nt see any harm in it. My motives were completely innocent. Most people did'nt seem to mind at all but when I used the term "traditional family" someone here responded as though they were offended and then the next day another person also seemed a bit offended. Also, a few times I know I have probably acted somewhat defensively and I apologize for that. I have not been in my right mind lately and of all the people on earth, I know you people can surely relate to that.

I just want to say that I never meant any harm. I don't want to lose any of you as friends. I am sorry for using the term "traditional family". I never meant to offend anyone. I don't really care what party you belong to, wether you are male or female, underweight or overweight or even if you have a big eye in the center of your head (honestly, I REALLY don't!). What matters most about people to me, is that they are compassionate, freindly, non-judgemental and understanding.

Anyway, I just felt like I needed to share that (for whatever it's worth).

- Warm regards, Tim

GreyGoose, how could anyone be upset with you?
We are so glad to see you posting, when I didn't see anything from you this morning I got worried
Angie

((((((((((((((((((((((((((Grey))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) You're OK.

Are you serious?. I thought some people were offended because of that poll the other day. In fact, I got so upset over the idea that maybe I had offended someone that I asked that it be removed.

Perhaps I'm over-reacting. I'm just so freaked out and panicky these last 3-4 days thinking I'm going to die that every second I'm alive is like pure torture. Gosh, I almost wish I could just be put under anesthesia for a month or two just so I would'nt have to face life. Anyone else here ever felt that bad because of anxiety, depression, hypochondria, etc?.

Greygoose, you are crackin' me up bad. I know you are describing a serious situation and struggling, but god, your writing is wonderful. Do you feel a sense of humor about it as you write it? I mean, if you heard this in a Woody Allen movie, you'd laugh.

So, weather by accident or intent, your description of anxiety is a good read.

But as to your idea of anesthesia for a month...sounds a lot like an impulse to "medicate," doesn't it? The cycle you are describing sure sounds like one I would want some help with. Can you get with a dr. easily? A variety of things will interrupt this for you.

I hope you keep writing. There might be more in that for you than you know yet. Anyway, I'm sure likin' it.

sqrlb8 is right. I too, enjoy reading your post, and you know what? By asking your poll to be removed showed what a decent, caring person you really are. Our minds are an amazing thing - never know what ideas will come up.

I do get extremely anxious - sometimes to the point of either hurting or being frozen - paralized. So afraid to move, and yet, at the same time, my mind moves in warp speed.

Sqrlb8's right about taking some meds. Please talk to a dr. about your anxiety.

Oh yeah, I AM serious. You REALLY ARE OK. big hugs coming to you ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((greygoose))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Keep posting

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What courage it took to apologize for thinking you have hurt or offended anyone. I personally was not offended. I wouldn't beat yourself up about it. Apology accepted but really not needed.

Take care

Wow, thank's!! )-:

You know, I think sometimes I post something and then wait for awhile and if I come back and see that noone has responded and yet there are like 38 "views", I extrapolate that to mean that people are "mad at me" when in fact...

1# People just don't know what to say or how to respond
2# People are just passively lurking/reading

I don't know. I tend to be the same way on other forums at times and sometimes I panic even more thinking "Oh no!!...my condition is so bad that NOBODY has an answer (or can even relate)!" - as if by not answering, it somehow "validates" my original concern (even though I know this is'nt the case).

:-)

Grey Goose, don't be so serious!

I told you there's a difference between disagreement on political issues and personal attacks or being offended.

I was glad to see that thread started.

We all misstep .....even when the intentions are good....don't worry.....grace

I don't think you have anything to apologize for. You're fine. Keep on posting. (((((((((((((greygoose))))))))))))

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greygoose, see? all is well you're a great person and that's seen above all. remember this about posting with few responses...alot of viewers could be visitors just checking the site out but can't post yet. you're doing great!

greygoose, i love your name and you've never, ever offended me...never, never, never!! pat

I personally didn't get in that thread but want to say, don't worry, we all have our days, and it is admirable when a person is willing to say "I'm sorry" and more admirable when others can "forgive" and move on.
I hope for you better days to come soon, as I wish for all who come to our forums

Take care now,

DE

Hell, I can relate, I have said in the past that I wish I could be put on "hold" until the realities pass.
When things got bad I finally went for treatment, pdoc and therapist got me back on track, without them I probably wouldn't be around.
If you haven't already, perhaps speaking to a therapist may help you through things. . . can't hurt right?
Just my 2 cents.
I send you good wishes for better days,
Sincerely,

DE

Crap! I was offline for a few days and was looking forward to seeing how that particular thread progressed!

I wasn't offended at all!

Thank you so much for putting my mind at ease. It gives me great pleasure to be able to share with all of you. In fact, it is even therapeutic. I've been to a lot of boards but this one is special to me because unlike others, the people here seem so much more warm, friendy, understanding, sympathetic, and above all, non-judgemental. Had I posted even half of the things I've posted here in some other forums, I'd have been laughed out of town. You folks are GREAT :-)

Thank's again ((((((((((((ALL OF YOU!!)))))))))))))

Hugs and good wishes to you
Take care,
DE

out of interest...what other forums are out there?

Was I the person you worried that you had offended? I hope not. Just because I disagree with someone doesn't mean that I am offended by their opinion.

Hi Greygoose,

The feeling of having offended people comes straight out of the depression locker. It's in there with all the other tricks depression plays on us.

For me, I've known quite a few really rude people in my working life, and it didn't hold them back one bit. Some people even admired them for being 'up front'.

When we're down we spend our time pussyfooting around, not saying 'boo to a goose' and sometimes I'd just like to speak my mind, stick up for myself a bit, just for a change.

You're one of the gentlest and kindest people on psych central and I think that you are being hard on yourself. But, we all do that don't we? That comes out of the depression locker too.

Cheers, e.

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