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#1
Mar 16, 2009, 05:15 AM
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 Just, words, just everything, on edge all the time, jumpy, frustrated, I can't sleep, the dreams, everything, piling on top of me twisted dreams of the car wreck, of the sexual abuse, of my fear of those I love disapearing, my mind is crashing, my body too... I am ****ing up school, because I can't sleep, because I can't focus long enough to do the work, I am restless and jumpy, everything is a threat to me, I am just frustrated, why? I haven't slept much in the past few days, I wake up thrashing around, panicking, or in the middle of a flashback.... I hate this, I don't know what to do anymore.... 
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#2
Mar 16, 2009, 09:25 AM
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Has something happened recently which was unsettling?
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#3
Mar 16, 2009, 09:33 AM
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I'm not sure Sannah, just a lot of stress, with school, and getting my medicine readjusted, and some issues with me and my mom, bad dreams, it's a combination of things. I am just exhausted, and frustrated.
I can't seem to break this cycle I'm in.... |
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#4
Mar 16, 2009, 10:56 AM
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(((( Silversparrow ))))
  Sleep is so important and is a time when the mind and body can do much healing and without sleep it's much harder to cope in the daytime. Might be worse asking your Doc to give you something to help you sleep just while you are in this rough patch.
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#5
Mar 16, 2009, 12:35 PM
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Mar 16, 2009, 03:35 PM
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Yes, she is lashing out at any opportunity she gets, I am having to walk on eggshells around her, doesn't help I've been triggered a bit in my criminal justice class, since we are discussing abuse and such....
I am feeling better, just have to get over that icky sleep thing... |
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#7
Mar 16, 2009, 05:36 PM
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Is there something stressing your mom out or something? If she is rattling you I can see how this would keep you from sleeping. This is happening in your home where you are supposed to be able to relax so that you can go to sleep.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Mar 17, 2009, 08:14 AM
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I don't know what is wrong with my mom, she is like this, she goes through extreme mood swings. One minute she is yelling at me the next she is hugging me and telling me she loves me, it's confusing and all the noise makes my PTSD go nuts, all the yelling and slamming of doors and the tension.
I'm having to surpess the urge to just start screaming, I just want to start screaming, and then collapse in tears, I feel parinoid and frustrated, and angry at myself for being like this... |
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#9
Mar 17, 2009, 08:20 AM
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Your reaction sounds pretty normal. Tense angry parents put their children on edge.......... Is there any way that you can erect a boundary so that you deflect her moods instead of absorb them???????????
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#10
Mar 17, 2009, 08:26 AM
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I am trying, I avoid her, and I'm staying out of the house a lot, this has more to do with I think it's triggering a lot of unreleased emotions and frustration I've been bottling up.
I just feel, like, giving up, which I can't, and I don't want to, but it's how I feel, I feel like I"m not getting anywhere in any aspect in my life it's frustrating, plus with all these memories I've kept bottled away for years, and told myself where just nightmares or silly stories I made up in my head are coming out and I can't get them to go away no matter how hard I try and bottle them back, they won't stay buried anymore........... |
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#11
Mar 17, 2009, 08:29 AM
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It is not healthy for them to stay bottled up though or to deny that they are true..... Is your therapist being helpful?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Mar 17, 2009, 08:32 AM
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I haven't really discussed it with her, I go Thursday for my next session, I just........
I feel sick to my stomach, I don't want to remember I don't want to........ I'm scared, I feel so alone, I need to reach out, but I don't know how, I don't know what to do, I slept last night but now I just feel worse, What is wrong with me? |
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#13
Mar 17, 2009, 08:40 AM
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I'm glad that you slept! Can you see any of your friends today? Thursday is just 2 days away......... Maybe just distract yourself until you have therapy?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Mar 17, 2009, 08:47 AM
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I am hanging out with a friend today, and I work tomorrow, I just feel, anxious and restless, doesn't help I am working on adjusting to my medicene, they are working on getting my dosage up, which is sending me kinda of on a loop, but I know in a few weeks it will be worth it, and wow I just realized how scattered I am today with my thought process..........
*sighs* This madness... |
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#15
Mar 17, 2009, 08:48 AM
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Then maybe it is just the medicine which is making it hard for you to cope? Are you supposed to update anyone on how you are tolerating the medicine changes?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Mar 17, 2009, 05:49 PM
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((((Silversparrow)))
I'm sorry things are tough for you at the moment - I know what you mean about not wanting what you remember to be a real memory - I had that happen recently and when I told my T about it and how I didnt know how to tell if it was real or not - she said "it doesnt matter if it was real or not the emotions that come with the memory are real and we can deal with them" I don't know if that will help you - it helped me - that way I didnt keep to have arguing with myself about whether they were real or not - I could just let her help me deal with the emotions the "memory" brought up. I hope your session goes well on thurs - take care P7
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#17
Mar 30, 2009, 08:42 AM
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Sparrow, Have you tried seeing a SCHOOL counselor? Sometimes I do that when I cant get into my regular therapist in time...
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In depression . . . faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is unrelenting, and what makes the condition intolerable is the...feeling felt as truth...that no remedy will come -- not in a day, an hour, a month, or a minute. . . . It is hopelessness even more than pain that crushes the soul.-William Styron |
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Mar 30, 2009, 06:08 PM
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((Silversparrow)))) how are you doing now?
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 01, 2009, 05:29 PM
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Paniced, tomorrow is therapy and I am going to share some memories for the first time I feel scared and tired, my mind is sluggish, I want to scream and cry. I am very scared about what is going to happen tomorrow at therapy I will try my hardest to find my way to a computer to let everyone know what happens
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#20
Apr 02, 2009, 03:01 AM
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I hope you can finsd something to help calm you down a bit - you are doing good work and its hard - I will be thinking of you tomorrow
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 02, 2009, 10:08 AM
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Sharing can begin the healing process. I'm proud of you! =)
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In depression . . . faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is unrelenting, and what makes the condition intolerable is the...feeling felt as truth...that no remedy will come -- not in a day, an hour, a month, or a minute. . . . It is hopelessness even more than pain that crushes the soul.-William Styron |
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Apr 02, 2009, 07:41 PM
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I went to therapy today and it wasn't so bad after I told. I felt a lot better and we really accomplished a lot
Thank you all for the support ya'll lots of hugs Sparrow |
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#23
Apr 03, 2009, 03:01 AM
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Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :d
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In depression . . . faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is unrelenting, and what makes the condition intolerable is the...feeling felt as truth...that no remedy will come -- not in a day, an hour, a month, or a minute. . . . It is hopelessness even more than pain that crushes the soul.-William Styron |
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#24
Apr 03, 2009, 04:15 PM
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*hugs hugs hugs to the sparrow*
I'm sorry I didn't see this earier, I've been a bit of everywhere, but I have read and CONGRATZ on the recent therapy accomplishment. Also sorry about how hard it is to be dealing right now. Remember that you're so close to being out. SO close. You have a place to go to , plans to get away, to start somewhere new, I'm so proud of you for that. thinking of you ~turquoisesea
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#25
Apr 03, 2009, 06:23 PM
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glad the session went well
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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