When emotions trigger

Whenever someone is angry at me, even if they're not really and I'm just being stupid and I think they are, it triggers all this stuff from when I was a kid. I try to pretend I'm alright and ignore things that happen around me but sometimes I get dragged in and then I feel like a target is painted on me and it makes everything come back up and I can see it and I can feel it.

Reels of memory playing in my head... want to curl up and vanish... go away and disappear I'll say I'm alright for the moment and then it comes.

Stupid over-sensitive dumb opening mouth when I shouldn't me. I want to hide away.

I know what you mean. It has helped me to remind myself I have just been triggered and I am not seeing the situation for what it is. I also try to get away--usually to a bathroom--to do some slow, careful, mindful breathing.

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You're not being stupid. I find anger to be a very hard emotoin to deal with, even more so if it's directed at you. </font>

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I relate to this

Thanks you guys.

Stupid emotions, thinking people hate me when I can't tell if they do.
Making me feel guilty. Stupid guilt.
Stupid guilt messing my head up and making me feel like I have to visit my brother in jail... shouldn't feel like that, I know he's bad, he was the one who did the bad stuff, but in flashbacks I always turn it into my fault I was a stupid kid. I can feel my arm burning again.

All because I'm dumb and I think everyone's emotions are to me.

Can't say things... silence isn't a productive way of coping.

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sorry i'm not too positive, but i am thinking of you and sending a hug your way Jin xoxoxoxoxoxo