C O U C H 39 -The Renaissance Period

I read stuff on the internet sometimes with an open mouth. People stagger me sometimes with how irrationally they think or act and then actually TALK or write about it, as if people will support their bizarre, or rude behavior and act as if it's normal. Maybe I am the abnormal one and I just don't know it because I intentionally try to only hang out with pretty rational, non-drama queen kind of people.

Normal is relative

Want to elaborate on what's got ya flustered?

Kind of like lawyering would be great except for the clients? (or therapizing too I suppose)

Good morning, all.

Yesterday was a rough day. Found out a little more about my sister. I'm a confusing mix of sad, angry, worried, and apathetic. It's been 30 years of drama with her and I've had it.

Elliemay, I did something similar yesterday. After T, I got a manicure and am now sporting purple nails. They make me smile, so they were worth it.

TRIGGER WARNING SUI and possible callousness


I have had 2 close friends who tried to commit suicide. One was successful at the first try and after having been deeply depressed for years but no one knew how bad it was. Her husband and children were shocked as were her friends.

The other was one of my closest friends who kept making attempts. She really, it seemed, just wanted to be loved enough. She would give away cars, houses, money etc to people and then not get enough love back in return (her description). For me it was a kind of situation where after the first one, I told her I wanted her to live and would be there for her and would miss her if she succeeded - but the choice to live or die was hers and I was not going to try talk her out of it, or into living or come running to the hospital all worked up over it. I felt like she was using the attempts to get reassurance she was loved. I certainly could be wrong as to that being one of the reasons, but I told her about it and we had an understanding from then on. She would come to me after she got out of the hospital(more than once), lived with me on and off, but I did not get the emotional assaults after that. I do not believe one can save someone else.

I am going in to work this morning to talk to my boss about needing time off and for him to stop putting off my performance eval. I took my meds last night and my 3rd shift decided to call me after midnight...twice...once to let me know a toilet was stopped up, then to let me know it was fixed. Then I was wide awake until 3am.

I am exhausted.

Do you think you might want to be a little careful, Chopin? I know as an employer, if one of my employees had taken as much time off for being sick as you have had to, I would not be pleased at all if they wanted to take vacation time right after that.

Let us know how it goes Chopin.

Remember...only eat sweets in moderation.



Do I smell sprinkles?

-Fleeing

Hey what gives, Wiki said there was bacon?

Is anyone out there? Its getting rough on the old couch.... I think the neighborhood went down hill. Kinda scary

Fine.... guess I'll just play by myself...

If someone does not come out and actually tell you they have you blocked, is there any way to find out if they have?

Comment directly too them on a thread and if they don't answer, you can probably guess that they have... or just ask em

Hi.. gearing up to see T at 1pm..

If they have me blocked, though, that would include PM's, so how would I ask?

Does it include PM"S?

You can get a non blocked person to ask for you...LOL

Ever feel completley invisiable? I do.

Morning Healed, you aren't invisible.... I see you

nah, Healed. In general I do not have problems with feeling invisible. I didn't even join PC for a long time because I didn't feel the need for attention. I finally joined because someone freaked out a little about having a lot of views and no replies. I had not realized that people would care about something like that. So I joined at first just to be able to reply.

I am curious more than anything else. I don't care for it when someone takes a slap at me and then ignores everything I have to say. Not super upsetting, but it makes me curious if they are just refusing to read stuff I post, or if I am actually blocked.

Not talking so much here (allthough sometimes I feel that way) just in life in general.

How do you even have an inclination of somebody blocking you here? I guess I feel like there are so many people around here, I would never figure it out. Unless, were frequent posters in my threads or pmed me and those stopped happening.

Lola, I am also going to play by myself, today.



-Auf der Flucht

They said something in a thread pretty directly to me; I responded. They didn't. They mentioned it in another thread, and I sent a PM, and they didn't respond. Maybe they're just off line or ignoring me. Doesn't really matter one way or the other.