[InTheProcess]

It never ends and every morning I wake up this a sickening depression.

Every night before I fall asleep I usually eat some stuff that isnt necessary. And if I don't I'll usually wake up a few hours later and eat some stuff I don't need to. But I do it in such a haze that I barelly think about it. Idk what to do anymore this is miserable. It's like there's someone else who judt wants to totally fat and never lose weight and struggle forever.

I am sorry. I just have to vent.

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[gayleggg]

Have you tried keeping those things you don't need to be eating out of the house, making it harder to eat your late night snacks? Maybe that would help.

[InTheProcess]

Hah I wish it was that easy. Ill usually find something. Thanks tho. I do know not to keep anything that I know ill devour. Ha

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[PianogirlPlays]

I have also done that. I did last night. I ate a half of sandwich in the middle of the night because it was there. My reward was indigestion. Doesn't help my other hurts. Maybe if I had a whole different plan and was prepared to listen to a book or stay away from the kitchen area. If it was already by my bed that might be helpful. I lose sleep this way too.

[BEDK]

I completely understand. I live in a house where we have no bread, no almonds, no bananas, no anything, really, because I'll binge eat them. I've started buying things from the local convenience store at night. My bf holds onto my wallet so I can't buy things, but I've started to keep money hidden in other places. I do have some insomnia, so I agreed to be put on a sleep-inducing anti-depressant (!), because I believed that I ate only at night because I was lonely and bored. Nope. Fought off the chemical-borne sleepiness to wake up at night and steal my bf's credit card to buy all of the junk food. I feel sick. I feel horrible. THIS WILL NEVER GET BETTER. It makes me cry. I, a grown and competent adult, think aboutbursting into tears because I can't stop eating at night. I would gladly cut off a pinky toe if I could stop eating at night. I would give 10% of my salary to stop eating at night! WHY CAN'T I STOP? THIS IS HOPELESS.

...And here I am, signing up for a support forum. So I can't say that things will never get better. Maybe they will. I obviously think that something can be done, because I signed up.

So! I'm in the same boat as you, somewhat. Our houses are empty of delicious things, and my bf will take my wallet. I'll put his cards with him at his bedstand. So...what do we do now? I don't want to wake up and sit there, pining away for food. That's horrible.

Sheer willpower is so hard. It's really hard to use effectively, I think. My friends who want to quit something--like smoking--always insist upon strongarming their addiction. It baffles me. You're taking away something from your life. Something you like--or maybe not really enjoy, but continue to do habitually--and it's something comforting. You can't just take away shoes from a dog, and expect him to stop chewing. You need to add something to your life. Otherwise, you're mentally in a state of deprivation. And sorrow.

I should take my own advice.

Let me think. I eat because, I think, I'm lonely and sad. And bored. And nothing in my day gives me that same delicious sensory WHOOSH feeling as I get when I mentally unlock a gate and say <Go! Go, BEDK! Eat whatever the hell you want! You're free. Everyone's asleep. They can't judge you now. Mmm...******* sugar and fat and salt in unlimited quantities! It beats the hell out of those bitter-*** greens you were munching on today!>

So. What do I do?

[PianogirlPlays]

I have read some books about food. Like when it represents love. Or another that talked about not giving up the things you like but getting so they don't matter so much to you because they are not denied. Right now because of let's face it angers nothing is going well. Anger is the real thing I need to deal ith in my life . Food might fall in line in the feelings did.

[Nisi]

I relate to so many of you. Hi, I am new. I am here because I have tried thru the last few years to lose weight and not succeeded. I got to the point of looking up how to change self-destructive behavior. For the first time in my life I am to be tested on sugar and if I am diabetic. And here I have been, drinking sugar drinks and eating sugar and carbs. I asked myself, I KNOW that test is coming, just like weigh-ins of the past, and I not only don't succeed at changing-I add to the problem. I need to permanently change this.

[coolbeans33]

Originally Posted by BEDK

I completely understand. I live in a house where we have no bread, no almonds, no bananas, no anything, really, because I'll binge eat them. I've started buying things from the local convenience store at night. My bf holds onto my wallet so I can't buy things, but I've started to keep money hidden in other places. I do have some insomnia, so I agreed to be put on a sleep-inducing anti-depressant (!), because I believed that I ate only at night because I was lonely and bored. Nope. Fought off the chemical-borne sleepiness to wake up at night and steal my bf's credit card to buy all of the junk food. I feel sick. I feel horrible. THIS WILL NEVER GET BETTER. It makes me cry. I, a grown and competent adult, think aboutbursting into tears because I can't stop eating at night. I would gladly cut off a pinky toe if I could stop eating at night. I would give 10% of my salary to stop eating at night! WHY CAN'T I STOP? THIS IS HOPELESS.

...And here I am, signing up for a support forum. So I can't say that things will never get better. Maybe they will. I obviously think that something can be done, because I signed up.

So! I'm in the same boat as you, somewhat. Our houses are empty of delicious things, and my bf will take my wallet. I'll put his cards with him at his bedstand. So...what do we do now? I don't want to wake up and sit there, pining away for food. That's horrible.

Sheer willpower is so hard. It's really hard to use effectively, I think. My friends who want to quit something--like smoking--always insist upon strongarming their addiction. It baffles me. You're taking away something from your life. Something you like--or maybe not really enjoy, but continue to do habitually--and it's something comforting. You can't just take away shoes from a dog, and expect him to stop chewing. You need to add something to your life. Otherwise, you're mentally in a state of deprivation. And sorrow.

I should take my own advice.

Let me think. I eat because, I think, I'm lonely and sad. And bored. And nothing in my day gives me that same delicious sensory WHOOSH feeling as I get when I mentally unlock a gate and say <Go! Go, BEDK! Eat whatever the hell you want! You're free. Everyone's asleep. They can't judge you now. Mmm...******* sugar and fat and salt in unlimited quantities! It beats the hell out of those bitter-*** greens you were munching on today!>

So. What do I do?

I just read your comment and this is exactly how I am, sometimes I feel like a drug addict and there's no way out.. It seems worse recently because I used to be obsessed with running, it was the only thing in the world that gave me that WHOOSH feeling! Then I overdid it and became so obsessive about it I basically ruined my knees and hips. I'm only 24 and I had to force myself to basically stop because my body was falling apart. This was years ago and every time I try to start again injuries come really fast and easily. Once I lost running I became some kind of compulsive night time binger.

At least when it comes to smoking or alcohol you can stop cold turkey. But when you stop eating food, you will become dysfunctional and eventually die.

that was my inspiring message lol, but that's how it is.

[Edis]

I totally understand how you feel. I just spent my entire vacation binging. I weight a lot. I feel horrible. I can't even step on the scale.

I try to find tricks to help myself. I know that I'll overeat at work so I'm going to bring only $3 in cash from now on because there isn't much I can buy for $3. The only stuff available is healthy at that price point. If I don't buy junk food, I won't eat it. I just sent a bunch of junk food with my fiance to his work so that if he needs a snack, he can have it so it's not wasted but it's not in the apartment either.

I also just bought a sticky blackboard thing and stuck it to the hallway wall. I drew a calendar and marked down my stats, my goals, and pre-scheduled trips to the gym. I'm hoping that helps get the few pounds off that I know I put on...

[Love Antiques]

I understand too. I eat or want to eat sweets, especially chocolate, all day and all night long. It does help not to have that stuff in the house, but sometimes my cravings are so bad I go to the convenience store at night to get something. Eating chocolate makes me feel good and helps me relax. My biggest problem is at night after supper, but I struggle all day long. I used to be slim to average, but not any more. I have to get this under control because it is not healthy and could be a factor in cancer reoccurring. Plus I know I would feel better and have more energy if I lost weight.

[MoxieDoxie]

[TatorTot]

Night eating syndrome - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

[PianogirlPlays]

I suffer along with everyone here. Food has taken a high toll on my life and health. I keep wanting and doing what I hate. I know I would feel so much better to just get this to a better place. I hope tomorrow I will take some reasonable steps.

[InTheProcess]

Originally Posted by BEDK

I completely understand. I live in a house where we have no bread, no almonds, no bananas, no anything, really, because I'll binge eat them. I've started buying things from the local convenience store at night. My bf holds onto my wallet so I can't buy things, but I've started to keep money hidden in other places. I do have some insomnia, so I agreed to be put on a sleep-inducing anti-depressant (!), because I believed that I ate only at night because I was lonely and bored. Nope. Fought off the chemical-borne sleepiness to wake up at night and steal my bf's credit card to buy all of the junk food. I feel sick. I feel horrible. THIS WILL NEVER GET BETTER. It makes me cry. I, a grown and competent adult, think aboutbursting into tears because I can't stop eating at night. I would gladly cut off a pinky toe if I could stop eating at night. I would give 10% of my salary to stop eating at night! WHY CAN'T I STOP? THIS IS HOPELESS.

...And here I am, signing up for a support forum. So I can't say that things will never get better. Maybe they will. I obviously think that something can be done, because I signed up.

So! I'm in the same boat as you, somewhat. Our houses are empty of delicious things, and my bf will take my wallet. I'll put his cards with him at his bedstand. So...what do we do now? I don't want to wake up and sit there, pining away for food. That's horrible.

Sheer willpower is so hard. It's really hard to use effectively, I think. My friends who want to quit something--like smoking--always insist upon strongarming their addiction. It baffles me. You're taking away something from your life. Something you like--or maybe not really enjoy, but continue to do habitually--and it's something comforting. You can't just take away shoes from a dog, and expect him to stop chewing. You need to add something to your life. Otherwise, you're mentally in a state of deprivation. And sorrow.

I should take my own advice.

Let me think. I eat because, I think, I'm lonely and sad. And bored. And nothing in my day gives me that same delicious sensory WHOOSH feeling as I get when I mentally unlock a gate and say <Go! Go, BEDK! Eat whatever the hell you want! You're free. Everyone's asleep. They can't judge you now. Mmm...******* sugar and fat and salt in unlimited quantities! It beats the hell out of those bitter-*** greens you were munching on today!>

So. What do I do?

I too have tried OTC. sleeping meds, however only to wake up 2-3hrs later and eat.
Have you talked to a doc about your issue? Maybe they could suggest something

Willpower HAHA whats that? Its so sad to want something so bad yet over and over destroy it. I wish you luck take care <3

[GALAXYGAL]

I can relate to all of you in some way or another. I eat a small breakfast, take lunch to work. The problem is eating at nights and on the weekends. It doesn't matter what I do to stay busy I have to eat afterwards. It's just like when I used to smoke I had to have a cigarette after every meal. This is just another addiction.

[PianogirlPlays]

Help! I am at a B and B surrounded by my favorite sweets and I had just pigged out on a big Italian dinner. I feel worse for the wear and tear on my inner being fr the beating up I do on my poor inner self. Way too weak in every way!

[GALAXYGAL]

Don't beat yourself up. Be kind to yourself. What's done is done. You've recognized your downfall, now start over and give yourself a new beginning.

I relate to so many of the posts here. I have trouble with over-eating, too. I know the shame of bingeing. My weakness is chips and other salty, crunchy junk foods. I am trying to eat healthy and in moderation for the nth time. I am in my seventh day. What is helping me is to remember that it will all be worth it in the long run. I also think that my disordered eating had to stop sometime -- why not now. I look forward to a future of better health.