[Fuzzybear]

I realize now that a few of my posts during my time on the internet, when I have been badly triggered, have been very rude and hostile. Most of the time I try very hard, and I hope succeed, to be kind and caring. I truly hate to hurt anyone, especially if they are a friend..... but anyone at all. I know how much unkind words and actions can hurt, from my own experience. So to anyone I may have hurt I offer my humble and heartfelt apology.

I am struggling with feeling bad, disgusting and ugly....... this is nothing new to me but those feelings are particularly intense lately. I have strong urges to cut and harm myself in other ways and I am struggling badly with self care which makes me feel even more disgusting.

I wish every single person who posts here or who has posted here happiness, peace and good health. You all deserve it.

Sincerely and with respect,
Fuzzy

[Fuzzybear]

I realize now that a few of my posts during my time on the internet, when I have been badly triggered, have been very rude and hostile. Most of the time I try very hard, and I hope succeed, to be kind and caring. I truly hate to hurt anyone, especially if they are a friend..... but anyone at all. I know how much unkind words and actions can hurt, from my own experience. So to anyone I may have hurt I offer my humble and heartfelt apology.

I am struggling with feeling bad, disgusting and ugly....... this is nothing new to me but those feelings are particularly intense lately. I have strong urges to cut and harm myself in other ways and I am struggling badly with self care which makes me feel even more disgusting.

I wish every single person who posts here or who has posted here happiness, peace and good health. You all deserve it.

Sincerely and with respect,
Fuzzy

[Sabrina]

Fuzzy, it takes a very strong and endearing person to admit to something less than "nice". I do know that I have never seen any rudeness or hostility in your posts.

I am so sorry that you are struggling with your self-worth. I can only offer my understanding as I am all too often in the same place.

You deserve as much happiness, peace and good health.

(((fuzzy)))

[Sabrina]

Fuzzy, it takes a very strong and endearing person to admit to something less than "nice". I do know that I have never seen any rudeness or hostility in your posts.

I am so sorry that you are struggling with your self-worth. I can only offer my understanding as I am all too often in the same place.

You deserve as much happiness, peace and good health.

(((fuzzy)))

ya i lik yor mesuges fuzzy bare

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks (((((( Sabrina ))))))) and (((((( Rainbowzz )))))))

I don't know many people online who have never become angry or misinterpreted something. It isn't easy sometimes when you can't see someone's face or hear their voice, particularly when you don't know them well

But when I mess up..... I mess up good

But still.... I am a work in progress. And I will not beat myself up for ever

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks (((((( Sabrina ))))))) and (((((( Rainbowzz )))))))

I don't know many people online who have never become angry or misinterpreted something. It isn't easy sometimes when you can't see someone's face or hear their voice, particularly when you don't know them well

But when I mess up..... I mess up good

But still.... I am a work in progress. And I will not beat myself up for ever

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{My Special Fuzzwad}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm sorry, but I really don't understand your feelings of having been rude or hostile! NEVER, NEVER have I seen you post anything like that. You are so caring and gentle all of the time. Truly, your "growls" have never come across to me that way and I seriously doubt that anyone else has interpreted them as anything else other than your own frustations with life and NEVER aimed at anyone in particular.

IF! Great big IF anyone has, I'll tell you what I told Ozzie. These people are telling you something about THEMSELVES, not you!

There's also the fact that some people have trouble communicating their feelings. Some people haven't learned the "art" of expressing themselves without hurting others, myself included. I've learned a whole lot about expressing myself since I've been here.

Try not to take things so personally, Sweet Bear. It's not always about you. Any relationship, including those on line, takes more than just one person. Let's not forget that most of us here aren't always stable, ya know? We're given to expressing our emotions any way they come out without stopping to think.

YOU of all people have the least amount of reason to apologize for anything you say. You're almost TOO careful. LOL

<font color="red">I LOVE YOU because you are so EASY to love!!</font>

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{My Special Fuzzwad}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm sorry, but I really don't understand your feelings of having been rude or hostile! NEVER, NEVER have I seen you post anything like that. You are so caring and gentle all of the time. Truly, your "growls" have never come across to me that way and I seriously doubt that anyone else has interpreted them as anything else other than your own frustations with life and NEVER aimed at anyone in particular.

IF! Great big IF anyone has, I'll tell you what I told Ozzie. These people are telling you something about THEMSELVES, not you!

There's also the fact that some people have trouble communicating their feelings. Some people haven't learned the "art" of expressing themselves without hurting others, myself included. I've learned a whole lot about expressing myself since I've been here.

Try not to take things so personally, Sweet Bear. It's not always about you. Any relationship, including those on line, takes more than just one person. Let's not forget that most of us here aren't always stable, ya know? We're given to expressing our emotions any way they come out without stopping to think.

YOU of all people have the least amount of reason to apologize for anything you say. You're almost TOO careful. LOL

<font color="red">I LOVE YOU because you are so EASY to love!!</font>

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

I KNOW you are sweet and kind and even funny. Nobody is perfect but you don't owe anyone an apology

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

I KNOW you are sweet and kind and even funny. Nobody is perfect but you don't owe anyone an apology

I even love all your stuffing.

I even love all your stuffing.

((((((((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))))))))))

[silver_queen]

(((((((((((((((( Fuzzy ))))))))))))))

I agree with the others... I've never seen any post from you that's struck me as having the intent to hurt others, never have I seen one that has been hostile or rude. everyone can feel angry and frustrated at others , there's nothing wrong with that. Look after you and your self-care, every bear deserves a good grooming .

[Zorah]

((((((((((((Fuzzypaws))))))))))))

We have never seen a single hostile or rude post from you

We've made a couple ourselves but you have never been anything but supportive.

Don't feel bad about yourself, you are a truly good person

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((Fuzzybear))))))))))))))))) It is so hard when there is a long term relationship to not have misinterpretations. After all you can not see how what you are saying is effecting the other person. Therefore any misinterpretation can not be clarified quickly and the hurt is unresolved sometimes causing irreparable damage to t he relationship. I have never known you to post anything that could be construed as mean that I have read. You have been extraordinarily supportive. I am very sorry iif something has happend with an on-site relationship that is causing you so much sadness. It is also very sad if you are not given the chance to explain your words.

Also. please remember that many people here are trying to deal with their own emotional issues and that makes relationships all that much harder to sustain.

Again I am sorry that apparently this has happened to you. I hope that whoever this is will give you the chance to renew your relationship. I am here if you would like someone to talk to.

[(JD)]

<font color="blue"> ((((FUZZYBEAR)))) Cavelordess, what a nice thing to wish for everyone. I agree with others (SEPT esp) about if someone doesn't understand or forgive, then that's a reflection upon them and where they are at in their life.

There are members here who do hold what might be called a "grudge." Sometimes it's from feeling directly insulted or attacked, sometimes it's from when they think (or for real) that a friend-member was attacked or insulted.

Continue to do your best, that's all any of us can do. Most of us here IMO have posted something that was confusing or taken in the wrong way. All of us have personality flaws. That you know what yours is puts you ahead of many ppl in the world! imo. I think I know what mine are. But you and I can't go around clarifying them in each post. We can do our best, and move on.

I think you have GROWn a Lot in the time I've been acquainted with you. No reason to feel bad about that!

[ozzie]

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((((FUZZYBEAR)))) Cavelordess, what a nice thing to wish for everyone. I agree with others (SEPT esp) about if someone doesn't understand or forgive, then that's a reflection upon them and where they are at in their life.

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I wish I could help in some way. If only you could believe what a kind and caring person you are. I know how bad it is to feel these awful things about yourself. I sure don't believe those things and it sounds like no one else here does either.

I'm at a loss as to why you felt the need to make an apology. It was a very nice one but I'm sure it was unnecessary. xoxoxoxo Susan

I can see a lot of compassion in your posts, Fuzzy! You've helped me in many ways! You're very lovable!

Hugs for you (((((((((((())))))))))))

[heartspace]

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II am struggling with feeling bad, disgusting and ugly....... this is nothing new to me but those feelings are particularly intense lately. I have strong urges to cut and harm myself in other ways and I am struggling badly with self care which makes me feel even more disgusting.


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You sound brave, not disgusting to me at all, to be able to face your imperfections. And heaven knows, we all have them. Please be kind to yourself and stay safe. {{{Fuzzybear}}}

[(JD)]

Thinking of you...