Bad, bad session

I'm sorry I don't give much advice to other people on here, I will try to get involved more. But I need to get this out my system because I feel so bad. I am swapping Ts at the end of this month and I am so sad about leaving my T. We had a session the other day where I just didn't say anything, even though I had so much to say, and we ended up finishing the session early because we were getting nothing done. Which makes me feel even worse seeing as I only have a few sessions left with him. I have these nightmares where I am with him and then he leaves me alone, and I just don't know what to do with this sadness. If I tried to tell him I would just break down completely, and feel so embarrassed about it. And I know that he wouldn't be able to do anything about it. I am just completely lost, and I don't know why people keep leaving me like this.

(((((Elley))))) I am so sorry you are having to change Ts. That sounds like it is very hard on you! Can you maybe write it out to him and then hand it over for him to read? Just let out all these big emotions - type them out or write them. And give them to him.

BIG HUGS!

(((((((elley))))))))) I am sorry too! WePow's suggestion is a good one....

wow i'm sorry you are changing T.is this something you have to do.have you been able to talk to your T about it at all??

I really hope that you share these things ^ with him. What he can do about it is talk to you about it and this will be helpful to you.

Big hugs Elley. ((((((((((((((Elley)))))))))))) I am so sorry, I am sure that is painful for you. I might be going through something similar myself very soon, everything is still up in the air for now. I agree with everyone else. Talk to you T about it. If you can't talk, write it down and give it to T and have him read it during your session with you there. Maybe even have T read it aloud to give voice to your feelings. I know how painful it is to even think about ending therapy with your T before you are "done". Hopefully this will help.

Thanks very much for the replies, it makes me feel a bit better to know people care. I will try and speak to him next time, I don't get to see him for a couple of weeks though so a bit of a wait. I'm just so frustrated with myself that I wasted that opportunity, I don't knwo what happened.

I think sometimes the feelings are just so big there are no words for them so we get stuck. Don't put yourself down for it, things happen to all of us for different reasons. I do think Weepow's suggestion is a good one though. I am sorry you have to switch T's. Is that a definate?

Yes, well I am switching to a different kind of therapy which is best for me, so it's the right thing. It's so hard though, thinking that I have to start all over with someone else.

Hi Elley

as I read your message, I felt your pain coming through as I have experienced this a few times and understand the pain of the loss. I too have sat in sessions near the end in silence because I knew if I opened my mouth I would break down into inconsoulable and never ending tears.

The one positive is that you have another therapist to go to, so at least you won't be unsupported. Can you say why you have had to switch therapists as it doesn't sound like it was your choice?

It does sound a bit unfair that your therapist ended your session early just because you didn't say anything as it is the clients choice what to do during their therapy time and sometimes that means sitting in silence.

what would it be like for you if you were to perhaps write down how you feel and hand it to him at the next session? That way you can take the time do do it at home but you are letting him know how you feel. Even if he can't change the fact that your switching therapists, it doesnt mean you cant express the pain of the loss to him

I think I am loosing my T again soon and I am dreading it, I have lost 3 people before that supported me and each one was very painful but with time it gets easier ((((huge hugs)))))

xxxxxx

The pain of loss is so hard to deal with and so overwhelming... I've been there too. Maybe you couldn't speak at your session BECAUSE there was so much to say, it was like, where to start? There was just so much! I do hope you will try writing things out or something. Maybe you can make a collage? Or try writing a note, drawing a picture, some alternative to speaking, that will maybe enable the words to come out easier the next time you go see your T? I am so sorry its so hard.