A good thing?!! hmmm...

I went to see my psychiatrist today. It took me a while to admit that I have been having this voice in my head telling me horrible things... like "God is the devil", "trust no one, they are all evil", and more horrible things I can't add here..or anywhere for that matter. The thing is it is my own voice, and I believe the voice sometimes, cos its like one of my own thoughts....My psychiatrist told me that I am doing well. I shouldn't even worry about this. She told me that its just my mind fighting off all the good work I have done. She doesn't realise that this is really annoying me.
Even though I have started planning to end it all, and this voice is telling me to do it, and keeps telling me horrible things... its still a good thing?

saw your post on the other thread too. hang in there.

Good thing?
To act on suicide no.

telling the therapist?
yes. now she knows the thoughts are there she can try to help come up with how to hold on and stay alive.

I'm so sorry you are not getting the support you need. Its so frustrating when people don't hear our cries. Keep reaching out for help!

i'm sorry you don't feel supported. i would not feel it either. please keep posting here and we'll try our best to help you through this. xoxoxo pat

you will get support here , let us know what we can do to help

I am sorry that your pdoc is not providing the support you need. Sometimes they miss how pervading and insistant these voices have become and do not realize how crucial it is to address them now. Maybe you could tell her how servere these voices have become and what they are telling you to do. I am sure she can see you on an emergency basis. It sounds serious to me and I hope that you find the support you need. We are here to provide what support we can although please seek professional help.

I feel I'm really taking the plunge here, being new and that - but i really strongly believe - maybe know - that these internal voices are good - but perhaps i wouldn't put it in the same words as your psychiatrist did. I think they're what you can call "split-off" bits that are making themselves heard 'cos now you're well enough to include them in yourself. For example, i say don't be frightened of "God is the devil" because actually life isn't all black and white; we are all averything that there is. When a rush of new thoughts/feelings emerge, I find it good just to relax around them without believing they are "me" or something I have to do. You could be led to an important memory or dream. At the same time i would say, perhaps the psychiatrist needs telling that you need more support with what's emerging. It's OK having the blues, but you don't want the blues to have you, sort of thing. Anyway, my thoughts are with you.

Hi,

I am new too, but would like to offer my support and understanding. I have two Alters who make me feel so bad for different reasons, one feels like home, and the other is a nightmare, both encircle a pseudo belief system concerning God, put into place by abuse, but when they are at their worse the guilt and shame are overwhelming. I am sorry your Therapist was not more empathic to your concerns about what you are hearing internally, but you should'nt give up, she is not hearing what your hearing and just may not understand how much this hurts you to hear. My nightmare is very much similar on his comments toward God, and his words make me feel like I am for sure going to go to Hell, but find strength in knowing what you are hearing, in your voice or not, is just a coping mechanism. Please, I can so relate about the horrid things said, really really bad, some with sexual subjects, when I first went into Therapy in 2004, I told my Therapist I thought maybe I needed an exorcism, but now I realize, who knows your weakness best but yourself, or a part of yourself that is hurting. Take care, I just wanted you to know your not alone.