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so as most of you know i missed my session last Monday do to the holiday AGAIN.i really did miss her or going to therapy .i don't know which but i guess it is one in the same.anyway the point is i really missed her i swear it is because i don't feel all that connected to her when i want to.i feel i wouldn't miss her if i even felt a little bit attached or something .i would be able to know that she is there and wanting to help me.she has told me i could call her any time she is in her office etc..i did this only once and only said OK when she called me back not exactly a conversation on my part.
the only way i know of to feel this connection is to start to talk to her,if i do this i will know her better.i did this with my husband but he wasn't into wanting to know all my deep dark past secretes.she DOES.i for the most part can talk to her about small talk .like wow you got a new plant .believe me this is progress ![]() ![]()
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i think ur subject line is very true, granite. it truly is a leap of faith and it very ok and natural to be scared. "feel the fear & do it anyway" if we can do that, i believe it can lead to growth.
can i book an early reservation to ride in ur pocket if u need any? ![]()
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I use to picture my T sitting beside me on a bench, like a "friend" rather than across from me when I wanted to really talk to her, tell her something specific and that helped me some.
I would use the knowledge you have that you have "accidentally" talked to her, like when you went on talking about how you met your best friend too long and got into about the mother, etc.; nothing bad happened as a result so maybe nothing bad will happen if you tell her about X? Experiment, start to tell her things that are difficult but not as difficult as the other stuff? You know you can stop/clam up well if you get scared so you are protected, use your defenses in your favor, knowing they will protect you, even when you might not want them too ![]()
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...and I will be the one whispering loudly, "PSSTTT - hey you - T - Granite wants to change to any day except Monday" ![]() |
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lol she only works in this office on mon,tue,and wednsday.i doubt she has any other opening.when i first met with her i asked if i could have a differnt time and she told me on the phone this was all she had.
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![]() I think you have been talking, and you have had some leaps of faith to get to where you are. I think it might be that you are more aware of your experience of taking leaps of faith and talking and those experiences are encouraging you, but another protective part of you says to be cautious. It sounds like your liking therapy is helping you to want to be there even more. |
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You even sound different today, l0nger sentences & stuff. you sound more regular conversational like. well I guess partly because you're not reporting what happened, but still, you just SOUND friendlier, even just about talking about your T. I don't know if that's important or significant or if i'm even noticing right! but it just sounds like it to me. you sound good!
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Hi granite! I am a socially anxious person so I have a lot of trouble coming up with things to say sometimes. "That's a nice plant" sounds pretty good actually, when you're panicked you're panicked, any conversation topic is pretty hard at that point. It is really good that you can take it at your pace w/ no pressure. I hope you can talk to her about the work stuff that is coming up.
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i am so scared to death of getting that out of controle again.i know that i do decide not to act this way any more but i get scare of what i would do if truely confronted with all thwe memories of my past.my T said she knows it wouldnt be good for me to be bombarded with all these things and memories and that we can go slow and all.i love that she has rarely pushed me to talk at all.only when she felt it would be bad for me not to talk or her knowing what is going on.maybe it will be ok
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good for you Granite. I'm happy to read you're able to talk to her more and your therapy is working. (I'll try to do the same
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Small chit chat helps me talk in therapy. My first therapist I ever had, I was 18. We would sit and stare at each other and she would always say "what do you want to talk about today?" I didn't know. I felt like I had nothing. I was there for something specific PTSD related and I felt like she would only check in on it and never pushed it. Therefore, I didn't make progress.
Fast forward 10yrs later and this T senses my anxiety and understands that some sessions I just need small talk. Nothing specific, doesn't need to go anywhere, except that it usually helps her connect the dots to previous sessions. It helps my anxiety tremendously and each time I gain more trust in her and feel more connected. You're making great progress. Even if you think it's nothing or you're talking too much. I try to read all your posts and can see the progress you're making. I'm proud of you. ![]() |
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![]() Or you could ask her to let you know when something different does come open. ![]() |
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![]() When I want to change my weekly appointment, I let my T know and when she can make it happen, she lets me know. Since some folks only go for a short while, or have a desire to change their appointment time too, things can happen. But only if we let them know what we want. ![]() |
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