Can feelings be recovered?

A T that mocks crying is no T. We've seen some awful Ts on this forum, but never one as bad as that.

Is there a box of tissues in the room where the patient can reach it? That's for those who cry.

yeah i know there are bad T's out there...but ones who mock you for crying?! unless they are a sociopath and joined that profession purely to feel power over crying clients (which must be like 95% of their clientele)...that should NEVER happen. Why would you think your T would mock you, and how would that look like to you?

For me it is that split between rational and irrational - I have learned to trust my T competely in my head - I can almost hear his soothing voice, how it would sound if I was crying and maybe for the first time he would reach out and even hold my hand or touch my shoulder - how caring, how acknowledging / validating - BUT how totally terrifying - I too can see him mocking, ignoring me, sighing, telling me to pull myself together - guess this is transference?

Could well be transference. In my paranoid moods I often feel mocked.

Has your T ever mocked you?

Anyway, the usual advice applies: take it back to T!

I'm not quite sure. She insisted we keep going over my negative past and pushed and pushed me, and then I got angry at her for doing so. Bamm! I could feel anger! And then when I realised she couldn't help me, my depression got worse and therefore I could feel sadness again! And that's where we stopped.. lol. Sadness and frustration and anger. And that's still where I'm at, 3 years later haha. But in theory, 3 emotions is better than none. Apparently a decent T would have kept going and eventually after the negative emotions comes the positive ones.

Can you feel fear?

Actually yes once I perceived that he did. We did talk about it a couple of months later when I plucked up the courage to tell him and he said he was so very sorry and I should always tell him if I felt that he did that. It was a fairly small thing that he did, but I guess I am highly sensitive, got teased continuously as a child and mocked - my father would purposefully try to anger me and then would laugh if I reacted - so it was safer to hide all emotions - hmm had forgotton that - kind of a light bulb moment isn't it? I just wishes I knew how to flick that switch again though and be able to cry with T.

I have also just reflected and note that for the last few months I have been a bit closed off from things, bored with T and just wanting to get it over and done with - the last few days my interest has been ignited again - wonder why that is - I kept saying to T I needed a break, maybe I have been giving myself one and now feel rested enough to get stuck in aqain - well at least to sit on the wall and have a good look around.

I read this and I don't really hear lol and hahaha. I hear someone who needs this keep fighting, you are doing hard work, good work.