C O U C H 39 -The Renaissance Period

Just finished end of vacation pizza party with kiddos. Now, it time to make sure we all have clothes to wear this week!

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You guys crack me up! Thanks that was just what I needed to kick off a new week. My keyboard is swimming in coffee where I've sprayed it.
Love to all.

Hi everyone.

Therapy tomorrow. Yuck.

I think I remember your saying your boss thought you might be overworked... is there any chance an old-fashioned vacation might help you? I'm sorry you're having such a hard time.

Whew. What an emotionally draining session THAT was! I think I need a nap! I must have cried for 10 full minutes. We were talking about our t relationship and how it relates to the healing of relationships from my childhood and it was very hard. I asked her the questions I wanted to ask, first the "do you think I think too much?" because I told her I think about this inner work all the freaking time it never goes away, it never stops, it's always there. Between calls at work, on my lunch break, in the bathroom, in the car, in the shower, I'm either thinking about this work or writing about it or whatever. She said that is natural actually for where I am at right now, she said it's because we are working very deeply now and compared it to like priestess training of old where they are immersed in their studies and nothing else. Except I have real life to deal with too - my job, my family, cooking, cleaning, laundry etc. so it can be exhausting.

I also asked about what she meant when she said not long ago "we all need someone to contain our process". I think I stumped her there. She kept answering the question with the question minus the question mark. I kept asking "But what does that MEAN?" she finally sort of explained it, that by talking with her, it's like keeping a river from flooding it's banks or something. She's not "containing" it as in a box that you toss something in and put a lid on and then stick it in a closet never to look at again. She said it's not that kind of container. I felt like giving HER a homework assignment to email me what she means by her containing my process.

She's so blasted perceptive though. This past week I texted her in the middle of the week a picture of the snow we were having. We talked about that too. My reason behind it was that I just for some reason really needed to feel that connection even if just for a minute -I needed to know I wasn't alone with all this stuff - but I didn't know how to ask for it so I just sent that picture. So now she offered a 15 minute mini-session mid week if I need that again. That was when I started to understand what she meant about "containing" my process. Not that I could explain it or anything. But I think I get it.

Now I am going to take a nap. Whew!

Oh I didn't say my house was clean - I said I was cleaning it. Week after next is spring break, hopefully I'll be ready to go to the washing machines by then. It's that bad.

Watching a 101 Dalmatians movie, so cute!!

(((((Chopin)))))

W wanted to talk. This never goes well. It seems I am spending too much time in the man cave, or maybe not enough time in the man cave, depends on who you talk to.

maybe you just need a break , hospitalization is a huge step.

Hi guys, just doing what I can to stay in the now.

Hanks,

The washing machines are a big step. When you are ready to go, I'll be here for you.

I totally get it.

Hi Elliemay. Did you get your roof fixed?

That's a good idea Elliemay. I should be doing that too. I'm very worried about tomorrow.

Well, if W didn't want to talk everytime you came out of the man cave, maybe you wouldn't spend so much time in there.

My entire house is a me cave. I caves.

It's more than needing a break...that and I don't want to be accused of attention seeking.

Have you been reading my mail?

Too funny.

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squirrel!

Yes. Yes. I have.

Is that a boundary violation?

This could also apply to someone who's manic. Love it!

Wish we had squirrels here.

Hanging out here on the couch while I get my bike ride in for the day... 10lbs weight loss in 5 weeks is a doable goal right?

I'm willing to overlook it if you make the occasional car payment. Have you ever been to Rhinehart's? A buddy of mine had his bachelor party there.

Lola...Kids like blueberries better than crabby patties. Or apples with peanut butter. Strawberries with some whipped cream cheese & maple to dip them. They won't be cranky or hyper, and no puking. When my 3 yr old niece gets here she always asks for steamed broccoli, because "mommy doesn't make it yummy".

Now...I have some sour patch kids with my name on it. And group sucked, just like I thought it would. All those bald people with their ports and iv's....ick.

That should be doable H84. I joined a gym today, but couldn't swim because they don't provide towels. What kind of gym is this? I'll go in the AM. Moving is so stressful, we have eaten a lot of comfort foods lately. I have probably picked up ten pounds in the last two weeks, but I don't know for sure as W has thrown the scales away.

feeeling the buuuurrrnnn!!!!!!!!!!