Couch 65...Where all the fun is!

I'm so sorry, mkac. How terrible for you.

It's 3am and I just got home, fed cats, and am now going to bed. Goodnight couch.

Sorry to hear that, MKAC. How awful.
G'nite Mast.
Hi Healed.

MKAC - very sorry to hear.

Oh, MKAC, how awful. I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry MKAC

mue- I hope you made it to the wedding, your daughter is at her dad's house and is feeling better. Happy Birthday too!

Good Night/Day to the rest of the couch!

((( MKAC ))) OH NO!! How awful! I am so sorry....

Thanks, photostotake!

I "kinda" made it to the wedding.

I got my daughter to her father's house, but unfortunately on the way to the wedding I was stuck in detoured traffic off of the major highway (who the heck does construction on I-95 on a Saturday afternoon? Grrr.) and ended up missing the ceremony. By the time I pulled in (20 minutes late), everyone was leaving the building.

BUT, I did attend the reception and had a really good time. Lots of dancing and some chatting. Amazing enough with a migraine brewing, neck pain and awful sciatica pain, I was able to get down on the dance floor here and there. LOL.

There were moments when I just didn't feel up to socializing, but I pushed through it.

They had a photo booth there with a bunch of props. Did some funny pics with it - one set by myself and one set with my uncle. That was fun!

My daughter survived her day at her dad's. They stayed home, had pizza and watched sports and news shows the whole time. Not my daughter's favorite, but she didn't complain. Such a good kid. She looks terribly pale and is awfully congested. Got home about a half hour ago, and she is fast asleep now.

All in all, a good day.

that used to be one of my favorite things about hammock camping back in my girl scout days - a couple days after at home in my bed I'd still feel the swaying of the hammock.

MKAC I'm so sorry about your duck, that's so sad and I imagine it would have been very difficult. I would have lost it too.

wow so sorry MKAC. that must have been horrible and I would have reacted the same way. you shouldn't feel bad about caring about something like that.

MKAC, I am so sorry about the duck. I would have responded the same way as well. Thats devastating. (((((MKAC)))))))

MUE-Glad you made it the wedding.

Good morning Granite.

I gotta go walk my dogs then head to the supermarket. My dog is looking at me as if to say "Get off your lazy ***. I want to go out"

Off I go.

Morning...

(((MKAC))) So sorry. That's just awful.

Here in the States it's Time Change...Fall Back! Yay, extra hour of sleep. Why didn't someone tell me that while I was still in bed?

Have a nice walk Jerz...
What are you up to Granite?

im going scrapbooking today I think if there is room for me and not a lot of people

Fun.
I have church.
Dropping mom off at my sister's afterwards...yay.
Then a swim I think.

Good morning.. Falling back one hour was good for my d, she slept in! My son on the other hand was up at 5:30am!


*******tw for talk of suicide********

I saw t on Friday.. He said something to me that really has me thinking and I really wanted to share it with you all, as I think it may be helpful to somebody.

We were talking about my lack of emotions, inability to pinpoint and convey feelings /emotions. I have known that is a defense mechanism from the trauma. It served me well for last 17 years of my life, but now it is causing some major problems between h and I.. Asnwell as keeping walls between the important people in my life. So, when I said to T that it is the huge internal battle between wanting those walls up and letting them down... Right now, it still feels a lot safer to keep the walls up. So, I asked t what he thought would happen if I decided to keep the walls up and he said that probably my marriage would not get better and I would probably continue this pattern of non sharing and being emotionally absent with everyone around me. I said, that is where the idea of Sui becomes appealing to me, because the inability to be vulnerable to the people around me mixed with the fear of what comes with being so open.. Has me feeling hopeless that I will never have any feelings of congruence inside of me... And that feeling sucks!!

Then t said, that the defenses I used to make me feel safe after the trauma are now the same things that could possibly kill me. That one line stopped me in my tracks.. Made the control that I felt when it comes to making the decision of taking my own life as really not in my control at all, but a product of the trauma and I can't let that trauma control me anymore.

So, I have been doing a lot of thinking over this weekend...

Hi couch. I was out in the forest for several hours last night (the party I mentioned). I don't know how dark it gets at the various USAnian latitudes at this point, but here, it was pretty much pitch black when we were dumped at the roadside at 6pm and asked to find the path which was signposted with lanterns and tea lights. We walked in groups of four along different paths, and met with various beings and creatures which we interacted with to find clues to where we were going. It wasn't a ghost trail or anything like that, though a few of the creatures we met were rather frightening. The arrangers were lucky about the weather, because it might very well have been raining, or snowing. As it was, it was a little foggy but warm enough while we were moving at least. A good party, it was (and yes, we did find our way to the hut where food and wine was served). My back hates me today, because the ground was of course very uneven as it tends to be in the forest, and I couldn't see where I put my feet, but it was totally worth it. I feel for the arrangers who have to go through the forest today and remove all the signs of our being there... because today, it's raining.

Thank you for sharing that, healed.

Enjoy swimming, wiki - and granite, I hope you get to do some scrapbooking. (It's been a while since you treated us to pictures.... just sayin' )

wow that does sound like a great time mast. something I would love to do. minus scary peeps. soak in a tub of warm water today and maybe that might help your back some

I have not actually been doing any scrapbook pages lately because I have been involved with these group projects that have overwhelmed me a bit .kind of bit off more then I could chew for a while.but it is calming down as I get these projects done

Healed thanks for sharing. My T always told me I can't live my life shut down, but she never explained why. Your post is food for thought.

Mast. That sounds fun! Considering I enjoy nature walks, I would love that, not sure about night time though.

Granite-hope you have fun scrap booking.

Wiki-glad you get to drop your mom off somewhere else for awhile. Enjoy that swim.

Hugs to all the juicers. And to the rest of the couchies.

I used to fall back hour to get some cleaning done-instead of sleep.

MAst - that sounds like a fun party.

After letting all the pets on the bed, they let us sleep an extra hour. There was no turning over or anything with 2 large dogs and two cats cuddled up on top of the humans, but at least they weren't poking at us to get fed.

Morning couch.

I gained an hour and I still slept in.

I should be washing laundry right now, but do not feel up to it. I counted my underwear and bras and have enough to last another week. I have enough clean clothes to last 2 more weeks. Thus, I decided that laundry can wait another week. Does that make me lazy?

MKAC, sorry to hear about the duck. It is always hard to lose an animal you care about.

MUE, glad you had fun at the reception.

Granite, I hope scrapbooking relaxes you today.

Wiki, enjoy the time away from the mother.

To all the juices, I hope you are doing well. I still salute you as I could never do something like that.

To all the other couchers, I hope the day is treating you well.