REALLY struggling

I'm happy that you had the closure you deserve!

I'm so glad you have a closure that helps you move one. I marvel at you continuing to pursue this so that you could have some kind of resolution, and that your efforts to keep on this so it had a healthy ending were rewarded

((NightSky))

I'm glad you have something good to take away.

I'm really really sorry to see you so sad.

Did he support you? It appears he has led you down a blind alley. Gifts & words written on boards pppfftt. Where was he when he was really needed? Sounds like an abusive relationship where a wife is told what to feel about the abusive spouse led to belief it was her fault that she got abused.

The guy is a disgrace to the therapeutic profession. His let you down majorly. But you can't see that because you have no clue what a healthy therapeutic relationship looks like. Not your fault.

I'm not enabling this awful situation.

After all you've been through, just breathing for a bit sounds about right to me.

There will be ups and downs - grief has such a lively unpredictable nature, but I can promise you that the downs will become further and further apart.

Day by day will soon turn into a chunk of time during which you will have lived your life, loved your family, and experienced a whole range of things this crazy, fantastic, wild earth has to offer.

It'll be okay.

One thing I will tell you from experience, however, grief and really really good chocolate go very well together. The deep notes in the grief and the depth of the chocolate seem to be in perfect accord.

Chocolate never, ever tasted better than after I ended with my previous therapist.

It's a small consolation, but, well, an entirely pleasant one.