[healingme4me]

Was dreaming about court. I need to contact hp support so i can get my printer going again. Finishing exhibits.

Now bf, is educated about MS. Youngest is 7. 11 years until 18. I have within a decade to see where my health takes me.

Nothing medicinal out there. Bring on vitamin D, only hope at REPAIR. ...JUDGE LISTEN TO ME...

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[AllyIsHopeful]

So, so, SO...sick. Nauseated. I wish I knew what the cause was. I feel it has to do with new medication and dosage increases but it also may be something I ate or stress-induced physical symptoms.
Whatever it is, I feel so frustrated because I hate being on so many medications at such a young age and I feel over-medicated and sedated. In general, I just don't feel like myself.

[Freewilled]

Nervous because I've been feeling good So I can't feel good either....annoying! I had a really light session with my T, which I think I needed. I know I needed it. But now I'm noticing a worry creep in that my T will want me to leave now. I'm better and he doesn't have time for my petty concerns. Ugh. Here I go again.

Over the Rainbow. The day couldn't have been any better Even if I asked for it. I love life.

I lost a dear friend today to suicide. I'm completely numb.

[Patagonia]

((((1914sierra))))
I'm so very sorry for your loss.

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[Flyawayblue]

Originally Posted by 1914sierra

I lost a dear friend today to suicide. I'm completely numb.

I'm sorry for your lost.

[Flyawayblue]

I feel pain, sadness, anger, overwhelmed, hurt. It's all mixed emotions.

Kind of twisted up. Doing some difficult but very good work in therapy right now, which is good. At the store this morning, was going through father's day cards to find one for our son to give hubby, and almost broke down when I realized tomorrow will be the first Father's Day since my Dad died. Come home, hubby is in bed his hypochondria in full swing he has a little heat rash on his leg and has apparently decided he is dying again. He is so clearly and classically depressed but he REFUSES to talk to his doctor about it. I don't know how to deal with him when he is like this. I'm going to talk to t about it on Tuesday.

I'm feeling a little better today, or at least feeling again anyway. The funeral is not until Wednesday, so I have some time to regroup and see my T before then. That should help some. Thanks all for caring. It helps.

[glok]

After tenaciously battling for decades, I was told I may have to accept I will not get better. Today, like many other days, I am apathetic.

[pisces22]

I woke up feeling anxious. I stayed in bed for some hours, got up and drank a smoothie. Then I went back to bed. At 3pm, I got back up and now I'm laying on the couch. I've been eating here and there. I read something that gave me a little hope. I don't have much energy or hunger but I'm not feeling anxious. I prefer the depression over the anxiety any day.

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Interesting past two weekends. My ex Therapist let me know I was not intruding on them at the concert, and she welcomed my coming by. Well, she beat me to it, and came by to see me and gave me a hug while I was with my friends. They met her a couple of times the previous year. I was just so surprised that I forgot her name (sheepishly embarrassing). We talked and laughed the whole intermission. Then she gave me a hug and was off. The next concert I did not see my usual group, so was by myself. When ex found out I was by myself, she invited me to sit with them the whole concert. Yesterday, I did not go, but I sent an email asking if I could sit with them today. I did, and had a great time listening to orchestral music tonight with a good friend. Checking out.

[SoupDragon]

Battling with my head.

[Aloneandafraid]

Originally Posted by SoupDragon

Battling with my head.

Me too

[Thoughtsinpink]

I am dark...sad...and tired of fighting. Giving up hope of ever feeling better.

I'm sad again today. Thinking of my friend. Glad I see T tomorrow.

[kororain]

Good. I'm good. Got a new longboard yesterday and that equals freedom from my mind. Sailing. Smooth and free.

All of the therapy issues are still there, and I'm pretty much stuck until my next appointment, but not in crisis right this second.

I wish you could all go boarding with me. Let's ride!!

Feeling a little sad and weepy... Father's Day is not a good day for me. All the sentiment just reminds me of the father I did not have.

On the bright side...I had a little mini revelation that the pretending I don't exist thing I do when I'm upset or other r upset with me....isn't really working for me...I need to find other ways to shut down the monkey chatter in my head.... Going to start doing some meditation again...

[precaryous]

I feel pretty good today. I'll have to change my emoticon!

Went swimming for the first time this year yesterday. Took the grandson. It was great!

I have knee issues and I spent almost an hour getting on the ladder trying to either get in the water or up off the ladder. I was afraid once I got in the water that I wouldn't be able to climb out!

I finally got in and had great fun with kiddo. I was able to pull myself out on that stupid ladder when I wanted to. No paramedics needed!

We stayed about four hours. We were going to go back today but my muscles are too sore.

We'll go back soon. I love swimming!

My ex read my last Dear T, and this was her response that has warmed me all over:

"Dear LMLF,

Way to go. I'm looking forward to seeing what the future holds for you - opportunities are endless.

You are welcome - and thank you - more than you can know.

Love,
FM"

For me, these words are Priceless!

Very lonely

[freefallin]

Frustrated. Why can't I just focus? Why do I have to waste so much time watching videos on YouTube and stuff? This isn't who I am. I have such a drive to succeed but can't get my brain to allow me to act on it. It makes no sense.

[healingme4me]

I learned, the other state has something this area doesn't. Neuropsychiatry.

All in one M.D.? Hmmm, that's a concept.

And, many psychiatrists wish they could do therapy. It's a work type political reason it cannot happen and not first choice that it would be a 15minute structure. Nature of insurance, etc. That's just the evolution of the field and it's limitations.


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Pretty darn jazzed right now about this whole therapy process!!!

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