The answer to life, the universe, and everything - Couch 42!

Hi all how is it going?

She does not check messages on Fridays. And due to staffing issues I cannot take time off until April. It's complicated at work right now.

Ah. Some have night hours or saturdays etc. Will she talk to you on the phone?

hi melissa
how is it under the desk sconnie

I just want to go home and cry.

hey sconnie stop as usual has a reasonable alternative .do you think you could just talk to her on the phone when she is back in the office??

Lola... Call your doc! Seems like everyone is having a tough Friday! Hang in there all!

yup todays couch seems to be the hide away today healed. want to join

I'm sorry people are having a bad day today. Mine is okay except for being tired.

lola--feel better soon.

sconnie--I've wanted to go in the next day to show T how bad I am, but I email and tell her instead! I'm sorry you have T hangover.

Nellie: I'm sorry!!!

granite: you're NOT horrible at all. Can you draw your feelings as my T tells me to do?

My daughter just walked in to get my grandson who is sleeping...

Go to sleep and get well!

((Granite))

Healing takes time and things we thought we'd dealt with can still come back to bite us again.

god this day is going by so fast. my husband will be home in a few hours for the weekend .i know he loves me so much but i just cant deal with him..this is part of the proof that i am just a horrible selfish person. i know there are a lot of people here who will say at least you have a husband who loves you,yes i do and i am grateful but sometimes it would be easier to not have anyone around me. i know it is horrible but when i am in such a self abusive mood i don't want anyone around me .i just want to be able to do what i need to do without him insisting i interact and talk to him,to explain myself to him.to worry about him.please don't hate me for saying all this .i don't always feel this way. i just wish i would snap out of this.like i said in the SI forum .i just need to do what i need to do until i just exhaust myself

((Sconnie))

One big lesson of therapy is that relationships can be repaired.

Ouch! Hope you're better now.

Good afternoon, couch.

I fasted all night and this morning, drinking only water at work. I expected to continue a project at work today, and figured I could do that while I was starving and fantasizing about what I was going to finally get to eat. Only I had to do something else and something that requires more focus.

After work I went to the lab at the outpatient facility where my doctor's office is. Waited to be called, drooling at the food smells coming from the cafe there. Finally got called, but I didn't have my paperwork because I thought they could look it up on the computer. Nope. grrr Off to the doctor's office, got a copy of the lab order, went back downstairs to the lab and the woman says "Oh you have (that) insurance... We don't have a contract with them, you need to go to (a different) lab. Awwww rats

Drove there . It's right next door to a bagel place I love.
Waited way too long. Did I mention I was Finally got the vampire treatment, bandage, and foooood!!!

And now I'm ............

sounds like quite a day echos. i hate fasting for bloodwork .i usually know if i have a doc apoint she is going to want to do blood work so i schedual it in the morning so i can fast get work done and then go out for breakfast.

glad you finely got something to eat .was it a bagel??

I dislike fasting blood tests.

What did you win?

I am trying to figure out what vulnerable feels like to me. That woman said something about me feeling vulnerable and I said I don't think that is it. I don't think I feel vulnerable. Thinking about becoming vulnerable makes me extremely uncomfortable.

Therapists think vulnerability is important. Feel free to disagree!

I don't disagree about them thinking it is important. I disagree about me feeling it.

Finally done with work! Waiting outside t's office for an appointment. Not in the right frame of mind for the appointment. Hopefully I will get in it soon!

Healed, I often find that the sessions I don't feel in the mood for turn out to be some of the most productive ones. I hope that's how yours turns out today.

I hope that is true! I do have a starting point so that is good!

Started bankruptcy proceedings today. I'm glad. This debt must become manageable. I don't care about credit anymore and I'm no longer ashamed of doing something about it.

I'm glad that I see T next week. Something entered my mind a few minutes ago. I realized I really do care what others think of me too much. I read some anonymous staff surveys and staff were rather critical of those of us in management. I want to scream at them, "We're doing the best we can!!!" The three of us are all in positions we don't want to be in. Then my boss has me running in 47 different directions. He wants me to write a technology plan, a QA/QI plan, develop two training programs for staff, keep up with QP stuff, and maintain harmonious working relationships with staff. GAH!

At least it's the weekend!