Couch 78: Put your feet up and stay a while

Don't think of yourself as a freak.
Think of yourself as a wonder.

Why do I always forget that I have a GREAT t? I had a incident happen this past week, with T.. I was flaming mad at T, and was convinced that it was the end of us working together, and he is probably done with me. Then, I show up for my appointment, and he says all the right things. He is able to say admit when he was wrong, etc. I wish I could hang on to knowing that.

If you report them, they get moved. I reported that one and they put it in um Sexual Issues or something.

Could use come positive vibes sent my way...or pocket riders for those so inclined
.... I am supposed to give my T a written account of what I can remember of a trauma experience...to see if it's enough memory to do exposure therapy ...

Feelings post writing....it's not even bad enough to call a trauma...I'm just a big baby who needs to just grow up and get over myself.....

Riding with you, rts!!!

I hope it goes well, Ready!

I could use some positive vibes this weekend on a non-therapy note. I am going to try to compete again on the horse I came off of and broke my wrist. She has been doing better, but ...

Good luck MKAC

Just saw 2 sunbirds looking for a nesting site out my window. I was about a foot away from them

Hi all! Hope all is well. Need a distraction from a difficult session tonight. So thought I'd come to the couch.

What made it difficult with T today, DD?

Just the topics we were discussing: avoiding grieving loss of x-pdoc, flashbacks of the "traumas"(T calls them traumas not me) associated during time w/ x-pdoc, that kind of stuff.

DD, I hate those kinds of sessions too.Hope you can distract for the weekend.

I'm having the problem of being so wound up about work that by the time I'm ok again, it's Monday…back to work.

Hope you are better able to relax this weekend growlycat.

Hey couch, just got home from work and kickin' back on this lovely friday evening. I had a really good session with t today (I begged for a 2nd one this week and am glad I did, it was emotional and healing, I felt so held and cared for even over the phone.) Tomorrow I'm taking a self-care day and heading to Sabino Canyon for some alone time in nature, followed by meeting up with my shamanic friends for a hike and some drumming under the moon and stars! T helped me realize today that I haven't quite recovered from my work trip yet. I had to be SO not myself, so like outside of myself, that entire week, I had to be very outgoing and confident in that role, and it took a lot out of me. I'm normally quiet and pretty reserved unless I'm with people I know well. That's part of why I've been a bit out of sorts all of THIS week, because I haven't given myself time to recuperate from the week before. I told t today the only thing that got me through the week was knowing the hot tub was waiting for me at the end of each day. But now I need me a nature fix and I'm heading out to get it tomorrow!!

Sending good, positive thoughts out to everyone!

I did report it, saying only that the thread might be a better fit in another forum. Moderators came to look at it. Nothing happened until many hours later, presumably after you had reported it.

I'm in, rts.
Sending positive vibes, mkac. Good luck.

...and it is the weekend again.

Our animals did something interesting this morning. We have two male cats who don't get like each other all that much. C and IJ. They tolerate each other, but that's about it. Anyway, the young dog was playing around in the living room and backed into IJ. IJ resented it and hissed and hit her, and apparently hurt her because she yelped. She whipped around and started to nip at IJ, and C jumped in between them and banged the young dog in the face. This was weird because the young dog and C are TIGHT. They cuddle and groom each other and wrestle. I'm not sure if C thought it was a game or what, but the young dog jumped on C. I couldn't tell now if she was playing or not, but she had C on the ground. Now the older dog, who ignores the cats completely and hates it if they touch her, rushes over and knocks the young dog off of C, and was snarling at her, protecting the cats. The older dog has protected the cats several times before from other dogs, but I still think it's odd that she acts like they don't exist most of the time, or snarls at them if they touch her, but then leaps to their defense. I also think it's odd that C would defend IJ, when he doesn't even like him, against the young dog, who he loves. Animals are just endlessly fascinating.

morning all .today is just a huge cluster _uck of a morning . I am suppose to help all day at the store and a friend says she wants to come 15 min before the store opens to shop the tag sale before everyone else .how presumptuous. then another friend texted me saying I am to meet her at her house to drive to her sisters party that I supposedly said I would go to . didn't remember .so now I need to tell store I cant help all day like I was suppose to . in the end I feel all of this is a loose loose situation for me and everyone is going to be mad at me and all I did was wake up. stressed out big time . why do I always get into this situation. I know it is me but crap I just want to say F it all and go back to bed

they truly are

Granite Which would you rather do. Store or party? If store, you could tell friend simply that something came up. If the friend gets mad, she will get over it.

im thinking this . I hate me right now and know I am blowing this all out of sorts but truly my friend doesn't take no easily and I want to do both . my biggest problem is I have to dress up and im so fat right now I have no nice dress up cloths that fit me and I will go to this thing feeling self conscious and miserable . had I got her text when she sent it yesterday I might have been able to go out and get something but I got it thismorning and I promised the store I would work they are depending pon me

I hate the cow that is me I truly do .I am a poor excuse of a human beaing and have no right even being seen in public for any reason . I cant wait until the xanx kicks in .then maybe ill feel better

I'm stuck in 1977!

I think it's mostly "no one else is allowed to hunt on my territory."

Ahhhh...sort of like you can't make fun of my sister....that's my job?