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no you should not. i think you should go and take advantage the therapy . lola you need to talk to someone and i hope you will be able to talk to him about your spiral into distructive mode .although i am sure he will be able to see that for himself. good luck my dear

oh and breathe because i know you are nervous . just breathe it will be ok

I hope your T appointment goes well Lola.

I had three random people hug me by 1:00 today in the realm of the real, non internet, world. I did not care for it, and it was not the reason for my not great day, but it did add to it. Internet hugs do not bother me as much, and I get that they generally come from a caring and supportive place.

Lola - I hope that you were able to go, and that it was beneficial for you.

How are you doing Lola? Did you see T? Was it helpful? Hope you are okay.

so in a panic .going out with this person who runs all the craft classes i go to. we have kind of gotten to know each other well and she asked if i wanted to go with her to this craft thing all day tomorrow. at first i said no and have now changed my mind because i like the show . and maybe we could become better friends .but i dont do this. i dont go out with people exsept my hubby and BFF .they are safe i know them they know me .if i freak and need to leave or i dont talk it is ok . i want to be able to do this. i want to be able to do normal things like this and have it be ok. but so many times in the past it has not. i don't want her to hate me . i like going to the classes she has. i learn so much from her.ahhhhh eeeeekkkkkk. breathe .i sent a responce saying i would meet her .ahhhhhhh

going out to get completely drunk with the hubby .who don't drink thank goodness

Granite - I am doing some drinking myself tonight. Making new friends is difficult and it is something that I struggle with as well. You have done it before though. There was a time when your bff and your hubby were strangers to you. Just remember that you are just going to a crafting function. This isn't a life long commitment. There is no need to even feel pressured to hang out with her again if you don't want to. Just go and have a fun / relaxing day.

lola???????????

Granite...don't get so drunk tonight you won't have a good time tomorrow. You would be sabataging yourself. You know that you and this lady have enough in common that you will get along fine. If things get a little overwhelming you could say you are going to stop and go to restroom or get a snack or something and that you will meet back up with her...

Lola...just give us a wave to let us know you're okay...or a headbang if your not. Please??

I ended up watching To Kill A Mockingbird with the MIL. My all time favorite book and favorite movie. I think it's the one time in history where the movie was almost as good as the book. MIL had never seen it (how is that even possible?). I adore Gregory Peck in that...and I have always had this internal desire to be Aticus Finch. For reals. I couldn't be a lawyer because of verbal idiocy, so I went the CPA route. If growing a penis would mean I could be him, I'd grow one. lol. (but I'd still only sleep with h, although I am not sure H would sleep with me). Digressing. Or maybe I could be scout, and just wrap my arms around Aticus and let him carry me around. ICK...am I really thinking of being a child??

I read my old thread about quitting XT...I remember. Can't go back to that. So, still no T. But, Ready, I am glad you hooked up with your xt.

Wiki - I have never watched the movie, but To Kill A Mockingbird is definitely one of my favorite books. Perhaps I will fish it out. It has been a long time since I last read it.

Hey Wiki.... I'm not sure its the right thing. I'm not sure it will make anything be different in the future but I hated that I just quit via email even if it was a long time ago. I'm trying not to think about it too much just let whatever happens happen... try to be present in the moment.

Well, it's something you've wanted to do, and you've stepped up to do it. That in itself is a positive. I am sure it will go fine, and I hope you can clear things up.

Lola... how did things go? I've been thinking about you.

I just found the PERFECT therapeutic substitution.
Three Olives Loopy.
OMG...when did they make vodka taste like fruit loops?

Mmmmm baby, where have you been all my life.

to inqiring minds, it was horrible... I was late by like 15 minutes.. he was upset said I was NOT to mention or talk about sex with him.... so i left after 15 minutes... said I need ed time.. if not him then who?

lol at all the alcohol talk. I just emailed hubby before getting on here to ask him to pick up beer on his way home!

Drinking a bourbon and coke now and had a beer after work with coworkers. It was 90+ degrees today. Not my idea of pleasant.

First one to bring me beer gets a free one!

And let me just say F a fake friend.... you are either there or not... sure my **** may be deeper or i may be more ****ed up or not where you are but cut me some slack you were once me... when the **** gets hard, i resort to what i know... restricting food and smoking my face off or drinking... it s a coping mechanism... I will never attempt SI again... my words to yall and Gods ears, i have learned my lesson there.

Yes its you , but you probably have me blocked so... what a waste of effort on my part..

I'm so sorry to hear that it didn't go well.
Not quite sure about the sex talk...think I might be missing something...

LC - what is going on? Do you know why you pushed him away?

lola talk to us, hope you're okay

well I thought I could say anything, turns out no... so I left... f him, not really... as he said no essentially...