[peaches100]

And I'm also MAD AT MYSELF that I can't break out of this cycle of feeling like a burden. . .

[Aloneandafraid]

Broken, crumbling, trying to keep positive but feeling like I'm falling. Afraid of these feelings. Grateful to have PC friends.

[blur]

feeling okay and very grateful the heatwave we've had is finally over. have some energy again.

[rainbow8]

Went to exercise class and errands with my H. I felt better but when I got home I had to lie down. Couldn't sleep. I want my life back!! I'll see T no matter what tomorrow but I won't show her the videos on my phone or hold her hand unless she says she doesn't care about germs. How long does a virus last anyway? This is much too long. I feel like I'll never feel good again.

[BonnieJean]

Sad and heavy and afraid,

[blur]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

Went to exercise class and errands with my H. I felt better but when I got home I had to lie down. Couldn't sleep. I want my life back!! I'll see T no matter what tomorrow but I won't show her the videos on my phone or hold her hand unless she says she doesn't care about germs. How long does a virus last anyway? This is much too long. I feel like I'll never feel good again.

rain, bugs are so much worse these days. colds and flus can last weeks whereas in the past 1 week seemed long. take care.

[rainbow8]

Thanks, blur. I didn't know that. I thought it's my age!

[AllyIsHopeful]

Anxious...short of breath...stuck...hopeless...alone...longing to feel better and remember what happiness feels like, if only for a day. How can I work toward something when I forgot what if feels like entirely? I think a day of happiness is what I need to renew my hope and motivation and the strength and fight I KNOW is in me. But how am I suppose to do this I I can't even get out of bed? Have no interests?

Everything sucks.

[Patagonia]

First of all I'm hungry & sick of this diet!!!
I'm also frustrated & very sad. Saw T's today & talked about having a safe person. I have a safe imaginary place, that's it. I don't trust a single soul in my life & I'll be married to my H 20 yrs this yr. No, I don't trust. Is that so bad? I asked T's why I don't & they really could nt answer me why. Am I that abnormal? A total reject? My one T said she'd hoped that I would come to trust them but I haven't. It's been a yr working w/ them. Is that hope lost? Should I just give up on ever possibly trusting one person in my life w/o getting burned alive?

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[RTerroni]

Very Anxious about session tomorrow

[healingme4me]

Solidifying aspects, bouncing it off T, this week.

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Well I feel abandoned, Yet again my T says that she is going to discharge me in roughly 8-12 weeks times, I was only told two weeks a go that she is keeping me on.

I feel like screaming.

[regretful]

Tired...afraid...alone...depressed...

[Aloneandafraid]

Anxious about session tomorrow followed by a two week break... Numb. Confused.
Broken.

[healingme4me]

As exhausted, as I am, right now. Worth it. Therapy, pushes me, to hold myself accountable, for my own emotions.
1.5 years back, i paid attention to my body language, with pdoc, after i carried myself differently, leaving his office. Thumbs in my pockets. Vulnerability, I tapped into what it feels, to feel vulnerable. Talk therapy, pushes, to not sweep feelings under carpet. Something comes up, address it. If need to sort and address, do so. But don't leave unaddressed, and build resentment or dismiss my own needs.

There. Thank you.

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Absolutely horrible. Depressed, anxious, paranoid, rejected, etc. You name it.

[Leah123]

Sad, tired, busy. Am thinking about when I was a teenager and left my father's house and step-family because of some disturbing events. Am thinking of being alone, isolated living with my mother, of not being understood in the mainstream way, by family or friends. Of having to go outside those relationships to find any happiness, but of what I lost despite those gains.

Am thinking when I was telling my T about some of the people I lost back then, during our Friday session, and I asked what she thought, and she said she'd noticed how much silence there was, that it maybe triggered this feeling of being a teenager again, where no one close to me knew the great depth of my emotions and how troubled I was. I'm talking about great losses, but because I'm pausing and not wailing... she's not getting it.

Pretty much SUCKS.

We talked it out some, but funny, I don't feel like we've talked it out at all... and that folks, is maybe what being triggered is: the past, on repeat, even after it's over.

sort of lost... Numb...

[BonnieJean]

blind sided, abandoned, tired, frustrated. trying to figure out how to take thinks hour by hour, i gues.s

very very very alone......in a house with people

I'm too pooped to pop. The concerts are over finally, but I am pretty wiped out. Somewhere in all of this I pulled a muscle in my side and it is giving me fits, making sleeping pretty painful. Not fun. Doing okay otherwise. I have an appointment with my T on Friday, but I may cancel it due to my own complete lack of interest or enthusiasm. I would rather just come home and vegetate at this point.

[RTerroni]

Tired after a long day, but it was a lot of fun.

happy.... really felt that connection with T during our appointment this evening...

I'm a little scared right now. My husband's specialist has diagnosed him with Paget's disease in addition to his reflex sympathetic dystrophy diagnosis. It makes sense and explains the extreme bone breakage problems he's been having, and it beats the alternative of bone infection or cancer which is where we've been heading recently, but something about a new diagnosis is unsettling. It probably won't really change much for my husband as far as his pain level or prognosis goes, but having a name for this is good I guess. Just feeling anxious at the moment. Need to do more research.

[someone321]

panicked/in crisis - try to ground myself right now but doesn't work so well, maybe tomorrow...