The Couch - Welcome to the Psychedelic 70's

A man said to the universe:
“Sir, I exist!”
“However,” replied the universe,
“The fact has not created in me
A sense of obligation.”

Stephen Crane

Omg! Mast! I dont know anyone else who knows that book!! When i read it again recently, I remembered how i felt when i first read it. I identified more with the old velvet-wearing Rose, dressing as one "had" to. I felt like i didnt have a choice, but i knew i wasnt living as the real me. I even asked my parents to buy me oatmeal because of that book. They refused, because my older brother had asked for maple-flavored cream of wheat and then not liked it and not eaten it, so they said i would do the same with oatmeal. Its not that they couldnt afford it. They just didnt want to tell me yes, for whatever reason. Thats what is weird. Not knowing why. It was so arbitrary and unnecessary, and caused me so much trouble in life. Story of my life.

Now i'm a steel cut oats girl.

Tomorrow. Unless Mother Nature gets in the f u c k I n g way because more snow is on the way. First it was just a snow shower then 3-6 inches now 4-8. And they just said if it hits a Little higher up.. 8+.

i think the best thing would be not to hate me for being so needy and posting a lot .i'm scared she will ask me if i want to continue and i will cave because i am terrified of starting over. but she may not because i e-mailed her about terminating .but i doubt she has read it .i think i will print out a copy to give her incase she didn't read it. it will be harder to change my mind knowing i have appointments with two other T's.

Good luck tomorrow, granite. You can always see the prospective Ts and THEN decide if you want to quit or not.

i am writing a letter to my T explaining some stuff that i feel .i don't know if i should give it to her and spend the time i have talking about it or to just have an issue free session and just keep it to my self. i don't know how to terminate i have just left and never came back

CHICA -glad to see you survived the head banging and visit with the mother . whats going on with the feelings going on with xt again. maybe thinking about getting back in T and is that making you think of him ? it has in the past.

. it was just a word reminded me of him,

I'll take my vocabulary and naff off then

I have always thought of foppish as being some way to describe men rather than women. Like a dandy.
Back before gay was a term.

I go see YT tonight... Have to make a decision... YT will be moving halfway around the world in about 8 weeks. I mentioned in an email that i really want to get through this workbook with him....so last session he told me to think about either having double sessions or 2 times a week...

This workbook is about the affects of ca on you now.... Talked about shame and contempt last week... And tried to read the chapters on powerlessness and betrayal this week but just ended up a sobbing mess

i have concerns about 2 x a week...because i dont want to become too overwhelmed and then become too dependent on him....

I dont know what to decide.

Hey, hankster. I read Eight Cousins too, (when I was a kid) but I liked Little Women best out of Alcott's books. They made a pretty good movie out of the book, also years ago.