would you?

I kind of eluded that something was wrong, but that's it really. He had no idea what happened. I just told him that the day had been really bad, but that I didn't want to talk about it. And my T just said that in the future, if I wanted to talk about it, he'd be there and not forget that I'd mentioned that. I think it helped me in that moment, because I didn't feel pressure to tell him anything, but it also seemed like he cared which kind of brought me some sort of relief. I still feel alone about it too, though. I haven't said anything about it, (been about two weeks) but he's been really good about everything. And I think it'll go alright when I do decide to tell him what's happened because we've kind of built up a different kind of rapport with each other. So I think it's slowly helping me, and will probably help even more when I actually tell him. What about you though? Did you tell your T what happened or did you not say anything? If you haven't yet, maybe you could just tell him or her that something's up but you don't know what to do? Or how to discuss or go about the situation, etc.? Just a suggestion. Let me know how it goes.

Oops! I completely misinterpreted the question.

I thought you meant if something awful happened between you and T.

What does that say about me, I wonder?

Do you think you will tell your T what happened 2 weeks ago? Or is it still too painful? I didn't tell T what happened but T knew straight away something was up, I don't cry in our appointments. T kept asking if something bad had happened and if it had happened that day but all I could do was nod. The problem is I've never talked about events leading up to this either so I'm not sure I can just blurt it out. It's easier not to say it out loud then I can pretend it's not real. Bazza I hope you find the courage to tell your T

Don't worry Can'tExplain, I appreciate your response and it might help with a problem I now have with T. hope you're ok

Hi, sorry, it's me again, the thing that upset me last week is front page of my local newspaper tonight and I think I might need T's support to get through this week. I still don't feel able to tell T so I don't know whether to take the newspaper in. But then I don't feel ready to accept this news yet. I don't know what to do and we had a shaky ending last week so I'm not sure how much I trust T right now

It seems like the media is helping you with sharing with T. If it's on the front page, it must be very tough. Maybe take the newspaper in so T knows what's going on but if you're still not ready to talk about it you can wait. Sometimes just knowing that someone 'knows' can be enough for support to be useful,

Thanks skysblue, I think I will take it to next appointment and see if I am able to share this or not

comfused.i hopw you will be able to bring in the paper and talk about what is going on.you are in so much turmoil and pain over it.you are such a beautiful person i hate to see you struggling and in pain so much and not be able to do anything about it at all.i want to grab toy out of this comp and have you here with me safe and hiding

Granite, thank you so much, that post really touched my heart. I wish you could see what a beautiful person YOU are safe and hiding sounds good. Your kind message is more than enough for you to do, thank you

I still haven't said anything to my T, no. I know how you feel though, to a certain extent. I don't cry in therapy either and I haven't told my T about anything relating to what happened so I feel like if I say anything, it'll be totally out of the blue and idk how to steer the conversation in a direction where I could feel comfortable telling him. Is this how you feel at all? With my sessions, my T and I kind of have this routine of what we talk about and as soon as I think I can tell him about what happened, the conversation goes one way and then it's just easier to go along with that conversation rather than telling him about what happened. It's a tough spot to be in, for sure. Any progress with you, though?

I can relate to this Bazza, I go in with so much to say, words fail me or we talk about something else and the time is up. But then it piles up and there's 2 things you need to talk about, then 3, then 4, then you're buried under things unsaid. Do you think you could contact T and tell him what you would like to talk about next appointment? Or go in with a list?