Couch 78: Put your feet up and stay a while

You are WAAAAAY normal compared to me. Way normal. Way way way normal. Way. Way. Normal. Way.

You know what? You are way PAST normal. Look at what you have accomplished in spite of obstacles, and continue to accomplish.

And again - this applies to all of us. Anybody who made it thru this weekend!

i get suicidally depressed a lot. it's frustrating. i'm sorry i want to be a normal person too.

MKAC don't be embarrassed about how you are feeling .it isn't a weakness at all. I am sure having your inlaws around and all the crap with your MIL's SO is yucky and bringing up a lot .along with just every day struggles . work and all . I hope the mistake you made is an easy one to fix . sending hugs and support your way.

went to the gum today and was able to work off some of this jump out of my skin worry but it will be back . I feel horrible because I absolutely hate the mother right now. I cant even share my feelings with my T because she will just say don't go . that's not an option in my mind. and im so sad ill miss most of my sons visit at home to go be with her grrrrrr.

Can you try to make it an option in your head? Think of it this way, Granite, do you really want your son to feel like he is less of a priority to you than the mother??? This horrible woman who would not hesitate to put her own interests ahead of yours. Maybe you can manage to put your son's interests ahead of the mother's?

Granite. Not going is an option. My mother was in the hospital 25 minutes from my house and I didn't go. I felt guilty but I knew I couldn't go without it being a whole lot of crappy feelings coming up which were far worse than the guilt.

If not going isn't an option, could you do a compromise? Could you go before or after your son's visit? Since I wouldn't want to get involved in caring for my mother.... I would either go a few days before the surgery or I would go after she had recooperated or was in a rehab center or something but that is just me. I don't do sick people well and that is people I like so I wont' do it at all for people I don't.

I didn't know when he was coming home when I got the tickets. when I told him he said that I should go that I will be seeing more of him then I want when he gets out in jan. and I will be home on the 23 and he is not going back until the 29th so ill be able to spend some time with him . god I hope he doesn't think I am putting the mother as a priority over him . this will never be the case

Granite... how long are you staying for? Are you going alone?

Do you think it will be harder this time since you've started to delve more into the past? Do you think maybe you should discuss this with your T?

i know this is what i should do but i just cant do it yet .i hope some day ill get to this point and people who know me will be a lot more happy .they all hate her .it is hard .my loyalty to her is just so ingrained. i know i have no right to complain .after all in reality i can always say no . emotionally it is a heck of a lot harder .but some day

it is for only 9 days just to be there for her surgery and after care until they remove the cath. then im home with my boy

Ugh. 9 days with the mother. I hope she'll be napping for most of the time. Poor Granite.

Take her temperature for me, if you know what i mean. i always threatened my mother if she didnt follow the doctors orders for recovery, i would have to take her temperature. That would settle her down.

Normal people have to cope with failure on a daily basis, so it doesn't bother them. You're a prisoner of your own talent.

There's a mouse in our cupboard. I'm trying to see this as an opportunity. I could trap it humanely and release it into Madame T's garden.

Sure its not one of your prehistoric insects? NZ-Jurassic Park in your garden.

Nope. Not a weta.

I'm feeling a bit manic. But it makes a change.

Sent t an email over the weekend about how I felt like running away from him and therapy after our last session.. he responded today, his response makes me want to say not nice things to him, considering doing it in an email... somebody should probably warn me not to.

CE What about a weta in Madame T's letterbox? Or do you just want to scare her not actually harm her?

Emailing or leaving messages while angry is something I need to remind myself not to do

Add those points to stopdog's reminder about drunk texting. Anger can be just as distorting

We get humungus katydids here in southern cali

ohh pretty a leaf….WTF!!!!!!

You might wish you hadn't. Try to wait it out....

Eeek! That is crazy!

Ok- I will do it here and see if the urge passes in the mean time..

So, he said things felt different because he was being confrontational "but not in a harsh way." That it probably didn't feel normal, or good, but necessary... and it won't always be like that.

WELL T.. heres the thing, we just had an 18 day break, knowing that I have issues with connection and attachment.. WTH, would you think the first session after your break would be ok to be "confrontational?" IMHO that was bad freaking timing.. ***.

One just like it was on my apartment railing a couple of weeks ago. A couple of inches across.

Not as gross as CE's Weta's---I won't post those ugly things here!!!

Oh! I saw something that was just legs, no leaf!, all brown - what was that??

Eta - at least, i dont remember the leaf. I just remember being surprised it moved!